Chapter 4: Fear of loneliness

I was extremely grateful and shouted towards the balcony of Zhang Dewu's house, although he didn't want me to say thank you, I still shouted: "Zhang Dewu, thank you and Uncle Zhang!" ”

Unexpectedly, Zhang Dewu heard it, he quickly appeared on the balcony, grabbed a handful of soil from the flower bowl, and threw it down at me: "Roll the calf, hurry up and sign up!" ”

I couldn't help but smile, all the pressure about tuition fees was immediately relieved, I waved goodbye to Zhang Dewu, and hurried home with the money.

But at home, just as I imagined on the way home, Su Yun'er, who was beaten by my aunt's mother and daughter, was not at home, and I waited for more than an hour, but I didn't see Su Yun'er come back.

I had no choice but to take the money and go to No. 1 Middle School, estimating that Su Yuner should be in a new school.

However, after I paid the tuition, I still didn't see Su Yun'er appear, and until this time, I was worried that Su Yun'er would have an accident.

Fortunately, I met Su Yun'er's female classmate in her junior high school class on campus, and I asked her if she had seen Su Yun'er.

This female classmate told me that half an hour ago, she saw Su Yuner appear in the fish pond of the school, and she asked me in wonder, why does Su Yuner's face look swollen?

I didn't say that Su Yun'er was beaten, but after thanking the female classmates, I rushed to the side of the fish pond like the wind.

When I found her, Su Yun'er was alone, leaning in front of the fence, staring blankly at the water, I thought she was going to jump, so I was so scared that I hurriedly ran over.

"Su Yun'er, I know it's me who is not good, but don't you can't figure it out, you are still so young, diving is ......"

Before I finished my words, Su Yun'er had a gloomy face and scolded a nervous disorder, she said angrily that she just wanted to be alone quietly and fart, besides, the water in the campus fish pond is very shallow, and it is impossible to drown.

I breathed a sigh of relief, and hurriedly handed the remaining nearly two thousand yuan to Su Yun'er, I hurriedly said that the money was lent to me by Zhang Dewu, and my own tuition had been paid, and all the money was given to her.

Su Yun'er looked at the money, her face was still red and swollen, but it was not as serious as I thought, it did not affect her beautiful appearance at all, she blinked her bright big eyes, shook her head and said: "I don't need the money you borrowed, I have already thought of a way, and I have also paid the tuition." ”

After she finished speaking, she was about to turn around and leave, which made me feel sad for a while, and I hurriedly said: "I know that I was at my aunt's place just now, I was very cowardly, Su Yun'er, I am really sorry for you, you helped me get angry and was beaten, but I ......"

Su Yun'er immediately said stop, she covered her ears with her hands and told me to shut up.

Seeing that I hurriedly shut up, she put down her hand, looked at me with disdain, and said coldly: "Since I left your aunt, listen to Chu Siqi, the two of us, the two of us I said, no longer have anything to do with it!" ”

My heart throbbed suddenly, and there was a faint pain.

Su Yun'er didn't change her cold face, and continued: "Once, my father and your mother formed a new family, and when the two of us have adults, I can barely be regarded as your sister." But now, your mom has been running for several years, and my dad is running now, and we don't have any blood kinship, so we don't have a relationship anymore. In the future, living under the same roof, you should not know me, and I will not exist when you don't exist, so be it! ”

After she finished speaking, she strode away without looking back, without the slightest reluctance.

I pinched the money, my hands kept shaking without obeying, my heart hurt bitterly, as I guessed, if I really turned around at my aunt's house, it was doomed that Su Yun'er would not forgive me again.

She drew the line for me, and from now on, she walked her sidewalk, and I crossed my one-plank bridge!

Su Yun'er is the kind of woman who can do what she says, and the result is that in the first half of the first semester of high school, Su Yun'er never said half a word to me again, whether she was at home or outside.

In school, Su Yuner can be described as infinitely beautiful, many boys line up to pursue her, as long as Su Yuner raises her arms, there will be hundreds of boys who will become her flower messengers.

Every time Su Yuner and I meet on campus, I see her surrounded by boys, and when she is cold and arrogant and transparent to me, my heart still can't help but ache.

I didn't have a chance to know where Su Yun'er's tuition came from, but I later went to work and returned the money I owed Zhang Dewu in March.

On the night of repaying the money, Zhang Dewu and I got drunk and told him that Su Yuner had drawn a line with me, and I was already in the air.

Zhang Dewu knew my relationship with Su Yun'er, he patted me on the back and said It's okay brother, even if Su Yun'er doesn't recognize you, don't you still have a brother?

I was so moved, I was determined to be a brother with Zhang Dewu for the rest of my life.

Time flies, and the Spring Festival is about to be celebrated in a blink of an eye, during this period, there is no news from the stepfather, as if the world has suddenly evaporated, and when Su Yuner is at home, she never mentions her stepfather.

Perhaps, she had a connection with her stepfather, but I just didn't know.

On the night of Chinese New Year's Eve, Su Yuner asked several girls in her class to welcome the arrival of the New Year at home, in order not to let me make trouble for her, Su Yuner wrote a note and asked me to go to the Internet café to play, she wrote very straightforwardly, afraid that I was at home, she was not good to explain to her girlfriends.

To put it bluntly, Su Yun'er thinks I am embarrassed to her.

I could only leave home in extreme loneliness, and when thousands of families gathered together, I went to the nearest Internet café like an orphan.

Turned on a computer, I looked at the news absentmindedly, as for what was said in the news, I didn't care at all, my mind was at home, thinking about Su Yun'er and her sisters, they must be having a happy party at this time, maybe there would be rich and handsome boys together.

They are happy; And I, lonely and pitiful!

Glancing at the Internet café, there are almost no people in the Internet café on Chinese New Year's Eve, and a few customers are estimated to be as lonely and lonely as me, otherwise who would appear in the Internet café on Chinese New Year's Eve.

I feel bitter in my heart, so I logged in the WeChat account, I have to say, I am really sad, the mobile phone owned by ordinary people, has become a luxury in my place, my WeChat account, or more than a year ago, Zhang Dewu used his father's mobile phone to help me register.

But after registration, there are few opportunities to log in, mainly because it is inconvenient to have no mobile phone.

On my WeChat, there are only Zhang Dewu and two classmates in the junior high school class who can talk to each other, one is a boy and the other is the female head of the junior high school class.

I sent them a happy Chinese New Year, which is a New Year blessing.

Not long after, Zhang Dewu was the first to reply and asked me where I was?

I didn't say that I was in the Internet café, I knew that if he knew that I was in the Internet café, he would definitely rush over to accompany me, and this Chinese New Year's Eve, Zhang Dewu should be at home with his father.

So, I lied and said that I was watching the Spring Festival Gala at home, and I also said that Su Yuner took several beauties to watch it at home, I said: "Brother, this Spring Festival, I have a good time!" ”

The last sentence against my heart was typed, and my chest was tight, and I almost couldn't hold back the moistening of my eyes.

Zhang Dewu believed it, and said with some regret that he couldn't see Su Yuner's beauties, and he said that he was going to follow his father back to the countryside on the first day of junior high school, and he was drinking at his uncle's house at this time.

I said let's talk about it first, and Zhang Dewu replied with an OK gesture.

At this time, there was another message on my WeChat, and when I saw that it was the female squad leader who replied to me, she said: "In the same way, you also have a happy Spring Festival." By the way, Chu Siqi, can you do me a favor? ”

I immediately replied: "Class leader, there is something you command." ”

In the past, in junior high school, I didn't know the girls in the class very well, because I had low self-esteem, I didn't have any parents, and I was basically not confident.

Only, I can talk to this female class leader, and I still remember that in the summer of my second year of junior high school, I longed to stand in front of the shop selling ice cream, and I wanted to eat ice cream, but I didn't have the money.

At that time, it was the female squad leader who bought an ice cream for me, and said with a sweet smile: "If you want to eat ice cream in the future, look for me!" ”

I never asked the female class leader for ice cream again, but I remembered that summer, which belonged to her smiling and sweet cheeks.

While recalling the past, the female squad leader sent me a message and said: "That's the case, my mother is working overtime in the unit tonight, and my mother originally asked me to go to my grandmother's house for the New Year, but I don't want to disturb the old man's house, so I ...... tonight."

"What's going on tonight?" I kept asking questions.

"I feel so lonely!"

The female squad leader sent a few words, which made me even more uncomfortable, it seems that I am alone when I am lonely on Chinese New Year's Eve!

She seemed to hesitate for a while, and only replied after a few minutes: "I don't want to be alone at home, I'm afraid of being lonely, can you come to the house to spend the New Year with me?" ”

Without even thinking about it, I immediately typed out a few words: "I'll come right away!" ”

No one understands my extreme speed of immediately turning off the computer and then paying the fee and running out of the Internet café, because I am sick with the female squad leader, and we are both afraid of being alone!