Her Story, Chapter 20
After the passion, a moment of warmth entered the dream, and the man next to him was already asleep, snoring from time to time, as if he was using sleep to replenish the physical strength he had just consumed.
Lin Han couldn't sleep, and he didn't feel sleepy at all.
Putting on a bathrobe, Lin Han quietly walked to the balcony, afraid that the sound would wake up the man.
Men always say that they are too tired lately, and they sleep most soundly after every love. I don't know if he was going to sleep with him or if he was trying to get a good night's sleep.
In a quiet night, people will always fall into quiet thinking, thinking about things that they don't want to think about during the day.
Fang Bin, who was frozen in the rearview mirror, appeared in Lin Han's mind, she was very familiar with Fang Bin, but she was very unfamiliar, or rather, she was very strange to everyone.
Everyone doesn't want to be too close, and the relationship that seems to be close at hand is actually only touching Lin Han's body, not Lin Han's soul.
She has never shown her true self to anyone, and she naturally maintains a sense of distance from everyone.
No, she and Wu Qi are soul friends, and she is willing to reveal her true heart to him, but only recently, not in the stage of love with him.
For some reason, Lin Han seems to have lost the ability to fall in love with others, handsome, rich, and knowledgeable, Lin Han has seen many men, but none of them can touch his heart.
Every time you are in love, every time someone else defines love, it is a scene, men enjoy the joy of love, and Lin Han enjoys the fun.
She didn't know why she wanted to tempt Wu Qi, the instinct in her body made Lin Han involuntarily approach Wu Qi. She knows that she has a bit of a posture, and with the advent of puberty, her figure is becoming more and more convex, and the eyes of the boys in the class look at her, which also reveals the desire of human nature.
Wu Qi, for Lin Han, is an exam question, and no one else can answer it correctly. She wants to climb this peak that no one cares about and enjoy the attention of all people, she doesn't like Wu Qi, just to do things that others can't do.
Lin Han later told Wu Qi about this, causing Wu Qi to laugh for a long time, but it was he who laughed, believing that he really thought he had met true love, but the result was that he was played with by others, and he didn't know it.
She liked the feeling, and the moment the two established their relationship, a moment of pleasure rushed to her brain, followed by a long period of emptiness.
Lin Han didn't know what to do. The answer to the puzzle is found, but then what to do?
She is always looking for excitement, and only stimulation can give her the feeling of life.
But the same people can also look for other stimuli.
After a period of communication, Lin Han knew that Wu Qi's family was good, so he had the idea of cheating money.
Of course, Lin Han is not very short of money, although her parents are farmers, they have a lot of land, and they can sell it for a lot of money in a year. Since she was a child, her parents have loved her daughter very much, and she has no loss in food and clothing, what Lin Han wants, as long as she can meet it, her parents will be satisfied.
Lin Han cheated money just for the pleasure of cheating. She enjoyed Fang Bin's nervous car accident as she told nothing, the performance that even she would marvel at, and the wealth of the extra money on her bank card.
What do you do with the money? Lin Han is not a person who loves vanity, and material things can't give her a little stimulation. After thinking about it, Lin Han finally donated the money.
After squeezing the last bit of pleasure and stimulation from Wu Qi's body, Lin Han felt that Wu Qi was boring, so he proposed the idea of separation and continued to look for the next prey.
When Lin Han and Wu Qi were still lovers, Fang Bin appeared. In fact, when Fang Bin appeared in the poetry club, she recognized him, but she pretended to be strange.
She had a thought in her heart, what does it feel like to be "cheating" in love?
Lin Han didn't expect Fang Bin to be so easy to take the bait, and expressed his love to himself after a few contacts, of course, Lin Han didn't say that he still had a boyfriend.
Wu Qi is his boyfriend, Fang Bin is also his boyfriend, Lin Han who is in it does not feel embarrassed, but feels the excitement that has not been seen for a long time.
Isn't life all about experience? To feel all kinds of life that has never been touched, unpredictable life, no one can predict who will break away from the original life trajectory in the next second. Or lose your life, or live rather than die. Why don't you experience as much as you can while you're alive?
Because she has seen, there is no one who can continue to experience life.
She had the impression that Li Muchuan was a quiet boy, sitting quietly in his seat most of the time, either looking at the test papers and textbooks, or reading some detective novels that he didn't know.
In fact, the school prohibits students from reading extracurricular reading materials that are not related to their studies, except for Li Muchuan. This is the privilege of a good student, of course, this also attracts the resistance of other students, but every time the teacher will say, "If you study as well as Li Muchuan, you can see anything, and I don't care about you when you go to heaven."
Is it as good as studying like Li Muchuan? Arabian Nights, in the eyes of other students, Li Muchuan is a freak, who knows nothing but studying and reading novels.
Lin Han once asked Li Muchuan why he likes to read detective novels, but he didn't expect this Li Muchuan to be interested, his eyes flashed, and he talked to Lin Han endlessly, from Conan Doyle's "Sherlock Holmes" to Keigo Higashino's "White Night Walking". If it weren't for the class bell, Li Muchuan wouldn't have stopped.
Compared with other male students who looked at themselves with desire, Li Muchuan, who did not pay attention to himself, attracted Lin Han's attention. Unconsciously would turn his head to look in the direction of Li Muchuan during class, looking at his face, occasionally Li Muchuan would notice his eyes, Lin Han would be a little shy, and immediately turned his head, when nothing happened.
She didn't think that she would also fall in love with learning, and tried her best to find questions on the test paper that she didn't know, ran to Li Muchuan's seat and asked him to help solve the questions. Li Muchuan looked at the test paper that Lin Han took, and his face clearly said, "You don't know how to ask these questions", but he still patiently explained the solution ideas to Lin Han.
Lin Han didn't understand, so he "could" ask Li Muchuan for help again and again.
She didn't know what kind of emotion she had for Li Muchuan, was she curious or adoring? It cannot be named.
On a normal day, the teacher goes to class as usual, and the sound of rustling disturbs the quiet of the class. The empty seats did not attract the attention of the other students, except for Lin Han.
It only took half a day for the students in the class to spread the news that Li Muchuan had killed and escaped, Lin Han didn't believe it at first, but later on the streets, when even his family talked about it, Lin Han couldn't deny it anymore.
Li Muchuan disappeared from people's sight, and the seats in the classroom lost their owners. No one else was willing to touch the empty seats, until an unwitting transfer student took Li Muchuan's original place, and the last traces of this person were completely erased from people's memories.
When he saw Li Muchuan again, Lin Han couldn't believe it, ten years have passed, he has changed a lot, but Lin Han can still recognize it, even if the years have given him a lot of traces of time. Fang Bin said that he was a distant cousin, of course Lin Han didn't believe it, even if Lin Han didn't recognize it, he could see from Fang Bin's clumsy acting skills that Fang Bin was lying.
Lin Han did not debunk the lie. In an instant, she was inexplicably interested in Li Muchuan's appearance and Fang Bin's lies. She thought that she was the audience waiting to enjoy a wonderful show, and she couldn't bear to interrupt the performance of the people on stage.
What secrets are the two hiding?
Before I could figure it out, I felt a deep tiredness that swept through my brain. She wanted to sleep again. Three days without seeing the light of day was simply an ordeal, inexplicably kidnapped, insulted, and rescued. The black cloth blindfolded his eyes, Lin Han didn't know where he was at all, and the fear in his heart couldn't be revealed, the black cloth sucked away the tears that flowed, and his blocked mouth couldn't shout. Even if they could make a sound, who would hear it?
Lying on the bed, Lin Han spent more time pretending to be asleep, when Fang Bin stood at the door. More time, Lin Han didn't want to face Fang Bin, the man who was in the same space as him had a lot of secrets in an instant.
In Lin Han's worldview, only oneself can have secrets, and others are not allowed, especially other people's secrets have brought disaster to themselves. Fang Bin's secret pushed him into the abyss, on the verge of life. The helplessness and pain of the past few days, Lin Han still couldn't stop trembling when he thought about it.
It was Fang Bin who brought him a nightmare.
At that moment, Lin Han decided to leave Fang Bin.
In fact, being with Fang Bin was just the beginning of the game mentality, but later Lin Han found that he also had some thoughts, and even fantasized about starting a family with Fang Bin and having a cute child.
However, Lin Han knew that she was not a peaceful person, and only the thrill of stimulation could give her a sense of existence.
It's an addiction, right? Trapped Lin Han in it, there was no way to escape.
Many times Fang Bin called, Lin Han always used the excuse of working overtime, but in fact, she was dating her lover. There was even one time while answering the phone.
Am I a bad woman? Lin Han asked himself, and the answer swayed left and right on both sides of the scale. She knew the answer, she just didn't want to admit it.
Fang Bin was like a gold mine being excavated in Lin Han's eyes. But there will always be a day when the gold mine will be excavated to the end, and one day, Lin Han found that he looked at Fang Bin, without any impulse, and he didn't even want to say a word.
She understands that she has no love for Fang Bin, and the original love has been withdrawn by herself, and she knows that her love will never be put on a person for too much time.
She hid, she fled, and the phone rang again and again, Lin Han pretended not to hear, or to deal with a few words. She didn't want to face the scene of separation and say the words of separation, or rather, Lin Han was tired of Fang Bin's infatuation.
Yes, Lin Han knew Fang Bin's infatuation. On the one hand, infatuation is completely loved, and on the other hand, it is entangled.
This emotion eventually turned into boredom.
Fang Bin doesn't seem to be that interesting, except for the crazy love. Before they separated, Lin Han and Wu Qi were together again, and the open lover relationship made Lin Han feel more comfortable. There are no shackles and restrictions, as if you are in a world without rules.
However, Wu Qi will also be "jealous" sometimes, and he will mind the existence of Lin Han's other lovers and Fang Bin. Lin Han thought that he would teach him a lesson.
Fang Bin is a simple person, and he has no doubts about his every word. Maybe Lin Han's acting skills have improved? Deception is really a pleasant thing to do, especially when deception can manipulate others.
Wu Qi, who was beaten, didn't say much to the other party, and later after they reconciled, Wu Qi said that he knew in his heart that Lin Han was the troublemaker, but he was willing to cooperate with her to play this scene.
A drama of three people, two actors, and only one lives in the play.
Lin Han has never lacked men in her life, and she looks for the factors that excite her in every man. She loves everyone, but she doesn't love everyone.
Lin Han only loves himself.