In the early winter after parting with Fei Guang, Chen Lu's pregnancy period has entered the 10th week, and the frequency of anorexia and morning sickness should gradually decrease.

But what should be is only what it should be, and it does not represent reality.

In fact, in the next two or three weeks, her anorexia and morning sickness seemed to be worse, often accompanied by anxiety, insomnia, and low mood.

The double bed suddenly became a single sleep, she was really not used to it, the room lacked Fei Guang's figure, and it looked so empty.

Sleeping alone, empty, she felt lonely, lonely, she felt empty, cold, she missed him so much.

I don't know if it was because of the aggravation of the pregnancy reaction, or because she missed him too much, but for a short period of time she had insomnia at night - difficulty falling asleep, waking up easily and dreaming; She is listless, sluggish, and disinterested in all kinds of things during the day; She is anorexic, nauseated, and does not think about tea and dinner; She was anxious, palpitated, depressed, and depressed.

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Later, Fei Guang changed to a copycat smartphone and began to exchange WeChat messages with Chen Lu. At that time, WeChat did not have the function of video calls, and could only send voice messages to each other.

This kind of voice message, although it can bring the distance between each other more than text messages, is still almost meaningless, so it does not relieve Chen Lu's anxiety and depression too much.

Two days later, after Fei Guang communicated with his sister Fei Shi, Fei Shi began to pay attention to her sister-in-law Chen Lulai.

After paying attention to it, Fei Shi was taken aback. Because according to Chen Lu's performance and the analysis of the data found on the Internet, she looks like "depression during pregnancy". If it is really "depression during pregnancy", then it is a big trouble, because "depression" is difficult to heal on its own, and pregnant women cannot take antidepressant drugs.

came to such a conclusion, where could Fei Shi still take care of her suspicion of Chen Lu, because just comforting and taking care of her sister-in-law was enough for her to be busy.

When Chen Lu was listless and slow, Fei Shi and her grandmother Li He encouraged her and took turns to accompany her to the country roads in the fields for a walk.

When Chen Lu was anorexic and nauseated, Fei Shi and Li He bought fresh fruits or fruit products such as citrus, sour plums, and hawthorn, and often made appetizing soup and appetizing tea for her to drink.

When Chen Lu was anxious, palpitating, and depressed, Fei Shi and Li He often took turns to comfort and enlighten.

In order to get rid of Chen Lu's difficulty falling asleep, Fei Shi slept with her every night and helped her do some gentle massage of her head and face before going to bed.

In order to arouse Chen Lu's interest in things, Fei Shi helped find beautiful pictures and animations on the Internet, so that she could collect style in the online world and then paint in the real world.

Fei Shi's original intention was to let Chen Lu paint some thriving scenery to drive away the emptiness. But Chen Lu painted the thriving as sad and sad, and also wrote a small poem on the painting with the lyricism of the scene-

Sijun

Chen Lu

The wind swept the mountain leaves,

Cool frost washes the ground and the flowers wither.

The wind is cold, the frost is cold, and the will is not moved,

The hollow valley Youlan looks forward to your return.

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After transferring from the urban and rural buses to the long-distance buses sent to Jinan, although Fei Guang stopped his tears, his sadness and anxiety still lingered.

Sad, sad is parting, and there is an unpredictable return date. This time he went to Jinan, he had two plans, one was to work for Wang Jian, and the other was to find other jobs, and the initial plan of both hands was not to go home for the New Year. If you go home again after the New Year, where is the time to work and make money?

Anxious, anxious about the uncertainty of the future, not sure whether he can afford a family, whether he can afford a wife and a child about to be born. I am worried about the current state of Wang Jian's project, and I am not sure if he can take him in again.

Before leaving, he didn't call Wang Jian, because he wasn't sure whether the phrase "come to Jinan to find me" that Wang Jian had said was polite or sincere. is also because he doesn't want Wang Jian to make arrangements in advance to pick up the wind for himself, and he doesn't want to cause too much trouble to others.

Because he was filled with sadness and anxiety, he was irritable and restless along the way, he had no appetite, he couldn't eat, and he really didn't have the leisure and elegance to enjoy the scenery along the way outside the car window, he was very uncomfortable. However, the journey was only 8 hours, which did not make this discomfort last too long.

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Although it is not the first time to come to Jinan, after just getting off the long-distance bus, Fei Guang is still a little uncomfortable in a short time. By the time I got off the bus, around 6 p.m., the sun had already set and taken away the residual heat of the air, and the evening breeze was not biting, but it was cold enough. In addition, the temperature is 7-8 degrees colder than the average temperature in his hometown, so the clothes on his body are not warm enough.

I hadn't eaten in the car, and my body became more and more hungry after the cold wind blew like this. After moving from the enclosed space of the bus to the open station square, the discomfort of nausea gradually subsided. These two factors created favorable conditions for Fei Guang's next meal, and he drank two bowls of haggis soup and ate two baked cakes.

I don't know if it was because of the mutton soup and baked cakes, or because Fei Guang's stomach was not very good, that night and the next two days, he was tortured enough by abdominal pain, retching, and diarrhea.

That night, after eating and drinking, he did not choose to go directly to Wang Jian, but rented a small single room in an urban village near Wang Jian's studio (a few months ago, when Wang Jian rented an office space and set up a studio, he had given Fei Guang a specific address), and settled down first.

"If Wang Jian doesn't use me, I can find another job nearby."

"The rent here is only 200 yuan a month, and renting a house is much more cost-effective than staying in a hotel temporarily."

He thought so.

After paying the rent and deposit, and buying all the daily necessities, the balance in the bank card is not much. So at the beginning of the abdominal pain, retching, and diarrhea, he was not willing to spend money on treatment, and even when it was serious the next day, he only bought a box of morpholine.

Fortunately, this small illness only haunted him for two days and nights, and then "Mingjin withdrew his troops". But unfortunately, his wife Chen Lu was angry because of his two consecutive days of neglect.

"Every time you call, it feels like you're distracted, and several times I haven't said it's enjoyable, and you have to find an excuse to hang up."

"Every time I send you a long text message, I just reply to me with a few words perfunctorily."

"What do you mean?"

"If I make you feel tired and tired, or if you have a new love, just make it clear to me in person, and I promise not to bother again!"

On the afternoon of the third day of coming to Jinan, when Fei Guang's body had not yet returned to normal, he suddenly received several text messages from Chen Lu. These text messages, like a few cannonballs, blew him up all at once, and he was speechless.

After a brief moment of confusion, he quickly adjusted his mentality, and then spent more than an hour typing a long draft.

When everything was ready, he dialed Chen Lu's mobile phone number and dialed it three times in a row, but no one answered.

He was anxious, but not angry, because he knew that the person on the other end of the phone was her who had fallen into the pain of parting and experienced the pain of being left out in the cold. At this time, she is fragile, sensitive, complaining, and urgently needs her own patience to soothe.

When no one answered three times in a row, he dialed the fourth time.

"Lulu, I'm sorry—" After dialing, he apologized in the most sincere tone.

"When I first got out of the car, I was a little sick to my stomach and uncomfortable, so two or three calls that night only lasted a few minutes and you hung up."

"On the second and third days, I didn't reach my friend, his phone couldn't be reached, so I started the prep plan and was busy looking for other jobs. Finding a job takes brains and energy, and you go out early and come back late. So not only did it shorten the call time with you, but it also perfunctory some of the text messages you sent. ”

"Now that I've got a job and a place to live, I'm settled!"

"I'm sorry, it won't be like this next time!"

There was no response to the first apology, and Fei Guang apologized for the second time after stating the lies on the scratch paper.

When he first fell in love with Chen Lu, Fei Guang originally planned to treat each other with sincerity and no longer tell half a lie, but at this time, he broke the big precept. In the previous incidents, although there were also cases of concealing the facts from Chen Lu, he thought that those were just breaking the small precept of treating each other with sincerity, and this blatant lie could be regarded as breaking the big precept.

Therefore, when he told this lie, he was very entangled in his heart, and it was very unpleasant.

After the entanglement, he still said it, because he didn't want Chen Lu, who was already surrounded by fragility and sensitivity, to worry about himself anymore. He didn't want Chen Lu to know that he had little money left.

Behind the lie, in fact, during the two days and two nights he came to Jinan, he was entangled by abdominal pain, retching, and diarrhea, and was recuperating in bed.

"Oh-"

"Then you didn't say it earlier?"

"I thought that rich friend took you to spend all day and night, and I forgot about it!"

After Chen Lu listened to Fei Guang's second apology, her anger subsided a little, but she still had a little complaint in her reply, complaining that he didn't tell the truth earlier.

"I ...... Am I not afraid that you will be worried? After Fei Guang heard Chen Lu's answer, he was nervous again.

"The less you say, the more I guess and worry about!" Chen Lu took away the complaint, and her tone returned to calm.

"Oh!" When Fei Guang heard this, he suddenly realized that he might have made a mistake, made a self-righteous mistake, and told a lie that should not be told.

"Promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you will tell me the truth as soon as possible, okay?"

"If there is any difficulty, we will face it together and solve it together!"

When Chen Lu said these two words, she turned her calm tone into affectionate.

"Uh...... Good! After a short pause, Fei Guang agreed.

During the pause, he first affirmed the error of his lie, and then another voice in his heart broke his affirmation.

"Husbands and wives and lovers can sometimes tell some white lies!"

"As long as this lie is based on love and the purpose of maintaining feelings!"

The voice said.

"I heard that the temperature over there is lower than that in my hometown, and the clothes you brought are not too thick, are they cold?" Chen Lu's tone turned gentle.

"It's not cold, how about you?"

"Are you cold at home?"

Fei Guang received gentleness, his heart was warm, and then he asked Chen Lu with the same gentle words.

"I'm not cold either-" Chen Lu also received a warm current in his heart, and unconsciously lengthened his voice.

If Chen Lu only received a small warmth at this time, then Fei Guang's next words were a lot warmer.

"Do you know, although I have been busy sometimes in the past two days, the work of 'missing you' has never stopped in my heart.

In the future, don't think about it anymore and say that I'm like and that with other women.

Because in my eyes, in my heart, you are the only woman in this world, and I only treat other women as 'people', just 'people'!

In the past two days of thinking about you, I filled in a small poem, and I read it to you-

Sauvignon Blanc

Fei Guang

Yesterday, today, I looked for you several times in my dreams, and I woke up without knowing it.

A swallow wing, a magpie a wing, than the wing to bring my mind, send acacia in the air. ”