"Of course." I smiled, "I'd like to know." After all, there was so much less time all at once, and everything had to be replanned...... Thank you for telling me. Thank you. ”

After Dr. Leung left, I packed my things and got out of the hospital and got into a taxi.

That phone call today reminded me of one thing: I need to prepare a cemetery for myself.

It doesn't matter how the feng shui is, I want to be next to my mother.

When I arrived at the cemetery, it was just four o'clock in the afternoon, but the winter days were short and the nights were long, and it was getting late at the moment.

The driver refused to get too close, so I got out of the car at the intersection, wrapped myself in my coat in the wind, and walked slowly forward.

City D is located in the north, dripping into ice in winter, warm in summer and cool at night, I love summer here. It's a pity that I didn't cherish this summer, and I won't see next year.

There were several funeral companies next to the cemetery, and I didn't ask for much, so I quickly finalized it.

After that, I had a bite to eat at a small shop nearby.

It's dinner time, and there are quite a lot of people.

Midwinter is the peak season for the funeral industry, and the guests are either dressed in linen or filial piety.

All of them had solemn faces and red eyes.

I'm different, I'm calm.

I ate my noodles calmly, as if I wasn't a dying person.

After all, I've known about this for three months now.

In the first few days I knew, I was like five thunderbolts. I can't believe it, I haven't graduated from college yet, I still have dreams that haven't come true, I haven't enjoyed love, I haven't been a mother...... Why am I going to die all of a sudden?

I didn't want to go home for half a month, I didn't want to tell anyone, I went to the hotel and opened a room, I didn't do anything, I just hid in it and cried.

It's as if as long as this is the case, the illness can be cried away by me.

I was caught by Blossom that time, but it wasn't him who came to me. Instead, he came to the hotel to open a room, and the green peacock went to the wrong room.

He rushed in and searched around the room, but when he didn't find any adulterer, he dragged me home in a fit of rage.

After I got home, he scolded me, saying that I had a brain disease, and it was childish and ridiculous to play missing to find a sense of existence, and said: "Mu Rongfei, don't think that running away from home can threaten me, even if you die outside, I don't bother to collect your body!" ”

That was the first time he mentioned "death" to me.

So I didn't tell him about my illness.

I'm afraid that he will clap his hands, and I'm afraid that my heart has been crushed and completely turned into ashes.

Halfway through the meal, a call came from my dad's hospital.

When she arrived, Mu An'an was there, her hair unkempt and her pajamas, arguing with the doctor.

When I got out of the elevator, I heard her yelling, "I was fine yesterday, why can't I say no today!" ”

"Will your hospital see it?"

The doctor said that my father's data dropped suddenly, which was very dangerous, and he could die suddenly at any time.

Mu Anan stuffed the critical illness notice to me and left angrily, and before leaving, he explained: "Keep my father, call me if you have something." ”

I couldn't go in and visit, so I signed the critical illness notice, apologized to the doctor, and sat down in the hallway.

The doctor would go in and check on them every time, and every time I watched them go in, my heart hung in the air.

I'm afraid that when they come out, they will say to me, "Please mourn."

At the same time, I also thought that if my dad was gone, then I would really have nothing to worry about, and find a more hidden place to kill myself.