Chapter 604: Sacrifice, Self-blame, Feedback
Tong Ling rejected the promotion order given to her by Qin Guang on behalf of the fleet command.
That's what she said at the time.
"Since I first became a warrior in the Voyager campaign in 2685, I have been on the battlefield for twenty-eight years in 2713, participating in seven major battles and performing 1,362 special missions. I am still alive, and I have the credit for my own efforts to survive, but the most important reason why I am alive is that many comrades-in-arms have sacrificed their lives to cover me again and again. ”
"My rank has risen step by step, from lieutenant to major general, but my comrades have been changing, and few have been able to fight alongside me until now. I often have the illusion that the light of the military badge on my shoulder is dyed by the blood of my comrades. The more comrades I lose, the more dazzling the badge becomes. ”
"People always praise me, saying that I am invincible, and the comrades in the Viten galaxy even give me the nickname of the pioneer goddess. I deserve it. But in the Viten Galaxy, I am a role model for everyone, and whether I am calm in my heart or not, I have to accept these honors and titles. ”
"I grew numb, thinking only that I could do better and be worthy of others who sacrificed for me. I thought I was used to sacrifices, I thought I had gained a heart of stone. ”
"But I've never experienced a task like this. 267 people went out, but in the end I was the only one who returned. I was wrong. Every comrade-in-arms has the right to live. No one is born to die for others. I shouldn't be numb, let alone calm. They gave me their energy and their lives, and I came back alone. ”
Tong Ling's tone paused slightly: "I...... I've really had enough. ”
"If I had had had the capabilities we had earlier, we could have had enough external energy modules for the T100 at the time of departure, or some of the smart weapons could have acted as space tankers. Then we could have avoided more sacrifices, at least a few dozen more. ”
"I'm too selfish, I'm ashamed of my talent, ashamed of everyone's cultivation, my mistakes are unforgivable, so I can't afford this rank of lieutenant general."
Tong Ling's tone was very flat, but her attitude was extremely firm.
Qin Guang left in a huff, and even the commendation meeting was canceled because Tong Ling was unwilling to cooperate.
Waiting for Qin Guang to leave, Gao Xiaoqi and Aopu tried to persuade him.
Tong Ling jumped down from the medical bed and waved her hand, "I'm fine." Go about your business, I'm going to train. ”
"Ahh The eldest sister ......"
Gao Xiaoqi seemed to want to say something, but Tong Ling was already far away.
……
Fanxing has stopped talking to Chen Feng and mobilized most of his computing power to cooperate with the analysis work of the Solar System Xingfeng Research Institute.
Yang Zhonghua has already transmitted back a large amount of previously captured crystal tardimire-related data through a one-way encrypted channel.
The data source is not only Tong Ling's slashing feedback, but also the drastic changes that occur when the water bears are devoured in the zero-universe space after the fragmentation bomb is detonated.
Large-scale creatures composed of virtual energy that can survive in the universe of virtual energy have extremely high reference value, and are likely to bring a new technological revolution to mankind, further narrowing the gap between humans and the masterminds behind the scenes.
Human scientists and stars alike will go all out to decipher the deep decipherment.
Chen Feng was not busy, and only focused on Tong Ling.
In the analysis report in front of Chen Feng, it was written that when Tong Ling entered the "God of War State", her mind was completely immersed in simulation training, and the brain thinking quantum storm was deeply combined with Chen Feng's simulated combat personality in the T100 Zhi Brain, at this time, her intuitive reaction ability reached the boundary of her ability, and her instantaneous reaction, judgment and nervously controlled physical state were also improved to the peak.
The process of synthesis and differentiation of adenosine triphosphate was accelerated to more than ten times the normal speed, and her body continued to erupt with countless small nuclear explosions.
At this time, her logical ability, dynamic intuition, prediction ability, and reaction ability are all like Chen Feng herself, breaking through the limits of the human brain.
This allows her to manipulate the T100 to do things that no one else could imagine.
But she is fundamentally different from Chen Feng.
Tong Ling's "God of War State" is not innate, part of it comes from her own hard training, and the other part comes from Chen Feng's simulated personality left in T100, which belongs to forcibly doing what he couldn't do through acquired efforts, just like the ancient young swordsman who mastered the peerless demon soldiers who did not belong to him with his own counterattack.
The advantage of this is that this allows Tong Ling to gain personal ability beyond the times, proving that the value of people can also be above technology, but the disadvantage is that it makes her thinking impregnated with a simulated personality, and she will gradually lose the diversity of chaotic thinking, and her judgment is more unconsciously based on intuition, and her thinking slowly becomes quantum and mechanical.
Her mentality suddenly collapsed, and she was drowning in self-blame and refused to free her spirit, and this was the reason for her firm refusal to be promoted and commended.
She should have realized that others were not sacrificing for her personally.
As long as there is a choice, everyone wants to live.
The martyrs died generously only because they believed in her abilities, believing that it would be better for the whole fleet and better for the race to let her play better.
Sacrifice in war is inevitable, but it would be disrespectful to the martyrs if they were forced to sacrifice only for the purpose of the martyrs.
If Tong Ling survives and suddenly accepts the rank and commendation, then her deeds with the 266 martyrs of the Han world can always inspire others.
In the eyes of the members of the Nameless Fleet, she Tong Ling is no longer a separate individual, and the spirit and will of the 266 martyrs will always live on her vice admiral's epaulettes.
Tong Ling didn't realize all this.
Qin Guang was too indulgent to her.
Chen Feng could intervene forcefully to force her to change her mind, but Chen Feng did not intend to do so.
Some things have to be understood by oneself, and the coercion of others will only backfire.
"Lieutenant General Tong Ling, please wait a moment, we need to conduct an emergency inspection and debugging of your armor, after all, it has just been restored, and we have added ten times the energy module. We're so sorry, we didn't expect you to come so quickly. Aren't you supposed to be honored on the Fleet Radio channel now? ”
The technical person in charge of the logistics department said to Tong Ling, who was still wearing a wounded uniform, a little nervously.
Tong Ling shook her head, "I'm not a lieutenant general. You're talking about external gear, right? I just need to use the whole brain link cockpit, is that okay? ”
"Well, that's fine."
"Okay, thanks."
Tong Ling sat back in the cockpit of the T100.
Compared to seven days ago, there have been some subtle changes in the cockpit.
Some of the modules that could clearly be seen as splicing became more natural, and the entire cockpit seemed to grow into this shape on its own.
Countless creature threads twist slowly along the special metal surface, like rainbows.
The Neural Link Plate has also changed dramatically, no longer a slab, but into a full-body covered deep penetration type of equipment.
Tong Ling whispered, "Start." ”
In the next moment, the chair beneath her quickly softened, then spread upward, wrapping all the way down her feet to the sides of her cheeks.
Her whole being was wrapped in a mummy, and countless molecular-level neural connections penetrated her skin along the organic combat suit, connecting with her neurons and nerves in her body.
Tong Ling trembled slightly at first, and then closed her eyes.
Her consciousness fused with Chen Feng's simulated personality in T100 again.
It's a little different from the last time.
She was finally no longer unconscious, no longer losing her active consciousness, but maintaining her sanity and thoughts.
"Hello and welcome, Dear Pinnacle Warrior. The armor is being debugged and is temporarily inoperable. What are you going to do now? ”
Chen Feng's simulated personality imitated the voice of Brother T according to the preset instructions, and said to Tong Ling.
Tong Ling whispered in her heart: "Conduct simulation training, I want to challenge the ultimate assessment again." ”
"You are not fully recovered, and you are at risk of injury, please confirm if you want to start the assessment?"
"Sure."
Chen Feng saw everything in his eyes and shook his head slightly.
This girl is obscured.
Five minutes later, Chen Feng's expression changed instantly.
He discovered something terrible.
As Tong Ling re-engaged in the ultimate assessment over there and began to make various simulated maneuvers, his own thinking invariably produced corresponding reactions.
Tong Ling's fighting instinct is feeding back into him through the resonance between him and the simulated personality!