Chapter 606: Pushing Yourself and Others
And Helian Yingche knew that the queen Helan Diemeng in her arms had fallen asleep forever, and heaven and man were separated forever, but she still hugged her tightly and refused to let go for a long time, as if Helan Diemeng was just temporarily asleep. Only the tears of sorrow can no longer be suppressed, and the tears are like springs.
The Helan Butterfly Dream that once had a warm smile like a spring breeze slept forever in this piece of spring.
At the funeral of Queen Helan Diemeng, the Queen Mother He Lanyan was grief-stricken, unable to cry, and cried several times until she almost fainted.
Concubine Ning Pingzhi and several other concubines also wiped a handful of tears for the sincere and benevolent Queen Helan Diemeng.
And the new emperor Helian Yingche, who should have been the most sad and sad, looked extremely calm. I didn't cry, I didn't wail, I just didn't say a word from beginning to end, and I was almost terrible calm throughout the whole process.
Others don't understand why Helan Die, a generation of virtuous queens, passed away in a dream, as her loving husband, Emperor Helian Yingche, did not leave a single tear during the funeral, not even more words?
Some people suspect that Helian Yingche and Helan Diemeng are childhood sweethearts, the two have no guesses, raise their eyebrows, and respect each other like guests, all of which are created as illusions for the world. Since ancient times, the emperor's affection naturally made many concubines in the harem secretly chill.
Among all the people, only Gongliang Jie'er always knew what it meant to Helian Yingche to lose the dream of Queen Helan Die.
No tears does not mean no sorrow; Just because there is no wailing does not mean that there is no heartache. venting emotions on the outside is far deeper and deeper than restraint on the inside.
Queen Helan Diemeng was buried, the great flame was up and down, the whole country mourned, and mourned for three days.
In order to pay tribute to Queen Helan Diemeng, Helian Yingche even issued a ban that the whole country should not gather for entertainment within a year.
Helian Yingche even announced to the world that from now on, there will never be a queen in the harem. In this life and this life, the queen of the new emperor of Great Yan Helian Yingche is the only one who has Helan Diemeng. And posthumously gave it the emperor - Empress Xiaoyi Renzhen.
In the three consecutive days after the death of Queen Helan Die's dream, Helian Ying had no intention of going to government, and the whole person was stuffed in the imperial study, silent, not eating or drinking, as if he had lost his soul.
The Queen Mother He Lanyan and Concubine Shu, Concubine Dan and others came to visit and persuade one after another, but to no avail. In desperation, the Queen Mother He Lanyan had to let Gongliang Zhu'er come and try to persuade Helian Yingche.
The others had already finished their words of comfort, and Gongliang knew that Helian Yingche was not a person who was not in a big situation, and he would definitely not give up his due responsibility and responsibility as an emperor because of the grief in his heart. It's just that the death of Queen Helan Diemeng was too big a blow to Helian Yingche, and Helian Yingche has not yet eased up and soothed the sorrow in his heart. Gongliang can also feel it, and Helian Yingche still has guilt and self-blame for Queen Helan Diemeng in his heart.
Gongliang Zhu'er came to the imperial study to visit Helian Yingche, and didn't say a word, just silently walked to Helian Yingche's side, gently hugged Helian Yingche, who was still immersed in grief, and waited to accompany Helian Yingche with understanding and empathy.
Until Helian Yingche was in the arms of Gongliang Er, he shed tears of grief that he had endured for many days.
The appearance of Gongliang has become the only outlet for Helian Yingche's emotional sustenance. In front of Gongliang'er, Helian Yingche can unload his defenses and exhaustion, and can cry happily without caring about the eyes of others and the responsibilities on his body.
And Gongliang Zhu'er looked at Helian Yingche, who was so sad and sad, thinking back to Queen Helan Diemeng's kindness to herself, and the scenes flashed back in her mind, as if all the things that happened yesterday when she met and met. Gongliang couldn't help but cry for the kind and benevolent queen Helan Diemeng.
But the people are gone, and the living will continue.
Helian Yingche's head was buried in Gongliang's arms, and after crying bitterly, after the suppressed emotions were relieved, people were finally much more relaxed.
Helian Yingche raised his head and stared at Gongliang Jie'er who also had tears in his eyes, Helian Yingche couldn't help but take Gongliang'er's hand and asked, "Why don't you open your mouth to persuade like the Queen Mother and other concubines?" But so stupidly, silently crying with me, sad and sad together? ”
Gongliang Jie'er responded softly: "Because Jia'er knows that the emperor has lost the queen's mother, how much pain will be in his heart." And the emperor buried all this grief deep in his heart, that kind of suppressed, restrained, and forbearant emotions, but there was no suitable outlet for the emperor to rest assured and boldly relieve and vent. She knew that for the emperor, the most important thing at this time was not the consolation of those who had already heard the cocoon, but the real empathy and silent companionship. She firmly believes that the emperor has the ability to slowly come out of the pain on his own. But because the queen mother left, the vacant seat is a regret that no one can fill. ”
Helian Yingche once thought that in this world, the person who could read him best was Queen Helan Diemeng. And although Gongliang is Helian Yingche's only beloved woman, the two often have awkward quarrels, lose their temper, and sometimes complain about why the other party doesn't understand their minds.
However, now Helian Yingche has discovered that in this world, in addition to Helan Diemeng, there is also Gongliang Zhu'er who can read him best and understand his thoughts. It turns out that the stubbornness that Helian Yingche thought was just the illusion and misunderstanding of Helian Yingche and Gongliang Er'er who were sensitive and jealous when they were in turmoil because they loved each other deeply.
If it is said that the relationship between Helan Diemeng and Helian Yingche is a spiritual integration and fit, then the relationship between Gongliang and Helian Yingche is a thoughtfulness that is run-in because of love.
Just as Queen Helan Diemeng entrusted when she was dying, Gongliang Zhu'er is trying to understand Helian Yingche from Helian Yingche's perspective because of love, and strive to become a soul mate who can communicate with Helian Yingche's heart.
Gongliang's hard work and thoughtfulness made Helian Yingche very moved. For Helian Yingche, who has just lost the queen and lost his confidant in life, there is nothing warmer than understanding and companionship.
"Yu'er knows that the queen mother is the emperor's confidante, and no one can shake her position in the emperor's heart. I just hope that I can work hard to stand in the emperor's perspective and position and empathize. Take the emperor's suffering as suffering, and take the emperor's happiness as happiness. She just wants the emperor to know that no matter when and where, no matter the ends of the earth, the world changes, even if the world has left the emperor, at least the emperor will always have a child by his side. The heart of the child will always be connected with the emperor's heart, breathing and beating together until the end of life. Gongliang put away his original shyness and reserve, opened his heart, and truthfully expressed his thoughts and feelings in his heart.
Because of the death of Queen Helan Diemeng, Gongliang suddenly felt that life is short and the world is impermanent, even if you are lucky enough to be with the person you love, it is only a few decades of time. Since you love, you should be brave enough to express it, so that the other party can clearly understand your own mind, even if the sea is dry and the sky is falling apart in the next second, at least you will not let yourself have regrets.
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