Chapter 252: Shadows
"No, no, little friend, you didn't do anything wrong, it's Auntie who was just thinking about things in a daze today, it's okay, it's okay, I'll continue."
Xiaoli's mother could see that the child was looking forward to it, and he knew that the child's heart was excited and happy, because the child's emotions were all expressed on his face, and the adults could see it themselves.
He could feel how much this kid was looking forward to playing with some friends, and he guess he was already very happy to be able to play with him today.
"Auntie, Auntie, do you think Xiaowei I am a mortal child, why don't those children and teachers like to play with me, and even some classmates think I'm disgusted, what should I do?"
Xiaowei usually said these things to her grandmother, but her grandmother didn't take this matter seriously, she felt that her grandson would have some problems, and the things pointed out by others must be correct.
Although Xiaowei didn't have the ability to distinguish things at this time, when he heard his grandmother's words to him, he had to hide his thoughts in his heart, because he didn't know if what he said would make his grandmother angry, after all, grandma's body was old, and he took medicine to let grandma watch him grow up.
So Xiaowei generally doesn't say what she wants to say, she feels that she just wants to hide these things in her heart, his grandmother told him not to tell strangers about things, because that will let some people know those things in their family, Xiaowei is also a very obedient child, she really doesn't say anything.
Because Xiaowei never saw his mother and father when he was born, and he never knew what kind of people his mother and father were, but she knew that she had a grandmother, and her grandmother was very good to her.
In fact, Xiaowei is also very curious about who his mother and father are, but every time he said the sentence just now, his grandmother seemed to have seen it, and directly told him very sternly that he was still young and should not know about it.
So after that, although Xiaowei was still very curious about his father and mother, he couldn't say what he thought in his heart, and he still remembered his grandmother's words from time to time.
Grandma actually knows that this child is so young, he must need a father and a mother, but some things are still incomprehensible to a child, so AT will talk about it every time.
Xiaoli's mother was very uncomfortable when she heard AT's words, he didn't expect a child's mind to be so complicated, and when he saw her lonely back after she just finished speaking, his heart was even more uncomfortable.
Because when Xiaoli's mother was a child, his father and mother were often not by his side, and he relied on housekeepers to be by his side almost everything, and at that time he decided that he must not let his children be punished like this.
In Xiaoli's mother's heart, the memory of not having her father and mother in that childhood was like a spell, every day was unhappy, and every day was spent in the ridicule of other children.
She knows that her mother and father are busy with things, but she just feels unfair, why do other people's children have parents by their side, but she only has a housekeeper by her side.
She felt that the world was unfair to her, so he always punched and kicked the butler at any time, and she felt that it must have been something the butler said in front of her father and mother that would keep them from coming back.
So at that time, he locked himself in his room, and she even wondered in her heart whether her father and mother didn't plan to have her, otherwise why would they never come back.
He obviously behaves well every day, he is very obedient every day, and he eats and studies on time every day, but why do his mother and father dislike him like this, what did he do wrong, and why no one told him.
Although in later times, Xiaoli's mother knew that the reason why her mother and father were not by her side was because she had to take care of herself at home and make her living situation better.
But Xiaoli's mother felt that her mother and father should make this matter clear to herself, so that she would not have this and that emotion, and there would be no accidental hurt.
So after Xiaoli's mother grew up, he made up his mind in his heart that no matter what happens in the future, he must take care of the child by himself, and he must not lack it in her necessary growth process, so that it can be regarded as the best explanation for the child.
He will definitely not let his children repeat his own experience again, no matter how busy he is, he will accompany his children one day, and he will not let his children have a shadow in his heart like he is now.
In fact, the reason why Xiaoli's mother followed his father with all her heart at that time was because his father was very good at talking and coaxing people, but the bigger reason was because the man said at the time, "Baby, we must have a child in the future, we want to give her a happy family, and we have to love her well." ”
In Xiaoli's mother's heart, the incident in her childhood was a very deep shadow, so when she heard her words, he directly identified this man in his heart.
So when his mother and father stopped him later, he couldn't listen to it, because he never told his father and mother about it, and he didn't want his mother and father to have too much burden in their hearts.
After all, there has been a misunderstanding between them, and to say such a thing is to add to the blockage, and this kind of relationship between them is the best.
When Xiaoli's mother gave birth to her baby, the words that her husband said to herself kept appearing in his heart, but she didn't expect her husband to treat her like this, he was simply a well-dressed beast, but for the sake of her child, Xiaoli's mother has been enduring this, until he couldn't bear it anymore, so he had to choose suicide.
When he committed suicide, he deliberately chose a hidden place, because he didn't want his children to see him like that, because this shadow in his heart would linger for the rest of his life.
But in Xiaoli's mother's heart, she has always remembered what her husband said to herself, because it was the most beautiful love poem he had ever heard, and it was because of this sentence that she became so gentle today.
Xiaoli's mother felt very sad when she thought of this, so when she heard Xiaowei's words, her psychology became even more heartbroken, she felt that she had to persuade this Xiaowei well, if he left a deep trace in his weak heart, it would be the biggest harm to him.
"Our Xiaowei is so well-behaved, how can any children hate you, it must be that the children have something in their hearts that they haven't told Xiaowei."
In fact, Xiaoli's mother didn't know how to persuade this child, after all, Zi didn't know what happened to AT, and he couldn't empathize, so he had to enlighten Xiaowei little by little, so that he would know what Xiaowei had experienced, so that he would know how to persuade him.
"No, Auntie, the teacher doesn't like me every time he sees me, he puts me in the back every time, and the children don't want to sit at the same table with me, and every time a child talks to me, the teacher will take them away from me."
"But Xiaowei has always been very well-behaved, and he has never done such an outrageous thing to other children, Auntie, what do you say is going on?"
When Xiaowei spoke, the more she spoke, the more she felt that she had done nothing wrong, and she also felt that she was very wronged, so she silently lowered her head and did not dare to look at Xiaoli's mother.
Xiaoli's mother looked at her and was angry and sad in her heart, because she didn't know what the situation was in Xiaowei's family, but as a teacher, how could children have a division of three, six, nine, etc., children are innocent and their fate is not determined by them, why should those teachers judge him based on human appearance.
"Xiaowei, do you believe Auntie?" Xiaoli's mother said gently, it was like treating a treasure, she felt that this child was so pitiful that people didn't dare to touch it, as if it was as fragile as a pearl.
Xiao Wei looked at the red-eyed aunt opposite him, he didn't know what was going on, and inexplicably felt that the woman in front of him was someone he should trust, because he was still the first person who was willing to play with him and was so good to himself.
Xiaowei didn't speak, but nodded fiercely to show that he had agreed, and he even felt at that moment that the woman in front of him was like his mother, if he could have such a mother, he would definitely be obedient and good to his mother.
When Xiaoli's mother looked at the movements of the child in front of her, a warm current directly crossed her heart, she felt that it was her honor to meet this child today, and it would be good if her child was so obedient in the future.
"You look at Auntie, Auntie tells you that you are the most obedient child in the world, and the reason why teachers and children ignore you is not because you are disobedient, but because you are already a little adult, so the teacher will put you in the corner."
"Children, they are not very mature, and the teachers are afraid that their actions will affect you, so they will keep the children away from you."
"Xiaowei, you are a very smart child, and you are also a very sensible child, you have to trust all your own decisions and judgments, you don't care too much about other people's opinions, you are you, a child that no one else can surpass."
"You just have to do what you like, doing it well is the best reward for yourself."
Although Xiaowei didn't understand much about what the beautiful aunt in front of him said, he could feel that what this aunt said to him was completely sincere, he must listen to her well, and he must grow up quickly so that he can earn a lot of money to take care of his grandmother and this aunt.
Xiaoli's mother's words can be said to have a significant impact on the child in front of him, once this child encounters something in the future, he will repeat these words in his mind, and he has been spurring him on the road to success.
When I grew up, every time I thought of this sentence, Xiao Wei still had the fiery eyes of Xiaoli's mother at that time and that face, but no matter how Xiao Wei went to find this beautiful aunt, there was no news.
Because in his heart, he still couldn't believe that this beautiful aunt had left him.
It wasn't until many years later that Xiaowei fell deeply into it when he met Xiaoli, because Xiaoli looked too much like his mother, and it was carved out of a mold.