I've always liked autumn the most, because it's crisp, because everything has come to fruition, and there is still a moment of beauty to see before everything withers.

I knelt in front of my mother, her head bowed and lifeless.

I reached out to touch her cheek, but blood was pouring from the corner of her mouth.

This is the last time I have seen my mother, who was forced to death by Chai Yun'e and her father in my favorite autumn day.

"Ying'er..."

"Grandmother" I heard the Queen Mother call me gently, I couldn't bear it, and threw myself into her arms.

My grandmother was a very thin old woman, and she had not been able to make her fat for many years, and now she was even more clumsy, but she hugged me, and for the first time, I felt the warmth of a hug.

For as long as I can remember, it seems that no one has ever hugged me, including that one, two meters away from me, to give birth to my mother.

"Ying'er, although your mother concubine is also a very poor person, she deserves it, don't blame anyone, the person who did the wrong thing is no longer there."

"But, as for my mother's absence... My sister is also gone..."How can I not be resentful, since I was born, because of what my life will hinder other brothers and sisters, especially the baby pimple-like son born to Queen Chai, His Royal Highness the Prince, was sent out of the palace.

It wasn't until I was eight years old that I saw my mother for the first time, separated since I was an infant, but it didn't take long for her to pass away in an unbearable way.

But I can't say, I can't...

I hugged the Queen Mother and nodded, "I don't, I won't." ”

The Queen Mother nodded, "That's good, that's good." Come, good boy, someone will come here, restrain your mother, you follow the imperial grandmother first. ”

Saying that, the Queen Mother took my hand, and I looked back at my mother, but I never had it again, never with her again, and I had a little closeness to her.

My mother was convicted, and one of my two uncles was beheaded and the other was exiled.

At the beginning, I lived in the palace of the Queen Mother, and the Queen Mother occasionally came to see me, but the Queen Mother was sick, and my father came to visit, and when he came out, he saw me, he didn't talk to me, he didn't even bother to give me a look, and finally, let someone take me and leave the Queen Mother's palace.

I don't know where I am, I don't know how long I've been here, the autumn days are slowly passing, the turmoil is subsiding little by little, it's another day, I don't know, what will happen to me, and King Lian, who has been taking care of me, suddenly appeared in this already cold room and stretched out his hand to me.

"Lord Wang...", I took a few steps in the direction of King Lian.

Lord Lian stretched out his hand and grabbed my hand, "Let's go, come with me, little prince." ”

"Lord Wang, what else should I do?" I hate this time, my helplessness, I looked at Lord Lian, Lord Lian's hands were very hot, but his face was extremely cold.

"Little prince, you have your fiefdom and are about to marry a wife, you can return to your fiefdom, and it can be regarded as a safe life for you."

"Lord Wang, you also want to..."

"Yes, little prince, I'm leaving too. But I can send the spirit away first. With that, Prince Lian pulled me, and the two of us walked out of this room that made me cold all over.

Lord Lian's footsteps were as steady as ever, he didn't speak, but he was in my heart, the image of my father that I had been missing. Father, maybe that's it, protected me and took me forward.

But I know it's the last time.

"Greetings to Your Majesty" The two of us knelt in front of our father, and Prince Lian withdrew his hand, but I still stretched out my hand and wanted to shake King Lian's hand again.

When his father saw this scene, he didn't care, but said coldly to Prince Lian, "Have you thought about it?" ”

"Your Majesty, after the minister sent the prince of Jin out of the palace, he immediately returned to the fiefdom." Lord Lian's words were loud, and then, my father bent down and glanced at me kneeling on the ground, I was a little nervous, this is my father, give me the first look, I couldn't suppress the emotions in my heart, I wanted to speak, but I was pulled by King Lian, "The minister retreated." ”

King Lian pulled me, I refused to go, my emotions became excited, and finally cried out, "Lord Lian, don't pull me, I'm going to ask him, ask this person who gave birth to me, why... Why..."

My martial arts are all taught by King Lian, he pulls me, I am not his opponent, I don't seem to have beaten him in my life.

"Rong Ying, don't go, don't go, there are no answers to everything, you have to find these answers yourself." The palace gate was in front of me, King Lian pulled me to the side, he looked at me, King Lian always looked at me like this, and finally he said to me, "Son, you will definitely have your own side of the world, you are good, live." ”

I saw a carriage waiting for me in front of me, and then I looked at the two soldiers in full armor who had been following King Lian and followed not far away, as if they understood something, and couldn't help but ask, "What did you do?" ”

"It's okay, I just did what I wanted to do." Lord Lian patted me on the shoulder and said, "Let's go, let's go." ”

I didn't ask much, I didn't say anything, but under the eyes of King Lian, I walked out of the palace gate step by step.

Sitting in the carriage, I kept my head down, not knowing what to do, when I heard a voice coming in from outside the carriage, and she said, "Are you leaving?" ”

This is Xu Xinyue's voice, that bright girl, I opened the curtain, her face, just behind the curtain, she was about to stick her head in, but I didn't expect me to suddenly open the curtain, a little cramped, but soon, she smiled brightly, "I was about to enter the palace to meet the Queen Mother, I heard that you are leaving, I came to see you off." ”

"Well" I nodded, I couldn't look at her anymore, because, I had been, as if from the beginning, I was not qualified to look at her.

"That's... Here, this is the rice cake from the big fruit store, you can take it with you on the road to eat" She handed me a oily, hot paper bag, which contained a whole bag of dim sum, I looked at her, and finally said, "Xu Xinyue..."

"Huh?"

"Did you think we'd meet again?"

"The eastern capital doesn't seem to be far from the state." She smiled and said, "But the capital is far away from Bingzhou. ”

"It's hard to say goodbye."

"No, if..."

"What if?"

"Nothing, a nice trip."

In the end, I never thought that the person who came to see me off would be her.

Bingzhou is my fiefdom, this is a very good place, there are many people, rich products, very rich, but I am just a prince who eats idle food, there are many people and many places, just to make my food richer.

But I'm not reconciled, I don't want to be like King Lian said, just live in peace.

I want to make the people who hurt him and my mother and sister pay.

When I was a child, I was greedy for fun, and stepped a stone into the mud, until this stone was completely submerged in the swamp under the mud, but I myself was also deeply trapped in this place, and I waited for a long time before someone rescued me from the swamp, which was covered in mud.

I thought again and again, if this was the case, if I was the rock, and I was trampled into the dirt, why didn't I also pull the man who had plunged me into the swamp and plunge deeper into the mud.

The autumn breeze in Bingzhou is no longer as mild as it was in Jinling, and there is no longer the taste of almond crisp and the faint smile of the girl. At this point, in the deep autumn day by day, I am the only one left in this world.

When I look at it, it's not really a difficult place to conquer. The assassin of the state is greedy for money and lustful, and the imperial history in charge of supervision is even more complicit with him, and the two of them will make the state a miasma. This is a catastrophe for the people of the state, but for me, maybe it's an opportunity, or maybe it's a pedal that I've stepped on.

It's not enough to have a state, there are Kyushu in the world, there is the Central Plains, and there are many, many places, and what I want is not only these.

Year after year, it is not difficult, and I never feel that this autumn wind is as biting as that year. I made my final plan, and I finally made up my mind to do that thing, to break through my last bottom line as a person, that is, to kill Rong Zhao.

In fact, the fuse of this matter is right in front of you, because Xu Xinyue is married.

The woman I didn't deserve was married to a mediocre man who was following behind his famous grandfather and scavenging for food. And the person I was letting go of because of fear was not so powerful, he couldn't even grasp a woman's hand.

I recognized this only on an autumnally breezy afternoon.

His Royal Highness the Crown Prince of Liang State contacted me half a year ago, he sneaked into Dasheng in Weifu and was caught by my eyeliner, but I also exposed my strength in front of him, neither of us mentioned it, but obviously, this Liang Wei is a restless time bomb, if I can't get rid of him, then I have to be tied up with him.

I decided, I'm going to do something, at least, don't think about having everything like Rong Zhao, can't hold a woman's hand.

Time flies, when Xu Xinyue handed me the letter, I couldn't believe my eyes, I looked at the words on it countless times, I knew every word, and then, I thought, it turns out, her words are like this.

She wants an antidote to the poison of black water, how does she know that I have this antidote? This is my second reaction.

She said she was coming to see me and telling me everything.

In the past few years, Xu Xinyue is like a tiger with teeth extracted, perhaps, she was originally a wilting little rabbit, but by chance she jumped a few times in front of my eyes, she was actually bullied by a concubine, bullied to the point that she almost fell to death.

I thought so much, I almost forgot that she was once me, the beginning of something extraordinary. I even felt that maybe I was just, unwilling to let people trample on me.

But when I saw her again, I thought so much, I heard the sound of my heartbeat, she was talking to me, her eyes were shining, she was not some wilting rabbit, she was not a tiger, she was a smart woman, she had a pair of eyes as bright as the moon, every word she said to me, it was like a beat on my heart, it was so strange, it really made me, I couldn't take my eyes off her.

"How?" She made a foolish deal with me, she didn't tell my father about me, she asked for the poison of the black water.

What if she told the person who had only looked at me with her eyes about it? He won't believe it, he won't believe it, I'll be better than his precious son who doesn't feel pain in his eyes.

But I still found Liang Wei and asked for an antidote to the poison of the black water.

Liang Wei didn't ignore this, Xu Xinyue, who had beautiful eyes, he found out something, that is, Rong Zhao's weakness. He can help me, but his help is not blind and unconditional, he needs someone who can provoke Rong Zhao and let Rong Zhao send troops, that person is her weakness, that is Xu Xinyue.

I'm not sure that Xu Xinyue is still not Rong Zhao's weakness, so I'm going to see it with my own eyes.

This year was also in the autumn, and my concubine died of dystocia. I took her coffin and went to the royal tomb in Jinling to be buried, which was also the first time I went back to Jinling for so many years.

Xu Xinyue has become beautiful, and I don't know what that noble crown prince will look like.

Rong Zhao has always been very good to me.

I can't deny that he is a very good big brother, he will give me a gift every year, and every year on my birthday, he will write to me as a gift, but if you are a person who is always in front of you, covering your light and the future, even if you dig out your heart, it is really an eyesore and must be removed.

I can't get around him, so I can only be ruthless.

I quickly determined Rong Zhao's affection for Xu Xinyue. And again, I saw Xu Xinyue's courage, she wanted to reconcile with that nest, I knew that the news was not too late, I already knew about it that day in the Bingzhou Palace, but I didn't expect her to really dare to do it, it was really, again, it hit my heart, and it sank suddenly.

She gave me a boost that if she wanted to do it, she would do it.

I thought, if I wanted to be with her, I would do it.

I'm not the Rong Zhao who stopped because she refused, I will do better, I will, do it, get what I want, everything.

My thoughts flew for a long time, I looked at Rong Zhao's team, from the time it was not yet dawn, until the morning star was already hidden behind the big sun, I looked at Xu Xinyue, who knew what would happen, but didn't say anything, she cried, although she cried, but in the end, she still did nothing.

I really wanted to ask her why she didn't stop it, but I looked at the huge procession and suddenly realized that even I could no longer take back the arrow that had been fired.

Rong Zhao, in his life, he is really, extremely innocent.