Chapter 138: Depression
Su Jinhua watched Yao Jue get drunk and return to her again, and she hurriedly asked, "How is the situation over there now?" Chu Jiao still hasn't woken up? ”
Yao Jue shook his head: "I still haven't woken up, it's not a way for him to get drunk like this every day, and I don't know what to say." ”
"Usually you enlighten him more, don't let him remember the previous things."
Yao Jue sighed and nodded.
The next day, Chu Jiao finally woke up from her sleep, and her first reaction was to continue to close her eyes.
But she couldn't help but think back to the picture of that day, and she could no longer escape these questions.
This time she woke up unexpectedly calm, without any shouting, no crying, no despair, just a calm look in her eyes.
The wound at the mouth of her heart was also slowly healing, but she still couldn't stand up at this time, she could only lie down, and when she saw Qin Shao coming from the door, she didn't say anything.
Yao Chi hurriedly rushed over after knowing about this: "How do you feel now?" The doctor has said that your body is still a little serious, and it is best not to be angry and sad, otherwise there will be no benefit. Drink the ginseng soup and have a good rest, there is Qin Shao here to take care of you, I can rest assured. ”
Listening to Yao Chi's chatter, it was as if the previous thing didn't exist at all.
Chu Jiao didn't say anything, just nodded, and Yao Chi looked at this lukewarm attitude.
He didn't know what to say, Chu Jiao's temperament began to be clearly understood, and I was afraid that this matter really couldn't get over.
At this time, there were only two people left in the room, Chu Jiao and Qin Shao, Qin Shao stepped forward and Chu Jiao said, "I have something I want to talk to you about." You sit here. ”
Although Qin Shao was a little apprehensive in his heart, he still sat on the chair next to her and only listened to Chu Jiao say, "I know you have your own position, but our child is still gone."
I didn't want to be involved in this struggle at all, but I still had no choice but to be involved, I didn't want to live my days full of this, I couldn't afford to lose my child anymore. ”
Qin Shao's expression was very calm when he looked at her words, and he could imagine how uncomfortable her psychology was now.
Because his heart is now like a knife that keeps cutting.
Qin Shao also endured the great pain and sadness in his heart and listened to Chu Jiao's words.
"Let's not have any contact in the future, I want to go and relax alone, can you follow me, after I think about it, I want to leave the palace."
Chu Jiao knew Qin Shao's temper, but Qin Shao quickly agreed to his request this time.
"Well, I promise you whatever you say, and I don't have the face to ask for your forgiveness, the situation at that time was indeed my last resort, but even that shouldn't hurt our children."
Looking at Qin Shao's face full of guilt, Chu Jiao's heart was unusually calm, the child was gone, what was the point of talking about that now.
"You go, Yao Chi will send someone to take care of me."
"Let me take care of you during this time in the palace now, and it can be regarded as the last communication between the two of us."
Chu Jiao saw that Qin Shao had no intention of entanglement, so she agreed to him.
Anyway, it's just this period of time, and she really has to grieve for this child to the point of heartache.
As the days passed, Chu Qing would also come to visit Chu Jiao from time to time.
"I didn't expect you to be so fatal, and you would be able to survive the wounds in your heart."
Chu Qing's words were a little regretful at that time, and Chu Jiao also understood what she meant.
"I'd rather die with my children so that my heart can be happier."
"After all, you still have the emperor who loves you, and the king of Qin who loves you.
In fact, everyone loves you, what is there to be dissatisfied with you getting so much love? What's so hard about you wanting it all over again? ”
Chu Jiao looked at her sister in front of her: "There are some things that can't go back, my child is gone, can I get back together with the person who killed my child?" ”
Chu Qing was also silent, she knew that Chu Jiao was a principled person, and this was a matter of principle, and I am afraid that she would not compromise easily.
"Okay, as long as you don't have anything to do with the emperor anymore, I'll thank God."
"Don't worry, I'll leave the palace when I'm well."
Chu Jiao looked at the imperial garden full of flowers, but there was no happiness in her heart, when she thought of a life disappearing in her stomach like this, her heart hurt very much, and the pain was almost impossible to breathe.
Chu Jiao's face was ugly, and she fell into the imperial garden full of flowers, she felt that everything around her was starting to darken, and when Chu Qing found out, she hurriedly called the imperial doctor.
The doctor also diagnosed it as a depression.
The doctor said that what she needed most now was to open her heart knots and stop worrying about these things, but it was easier said than done.
"She's only going to make herself miserable to death like this, isn't there anything she can do?" Xiu Ying secretly discussed with Red Sleeves.
Red Sleeves also sighed, and his expression was unprecedentedly dignified: "Actually, my young lady's temper is the most stubborn.
I don't know what to do either.
Maybe you still need to tie the bell to the bell.
The only one who can make the young lady open her heart is probably the prince, but now the young lady doesn't want to see the prince, so what should I do. ”
Red Sleeves is also telling the truth, after all, Chu Jiao doesn't have any intention to see Qin Shao now, just facing the man who killed her own child, how could she be in a good mood.
"When the weather is better, I'll take Miss to fly a kite with me, so Miss will be happy!" Red Sleeves suddenly had an idea, but Xiuying didn't think it would have any effect.
When Chu Jiao could barely go out, Red Sleeves took her to fly a kite, Chu Jiao was still quite happy when she smiled, and the haze on her face was swept away.
Red Sleeves thought to himself that it was not wrong to bring Miss here.
"Miss,
I know you're sad when the baby is gone, but I think if the baby is still there.
He must also hope that the young lady can live a good life, instead of being decadent like this every day. ”
Chu Jiao looked at the worried eyes of the red sleeves, almost all the eyes she saw these days were like this, and everyone was sympathetic and worried about her.
Chu Jiao smiled brightly and touched her head: "I have written down everything you said, I promise you, will I live well for the sake of the living?" ”
When the red sleeves heard this, there were almost tears on their faces, Miss has been decadent for many days, and today she is willing to sweep away the haze.
Chu Jiao and Red Sleeves hugged gently, her hand slapped on Red Sleeves' back for a while, and then said in her ear: "Maybe in addition to my father, you are the only one around me wholeheartedly, without asking for anything in return." ”
"Miss, the prince also loves you, it's just that day..."
"You don't have to say any more, I know it all."
After the red sleeves supported Chu Jiao back, Chu Jiao's whole mood improved, and she began to be willing to eat little by little.
"Miss, I see you have eaten a few more pieces of crystal horseshoe cake today.
Is it because you like to eat? If you like it, next time I'll ask the people in the imperial dining room to make more and send them over."
"No, I don't like to eat it, so take it all." Chu Jiao's tone paused for a moment, she ate a few more pieces of crystal horseshoe cake because she always felt that this food had the taste of some people, but he didn't want to have anything to do with Qin Shao anymore.
"Lord Wang, Miss did eat a few more pieces of the crystal horseshoe cake you made, but she said that she didn't want to eat it anymore in the future, and she didn't like to eat it."
Red Sleeves said to Qin Shao, but Qin Shao's face did not show the slightest reluctance: "If she doesn't like it, then I'll just change to a different trick next time, you must keep staying by her side all the time, in case she has any thoughts that she can't think of, you must stop her in time."
In this way, two or three months passed slowly, and Chu Jiao's body was finally better
"I want to go out and walk around and don't want to stay in the palace anymore."
It was the only time Chu Jiao took the initiative to find Yao Chi what she said.
Yao Chi seemed to have understood it a long time ago, and he asked the palace maid to make a burden from the prepared coiling and the things that needed to be used and handed it to Chu Jiao.
"You can have fun when you go out, these plates are enough for you to use for a while, if you don't, take this thing, and go to the local county magistrate to ask for money." Saying that, Yao Chi handed her a gold medal.
Of course, Chu Jiao does not refuse these things, and of course she has to bring her red sleeves on the road.
The two of them set off all the way from the capital, and Chu Jiao had already planned the route before leaving.
The capital is located in the north, and the climate is still a little cold.
This time she wanted to go to the middle, or a little further south to a warmer place.
The two of them hired a carriage and went on the road with some coils, and the first place they arrived at after leaving the capital was Lanzhi County, the smallest county next to the capital.
Chu Jiao didn't see any scenery here, so she just wanted to use it as a foothold, and continued to set off after resting the next day.
What people didn't expect was that people were lying in the pot at home from the sky.
Because there was no inn, Chu Jiao could only live in this farmer's house, and when she woke up the next morning, she found that these farmers were all dead, and for strangers, Chu Jiao was of course the most suspicious person, and she was soon arrested by the county order of Lanzhi County.
"Who's in the hall? Don't hurry up and sign up! In broad daylight, you dare to kill someone in front of Benzhi County? The Wang family has always been the most honest person, and Benzhi County also knows it, and he kindly took you in, but he didn't expect you to do murder! ”
The subordinate next to him said in the ear of the magistrate: "Lord magistrate, she is the one who kills at night, not in broad daylight." ”