Spring is late again, I sit in front of the tea tree in front of the door, looking at this small tree, I don't know when it will grow towering, at this time, sitting next to my majesty, laughing I don't know too much, this tea tree, even after a hundred years, can not climb with the pine and cypress.

I couldn't climb high with pines and cypresses, and not every tree was born, just to grow taller, I saw this still lush little tree, and I touched my belly when I was about to give birth, and said to Your Majesty, "I just hope that this tree can flourish and live for a hundred years." ”

His Majesty said, "This is a blessed tree, and it is also incomparable with pines and cypresses." ”

Soon after, I gave birth to my first child, whom His Majesty named Chan, which means bright and bright.

Your Majesty sat on the edge of my bed, as if she were sitting on the bedside of the concubine and the queen, but I didn't see any emotion in His Majesty's eyes, he seemed to be in front of me, and he didn't even give me the most basic face, a father and a husband.

He tightened his arms, shook the sleeping Can'er twice, and said to me, "This is a blessed child." ”

I understand what the blessing in his words means, His Majesty already has six sons, and Can'er was not born to the woman he likes, not to the queen. He can't be an emperor, and he can't become a much-relied prince, he should be able to be an idle prince, get a fief that is not rich, and live a rich and worry-free life. I know that His Majesty also hopes that he can live such a life, so he said that Can'er is a blessed one.

But Can'er is unlucky. I know this all too well.

It rained that night, thundered, and today was the concubine's birthday. Over the years, His Majesty still favors the concubine, I have seen her occasionally, she is still the one I saw on the long street of the East Palace, there is light in her eyes, lively and smart, like that, it is the appearance that Your Majesty has liked all his life.

I hugged Can'er, and Can'er's body cooled down a little bit. When I was young, A-Niang said that my mother should never cry in front of her children, and if my mother's tears dripped on my children, it would be the worst thing for my children. So I just hugged him like this, without shedding a single tear.

Can'er, the child who made me feel warm in the cold night, was so quiet.

Rain, lightning and thunder, everything is out of my eyes.

I let my emotions go against my heart, I was pregnant with him for nine months, raised him for five months, and then on a rainy autumn night when it was not cold, I lost my first child.

I looked at the red marks on his skin, and the faint black gas in his mouth and nose. I want to know who did this, I want to know, but what's the use of knowing, the two of them, I am a slave and a maidservant, and I have no favor, can I resist?

His Majesty came, he glanced at me, dismissed the people around me, and then said in a cold voice, "Do you want to retaliate with a tooth for a tooth?" ”

I shook my head, "The concubine believes that Your Majesty will give the concubine a fair repayment." ”

"No, I don't have a clue this time, I haven't seen who knocked you down, so this person behind the scenes wants you to go and pull me in front of me." His Majesty rejected me.

"It's a concubine... No, it's the queen ... They, they have all been to my palace, and they have all seen Can'er. I stood up, revealing Can'er in my arms, his body was no longer soft, I just hugged him all day, I wanted to warm him up again, and then gently touched my nose with that fleshy little hand.

"What about the evidence?" His Majesty still glanced at Can'er, and I caught the pain in his eyes, yes, this is also his child, but the pain is also fleeting, faster than the fireworks dissipate. But when you see something shining, you can no longer endure the long-term coldness in his eyes.

"Only the two of them have seen Can'er, the queen wants to see Can'er, and the concubine took him there, and when she came back, in the imperial garden, she saw the concubine who was drinking tea, she fed Can'er some milk, and there was no one else except them, no." I was hoarse, and His Majesty stretched out his hands and helped me who was about to fall to the ground, "Those milk, the children of the concubines also drank it, and when the queen saw you, there were two palace concubines as proof." So, you have suspicions, but no evidence. ”

"Then if I find evidence, will you dispose of them? They, one is the woman you love, and the other is a prominent wife, will you dispose of them? "I never speak loudly, I don't speak loudly, and no one hears me, even when I'm hoarse.

"I'm still saying that, if you have proof." As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and asked me to give him Can'er.

I glanced at my child and said to His Majesty, "I have no family background, and I don't like you." While you are drunk, you are also instructed by others. But the one who commanded me repented and abandoned me. Can you, show me the way? A way to live, I have walked to this day, but I just want to live. ”

"Do you really have no choice?" His Majesty was rarely interested in my words, and he reached out and touched my face, but there was not a single tear in my eyes.

"No," I replied to him, and he nodded, "You really don't." ”

As he spoke, he reached out and took Can'er from my arms, and I, just like that, lost my first child forever.

Finally, my tears were not afraid of bringing disaster to Can'a, so I fell to the ground and wept bitterly.

But why am I the only one crying in this palace, why am I the only one?

I said to the Third Prince, who was stepping on a branch that didn't look very secure, "Your Highness, come down quickly, this branch can't support your weight." ”

The third prince is the son of Concubine Dan, born with a tiger head and a tiger brain, and he is very mentally strong, but he is still young, and he was coaxed into a few words.

He gave me a disdainful look, then stepped on the air and broke his leg, and he has been unhappy ever since.

It happened at the banquet of the concubine, today is the tenth birthday of the eldest prince, the days of clouds in the palace, there seems to be some sunshine flashing, I, I finally saw a face, crying like me, but Concubine Dan slapped me in the face, she yelled at the queen loudly, "It was this slut who instigated it, it was her." ”

I was caught off guard by a slap and fell to the ground, and the concubine was the first to lean over and help me up, "Concubine Dan, don't spew blood, it's the third prince who is not careful, go up the tree to pick flowers, Jiang Meiren is kind to persuade her, who knows that the branch did not bear the weight of the three princes, so the three princes stumbled, who is at fault, follow the minions of the three princes, he wants to go up the tree, they let him go up the tree?" These minions are the culprits. ”

"But in the entire Imperial Garden, there is only this slut and Yang'er, and she must be with her..."

"Concubine Dan, you have red lips and white teeth, and as soon as you turn your mouth over, you will put the concubine to death. The concubine is lower than you, so you can naturally do whatever you want, but before you dispose of the concubine, the concubine wants to ask you, do you have evidence? If you have evidence, the concubine body will pay for the legs of the three princes now, and if you don't have evidence, then the concubine body, even if it comes to His Majesty, will not recognize it. My voice was neither high nor low, with a cold tone, Concubine Dan was a little stunned for a while, because this was a full ten, Your Majesty's tone.

"You—" were equally astonished, and the Queen, who had been sitting on the throne without saying a word, and who would have sensed that I was different.

"It's really a slave and maid, extremely lowly, you have never done it, you know it in your heart. Hongu can't do anything to you now, but I will never let you go. Concubine Dan said viciously.

I looked at Concubine Dan, and her voice was still faint, "If Niangniang has to do something that the concubine has not done, press it on the concubine, and the concubine will have no choice." Today is the kindness of the concubine, invite a few of us to tea, and let the children play together, and the eldest prince has always taken care of his younger brothers and sisters. I didn't expect such a good intention to be ruined by such a thing, in the final analysis, as Concubine Dan said, the concubine was born from a low background, so from today on, the concubine will live in a simple place, and try not to join in such a lively life. ”

Saying that, I touched my belly, I am pregnant again, this matter, only I know, again, I once again have a child, and my blood is connected, I glanced at the second prince who fell asleep in pain on the bed, and lowered his eyes.

Concubine Dan, like her children, can only understand some simple words. Yes, what does the banquet set up by the noble concubine have to do with me, a beauty with a low status, I just happen to be there.

After another two months, the second son of the concubine, the fifth prince Xie'er was poisoned, fortunately, the toxicity was not deep, and after a detailed investigation, it was done by Concubine Dan's side, a palace maid named Qiao'er, and Qiao'er bit to death This matter has nothing to do with Concubine Dan. The concubine naturally didn't believe it, and asked Qiao'er to tell the truth.

I was pregnant, and I was still living in seclusion, so naturally I didn't go to see this excitement, and I heard that Qiao'er said the same thing as me, "Do you have evidence?" ”

yes, do you have proof? I don't have any evidence, everything is based on the little evidence in our respective hearts, which is so unreasonable, and I believe that the other party has harmed his own children.

The fifth prince is one year older than Can'er, and he is only four years old this year, the imperial doctor said that he can always be raised well in a winter, and the concubine takes good care of him every day, the child who is most like His Majesty, for some reason, is he always drinking medicine, which affects his appetite, and he is getting thinner and thinner, and his spirit is not much worse.

It's another spring day, and this spring day still doesn't make people feel a trace of warmth.

I sat under the already dense tea trees, and Luoyang was still too cold for the growth of tea trees.

I heard that His Majesty was going to build a palace in Jinling, and I wondered if I could transplant this tea tree so that it could bloom once in a warm place.

It was night, I heard a terrible scream, I touched my belly, turned over, and shook my majesty, who was sleeping deeply, just like the night when I was pregnant with Can'er many years ago, he was still in my little room, sleeping soundly.

"What's wrong?" His voice was a little hoarse, and there was a hint of dazedness in the eyes that had just opened, I tried to capture more emotions on his face, but the door was slammed, "Your Majesty, it's not good, Your Majesty wake up, the fifth prince is dead." ”

His Majesty sat up at once, rolled over and got off the bed, and when he raised his hand to take the cloak, he looked at me with some doubts, and my heart trembled, and I was about to inquire about what he meant, when the doubts in his eyes had dissipated, and he turned around and strode outside.

"Niangniang, Niangniang, you can't go in." Someone stopped the concubine at the gate of the palace, she had her hair scattered, barefoot, holding her son in her arms, the fifth prince was a little heavy, the concubine was a little hard, and finally fell to the ground under the obstruction of the palace people. But I can see clearly that even if the child in her arms has lost her breath, she still subconsciously lands on the ground with her elbows first, otherwise the silent child will be hurt a little.

"Your Majesty, Your Majesty" she fell to the ground, pounding her hands on the ground, and shouted loudly for Your Majesty, who had already strode over to her.

She hugged the fifth prince and cried and said, "Your Majesty, save our child, save him." ”

"Xin'er, the child is gone." His Majesty hugged the concubine, and one hand also hugged the five princes, and I looked at them from the periphery, and I only felt that they were such a warm family, so in their world, it seemed that only these people were needed, and those of us standing on the periphery were all bad people who ruined this warm picture.

I saw His Majesty crying, he had already been mentally prepared, but he still shed tears, such an emotion, naturally I have never seen it, so I silently remembered him in my heart, it turns out that Your Majesty, will also shed tears.

I looked at the concubine, lying in the arms of the man who had her own in her heart, although she was grief-stricken, but it seemed that she could regain her strength, the light in her eyes was still flashing, I looked up and looked at the queen who was walking this way, she changed into decent clothes, although her hair was simple, it was also curled, this should be the reason why she came late, if I were still by her side, I would definitely not let her come over like this, because in the eyes of His Majesty, naturally, it was a big mistake.

"As a middle palace, such a big thing happened in the palace, you still have the heart to get dressed and comb your hair, you really have no heart and no lungs." His Majesty angrily reprimanded the Queen, and the Empress knelt on the ground, waking up from her sleep with three points of trepidation, and asked for His Majesty's forgiveness.

It is difficult to feed the children in the palace, such a thing, although it is heart-wrenching, but after a grand funeral, it is time for me to give birth, His Majesty is very sad to lose the fifth prince, but he saw my sharp belly, as if there is any other hope, I gave birth on this day, personally guarding my door, I have already given birth once, this time I was born very fast, the sky just wiped black, I gave birth to my second child, Your Majesty's Seventh Prince.

Again, he sat in front of my bed with the child in his arms, and I noticed that there were a few wrinkles in the corners of His Majesty's eyes, and he was a little tired, so he touched the child's little face and asked me, "What do you want to give this child a name?" ”