Misty stared and fell asleep. Ji Conan didn't know what time it was, but he heard someone crying next to him. Ji Conan barely opened his eyes, and saw Shen Jing sitting on the small square stool next to him, his eyes were swollen from crying, Ji Conan asked curiously, "Shen Jing, what are you doing?" ”

"I miss my mom and dad."

"You miss them, you can go back to see them on vacation. It's only been less than a month since I started working, and I started to think, how long will it take to go home when you're in Kyoto? Don't you ever look at them? ”

"I have very little time to go back home. I always have to be busy with other things, and I forget to communicate with my parents when I delay. My older brothers and sisters have all started families and have their own families, and my parents are the most worried about me. They always told me to find a boyfriend, hoping to marry me off sooner, and they completed the task. But I didn't find a suitable one, and I kept searching, but to no avail. I thought, why is my life so miserable! Shen Jing wiped her tears with a napkin and said, there was still a tear at the corner of her mouth, but she didn't wipe it.

Ji Conan wiped it for her and muttered, "I'll find it." What kind of boyfriend are you looking for? ”

"I'm just looking for a man like you to be a lover. It's a pity that my sister-in-law took the lead. You and I can be described in four words. ”

"What four words?" Ji Conan asked.

"Guess what."

"I can't guess, my IQ is not as high as yours."

"You have a low IQ and a high EQ, isn't it your blessing to find a sister-in-law?"

"Yes, what four words?"

"I really want to know?"

"Well, I really want to know. Talking, saying half, leaving half, what is that? ”

"It's too late to see each other." Shen Jing said, word by word, looking very solemn.

"This is no joke, this is not going to work. You're from a big city and have a high IQ, so I'm not worthy of you. Don't lift me up. It makes me feel ashamed. Ji Conan blushed and said.

"I just think it, I've traveled a lot of places, met a lot of people, rich and not, talented and talented, all have contact, three religions and nine streams, and I still know some people, I think you are good, you are a good person." Shen Jing said.

"What good do I have? Greedy, selfish and stubborn, conceited, self-serving, sentimental, not attentive enough, in short, imperfect, I am not worthy of your love. There are many good men in the world, if you open your eyes and stand taller, you will definitely be able to find someone you like. ”

"I'm like Lin Daiyu in "Dream of Red Mansions", with an empty belly full of talent, outstanding appearance, and a good figure, after all, I still have a soul and a place where no one buries flowers."

"Don't be so sentimental. I chose to get married for the sake of getting married, for the sake of my parents, and for the sake of filial piety. Since you have chosen, you have to be responsible to the end. It's not that I'm indiscriminate, it's because I'm too affectionate to reassure my wife and your sister-in-law. Therefore, even if we are fated, we must keep a certain distance and grasp the proportion, otherwise, it will not only hurt you, hurt me, but also harm my family and hurt many people, which you don't want to see, right? Ji Conan said with a serious face.

"That's what you're talking about. Just listening to you, my heart will be very satisfied. In fact, the union between men and women is not only the integration of the body, but more importantly, the unity of the mind. Even if we had a relationship, nothing would come of it, right? ”

"That's right. In the summer, I am more likely to see strange thoughts, but after all, there is a moral bottom line that cannot be touched. Otherwise, it will really be out of control, and I am afraid that I will be too dedicated to my feelings, so that I will fall deeper and deeper, and I will not be able to extricate myself, and I will really regret it later. Ji Conan was determined not to think anything wrong about Shen Jing.

Shen Jing was still crying. In the darkness, through the afterglow of the passenger ship that whistled by, Ji Conan saw the tears rolling down Shen Jing's cheeks again, and felt pity.

But reason immediately prevailed and could not go any further. Otherwise, it is easy to cause greater and more misunderstandings.

Shen Jing was still choking, Ji Conan was worried that she was too sad and not good for her health, especially now in the mountains, if she went home, she either wanted to go back, or she would go back, and it would take almost a whole day, and she would have to endure the pain of driving and horses on the road.

Thinking of this, Ji Conan persuaded her: "The probation period is about to pass, depending on the situation, if we can become regular and become real employees of the organization, we will all be officially hired, how good it would be!" ”

Shen Jing burst into tears, and she cried as she said, "I know I won't be hired." I offended Lao Tan, he will definitely report to his superiors, and Teacher Feng and Miss Liu will definitely know that I am destined to be eliminated. ”

"Not necessarily. Teacher Feng and Miss Liu still believe our words. The words of the branch staff are not credible. Otherwise, we wouldn't have to travel thousands of miles to this remote country to oversee the implementation of the project. ”

"That's right. Still, I had a hunch that I wouldn't be hired. ”

"Why do you say that?" Ji Conan was curious about the woman's premonition.

"I don't think Teacher Feng is the kind of woman who is magnanimous. She is jealous of her ability, whoever is stronger than her, she will engage whomever she is, and whoever is more capable than her, she will step on whomever she wants. I'm still on probation now, and she doesn't do anything with me. If you are officially hired, you have to weigh it. She had to consider whether I obeyed her or not. This strong woman, having a home is the same as not, spending all day with Miss Liu, leaving her husband aside, and educating her children is also hot and cold, I don't know what her children will look like in the future, it is estimated that they will not be very good. When we participated in the training, no one could answer the question, I did, she saw it, she didn't say a word, I looked at her, obviously jealous of me. ”

"No, she looks at everyone like that. You also have a time when you look away, there are few strong women like her in the world. She is a strong worker, of course, she has problems in running the family and taking care of her husband and children, and she has no skills in key parts, and her time and energy are limited. This is called, loyalty and filial piety cannot be both. Right? Ji Conan retorted.

Shen Jing moved her hips, and the small square stool made a squeaky sound, which made her embarrassed, this sound was easy to cause misunderstanding, and then she faced Ji Conan and blew a breath on him, Ji Conan turned his face and said, "The mouth stinks!" How not to brush your teeth? ”

Shen Jing smiled, she said, "I'm too lazy to brush." Get up at night to go to the toilet and see how well you sleep, and I'll come in. I didn't expect you to even close the door, is there any hint? ”

"What's the hint?"

"Look me in the eye and speak." Shen Jing ordered him.

"I, I, it's too hot, open the door and sleep, it's cool." Ji Conan looked at Shen Jing's eyes, watery, reflecting a glimmer of light in the dark night, his eyes were full of intense affection, but he immediately turned his gaze away, worried that such attention would produce guilt after a long time, so he still pretended to be relieved and refused to admit it.

"Forget it, hypocrite! I won't pursue it. In the end, you don't love the people who love you, but you love the people who don't love you. Shen Jing said hatefully.

"Then who loves me, who I love, who doesn't love me, who I don't love?" Ji Conan asked.

"Those who love you are around, those who don't love you are far away, those you love are not here, and those who don't love you are not here." Shen Jing said with a smile.

"It's just a tongue twister, what love is not loved, I don't know what love is." Ji Conan teased.

"Honestly, have you ever loved her?" Shen Jing asked Ji Conan.

"If you don't love her, how can you marry her?" He replied.

"Okay, continue to pretend, lie to yourself, you know better than anyone else, whether you love or not, who you love, whether the shoes fit or not, you know, outsiders can't see it, remind you, a marriage without love is dead." Shen Jing said.

"Our marriage is alive. I love my wife, I am willing to sacrifice everything for her, she is the best woman in the world, I marry her, I have no regrets, and I am willing to be good to her for the rest of my life, even if she always hurts me, I am willing. He retorted.

"Forget it, I can't say you, you are simply a masochist, your body, mind and soul are willing to be tortured, what you choose, whether it is right or wrong, you will be responsible to the end, you are a man with a sense of responsibility, which woman marries you, it is a blessing cultivated by several generations. Forget it, forget it, men and women have nothing else to do together except to fall in love? Love is a luxury, not something that ordinary people can afford. Shen Jing said.

"Do you like luxury?" Ji Conan asked.

"Luxury? I don't like it, and there are no luxuries, can luxuries only be seen but not used? Don't you know? Girls love to talk about love the most. When I was in school, we held a dormitory meeting in the evening, and we talked all night, and I didn't know how to get tired. Shen Jing said.

"Hey, what are you men talking about?" Shen Jing added.

"Let's talk about you women together."

"That's not right."

"It also talks about national events, history, astronomy, geography and human development, journalism and drinking." Ji Conan said.

"No wonder. That's the difference between men and women. Shen Jing said.

"I'm not interested in those things, but I have a strong interest in marriage, love and family, and human psychology." Shen Jing said.

"Maybe you're old enough to talk about marriage. These issues have to be considered. ”

"yes. Men and women are different, men think about ruling the world, women think about ruling men, and I'm worried about that. If the law allows for a concubine, I am willing to give it to you. ”

"Do you really think so?" He asked.

"Lie to you that you're a puppy. I fell in love with you from the first time I saw you. However, there is just no chance to confess to you. Shen Jing said.

"Then we were born at the wrong time. You know, I don't have to be in such a hurry to get married. But then again, if I don't get married, my girlfriend will not let me out to work if she has an opinion. ”

"That's it. What is the situation in the world? No one can tell. I'm late, but I don't regret it, I can treat you as my best friend. ”

A passenger ship chirped past from the window, and in the silent night, the sound of the river crashing on the shore could be heard. The light of a bright searchlight swept through the room, and Ji Conan saw the beauty in the room, sitting upright beside him in a skirt.

Her eyes seemed to be closed, and they seemed to be open, and she couldn't see clearly, and the night was hazy.

Ji Conan also felt very sleepy. He wanted to drive Shen Jing away, so he asked her:

"Why are you sitting in my room with your clothes neatly dressed?"

"I'm wearing less, come to your room, you don't want to insult me, do you?"

"Want to insult you? You're kidding. Lonely men and widows are together, and if they want to insult you, they will be rude a long time ago. Why should I consult with you? ”

"I don't want to wear revealing clothes, which are undignified and contrary to my beliefs. I was in a bad mood last night, I didn't want to do anything, so I went to sleep. I slept until midnight and dreamed, and I couldn't help crying when I thought about the fate of my loved ones and me. When I walked to your room and sat next to you, I still couldn't help but cry. It seems that I owe you tears in my last life, and I have come to pay you back in this life. ”

When Ji Conan heard this, his nose was also a little sour, and his heart felt like he had knocked over a five-flavor bottle, and he had all the tastes. He held back and stopped talking. With his back to Shen Jing, a line of tears rolled down disobediently.

Shen Jing noticed that Ji Conan was crying, so she walked over and helped him wipe his tears. said, "People just stopped, and you came to recruit people again." Isn't it that we are not destined to be together? Okay, I'll go later, you can live by yourself, and you can be clean and comfortable. ”

"Don't say that, it's fate that we can be together. A hundred years of repairing the same boat, a thousand years of repairing to sleep together, although we are not husband and wife, but living under the same roof, is a cohabitation relationship between men and women, what is it like husband and wife? I think I'm also miserable. Nothing went well, and I finally reluctantly got married, but I found someone who was not satisfactory. However, I resigned myself to my fate. I think it's God's punishment for me, or for my grandfather, all the way to my generation. Ji Conan said.

"Why do you say that?" Shen Jing asked curiously.

"I didn't get a good unit after graduating from college, just because my father had no power and no money to dredge up relationships. My classmates have backgrounds, backgrounds, and they all went to the public security department, and almost arrived at a good unit, so I could only go to the lawyer's office, live on my own ability, provide consultation and scrivener, help teachers run errands, and barely make ends meet. When my career was just starting, I came here again to help the poor. Where it will be in the future, it is not yet known, and it may be necessary to start from scratch again. Ji Conan grumbled.

Shen Jing's eyes widened, staring at Ji Conan, staring at Ji Conan's heart, as if she had seen through her thoughts, so she avoided her gaze. Shen Jing shook her head, her long hair flowed, and Ji Conan smelled the perfume on Shen Jing's hair and felt very comfortable. Shen Jing walked to the window, and he looked at Shen Jing's back.

Shen Jing listened to his whining words and did not interrupt him. She just closed her eyes, stood and listened to Ji Conan, the passenger ship outside the window was flashing searchlights, honking its horn through the canyon, the sound echoed in the canyon, spreading far away, Shen Jing suddenly felt very down-to-earth and happy.