46, finally breathed a sigh of relief

Hearing Jiang Feifei say these words to me, my first reaction was that I finally breathed a sigh of relief.

Ever since she said those words to me that night, I admit that my mind has been chaotic, my heart has been tangled, tangled and dripping blood.

Think about it, a new best friend, a warm sister, a friend who cares for you in every way, a small path plus a quilt, a few slices of bread? It's easy to have the feeling of a bosom friend, just like a sister, not closer than a sister, just out of the first 20 days, you can talk to her everything, you can put your childhood dreams, the aspirations of youth, and the protrusion of the plate to confide, you say how lucky, how happy, how happy. After only 20 days together, I hope to extend this happiness to not only my 4 years of college life, but also to my life. I'm happy, I'm glad, as the saying goes, it's hard to know yourself in life, my short 17 years of life, I was able to find a sister who sang in unison, you said it's not worth being happy, isn't it worth celebrating?

We have similar interests, we have endless topics to talk about together, I can talk about poetry, beauty, and ambitions, and I am willing to listen to her talk about literature, novels, and writers. She can tell the history of Mr. Lu Xun's novels so storytelling, she can borrow people's feelings from the classics, and she is so profound, so poetic. She always speaks so softly and slowly when correcting your mistakes, so that you remember the classics without hurting your self-esteem. Her posture is so beautiful, her face is so pretty, her person is so handsome, her appearance is so impeccable, her manners are so elegant and generous, her language is so humorous and funny, her wisdom is so profound, and she cannot accurately describe her beauty and dignity in the most gorgeous words in the world, she is so beautiful.

In the campus of Yenching University, I am a 17-year-old girl, who came to a completely unfamiliar environment, went to the best university in the world, surrounded by elites, and is the smartest group of teenagers and girls in the world. Facing an unfamiliar environment, a strange crowd and a strange campus, God favored me, and by chance, I met a bosom friend like Jiang Feifei, such a best friend, if it was because we loved the same boy and became strangers, how terrible and pathetic, I didn't dare to imagine such a consequence, whether I could bear it, so I have been entangled in my heart.

In my heart, there are two villains fighting, fighting happily, there is no victory, and they keep fighting. A villain wants to pursue love, desperate, abandoning everything, just wanting to pursue the sweetness of love, to talk about a vigorous love, just like Romeo and Juliet, break through all the cages, we all have to be together, the final result is that I have become extremely isolated, no friends, no girlfriends, only myself. Another villain, gave up love, gave up the pursuit, for the sake of friends, for girlfriends, discarded the love that had arrived, discarded the most ideal Prince Charming, maintained friendship, maintained family affection, maintained girlfriends, and obtained the surface peace, a lifetime of loneliness, never met the person who made my heart move, and then there was no Prince Charming in my dreams, and there was no more joy of both sexes, and the sweetness of love.

The entanglement of these days, in my 17-year-old soul, left a deep imprint, became the most painful two days of my life, on one side is friends, is girlfriends, on the other side is love, is Prince Charming, no choice, no choice, any choice is either hurt others, or hurt yourself, in the face of love, such entanglement is so painful, how uncomfortable, how suffocating, I don't want to make such a choice, I don't want to be so embarrassing, I don't want to be such a discard, I want to get a beautiful love, I want to get a good girlfriend, but fortunately, this is finally over, and I breathe a long sigh of relief.

I am glad that she has a good home, her prince charming appeared in her world, seeing her intoxication, seeing her involuntarily, seeing her youthful glow, seeing her sweetness from the heart, seeing her elation that she can no longer hide, seeing her impossible smile, from the depths of her heart, I sincerely wish her, I am sincerely happy for her, I am heartily for my best friend, how beautiful the world is, God has helped me again, and it is expected to come to me again, I can be best friends with her for the rest of my life.

The world is really beautiful, no longer entangled, only bold to pursue, the pursuit of the most beautiful love in life, let my girl's heart more surging, let me be hot and restless, let me be happy can not be myself, let my dreams more beautiful, let my future life be more brilliant, I can have no scruples, brave to pursue, brave to confess, brave to imagine, brave to act.

Love, how powerful and charming, excites me before it really begins.

I have strengthened my determination to have a relationship, a vigorous relationship.