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I just wanted to test to see if my mother had handed it over, and she said that she had already filled it out for me and should have handed it over when she came to see me off, but after delivering the goods, he left directly, and I haven't seen him deal with the teacher at any time.
"Oh, you mean that watch, your mother has already handed it over, he didn't hand over the original one, he just sent it to me in the form of a document, you don't have to worry, since I didn't ask you to pay it, it should be handed over, go play with the children."
Just these few words want to send me away, I won't leave, I haven't asked the things I want to ask yet, how can I just give up like this, and I think about what kind of way to ask you this question in a class? "Teacher, I'm ......"
"The teacher knows what you want to say, you have recruited a lot of children in our hospital for the competition, and you see that our hospital is getting bigger and bigger, and you also have your credit, so you want to talk to me about going to elementary school, in fact, your mother told me, which is why I didn't suggest that your mother send you to primary school, in fact, you are much stronger than these children, just like you have your own summer vacation, you know that you can go to primary school, but you are not old, If you go to elementary school, it will still attract attention, and your mother doesn't want you to enter the public eye, because it will not be good for your future growth. ”
"But you can also see it, teacher, I can't fit into them at school at all, every time they play, I can only watch from the sidelines, and I don't dare to refute what they say, because I'm afraid that they won't agree with me, that is, we don't think together, how can we play together, so I feel that I am in kindergarten, and I can't help myself at all."
I know that what I said is very likely to offend the kindergarten teacher, but there is no way, only to provoke him, he is willing to say it to my mother, the last time I may not know which sentence I said wrong, he told my mother, disobedient in kindergarten and other children can not play with this kind of bad words, so now I am not afraid at all, he doesn't care what he is talking to my mother, my mother scolds me and scolds me, anyway, I really can't stay here, it's too depressing, it's different from them, It's a kind of pressure on my spirit, do I want to be like their kindergarten teachers to make these children happy? I can't.
"Teacher ......"
"Don't stand in front of me and say these things, you're still young, and you can't do some things, so you have to look at your mother's opinion, and the teacher doesn't dare to say anything to your mother here, think about it from the teacher's point of view, and this is about your family's family affairs, and it won't be good if the teacher interferes more, and the teacher mentioned to your mother that you should go to first grade, but your mother said about age, so I'm embarrassed to continue to say my opinion, I'm really embarrassed, I really can't help you, kid. ”
The teacher's words really made me unable to answer, and my little hands were sweating from the corners of my clothes, because I was very nervous since the moment I came in, although I had thought about it several times in class, and the scene of me talking to the teacher was simulated several times, and I also thought that if I was rejected by the teacher, it would not be a big deal in the future, and I could still bear it myself, but when I really faced this problem, what should I do if I was really panicked? What else can I do other than start with the teacher, do I have to ask the teacher, can you show me the family questionnaire in our family? It definitely didn't work, my mother handed it over to the teacher, wasn't it because she was suspicious that I would know something, so she didn't want to go through my hands.
"Teacher, I know, that's the teacher, can I sit with you in the office for a while, because I really can't play with the children outside, even if you don't want to talk to my mother about it, what you said is also very reasonable, it's our family's business, maybe I shouldn't come to trouble you."
My words are too polite, the teacher will definitely apologize to me, and I know, because in his opinion, I am just a 5-year-old child, he will not care about me, but if I say such a big reason, he will definitely feel that such a young child is so sensible, and I guess I have experienced a lot of family conflicts. I guess he's going to think of me like that, but I'm not sure, because everyone's heart is different, and that's what I've only recently observed.
"It's okay, it's okay, if the child encounters any trouble, tell the teacher, and the teacher will definitely help if he can, but the teacher is really powerless about this matter, I'm really embarrassed."
The teacher took me by the hand and carried me to a small cartoon chair across from his desk, on which was a cartoon of a Tigger, which I had seen when I was in third grade. So I remember very clearly, the chair I sat on and touched the Tigger was quite cute, I never thought that I could still have this kind of treatment, I was still reborn The teacher picked me up and didn't talk to me again, he only cared about his own sorting out the files of those children, he poured me a glass of sweet water, that sweet is honey water, I tasted it.
When class was about to start, the teacher picked me up and carried me to the classroom, I knew that today was the end of the day, because the school couldn't start, and my dad didn't come home often, if I grew up quickly, I didn't have to suffer these suffocations here, I didn't know anything, everything was deceived by them, but I didn't seem to have a reason to say these things, because I was also lying to them, and it was Aunt Jiang who came to pick me up after school, because I also knew that my mother suddenly fired the other two aunts, I don't know what it means, but maybe it's because I'm growing up and I don't need so many people to take care of me, I understand, but Aunt Jiang lied to me, so I don't believe all of what he says sometimes. But in the past few years, I can still rely on the child's words to come up with something, especially the girl in our kindergarten, she seems to be really as good as me, and she is better than me, if I really encounter anything in school, I can't talk to those children, and he is a person in front of the children, and in front of me is a pair of words in front of the teacher, people, he is really incomprehensible, he is really getting more and more powerful.