Chapter 46: Who Am I?
I suddenly remembered that when I was in the Spring Pavilion, the Spring Pavilion looked at the meaningful words I had said.
"Han Chuan, we have never been enemies. If you remember who you really are, maybe I don't even have the qualifications to sit with you, and if possible, I hope you never want to enter the world. ”
At that time, when I first set foot on this road, I was at a loss, and I didn't think about what Chunting said at all, but now that I think about it, am I really not me? But if I wasn't me, who would I be?
My brain was in a state of confusion and deep unease, and it was too late to pay attention to the reactions of others.
I am a person who does not believe in coincidences, and all coincidences are deliberately arranged in my eyes, and if all this is a coincidence, it is naturally impossible for me to believe it in any case, but if it is deliberately arranged by someone, I also cannot understand it.
This ring is in my memory except for my father who took him after his disappearance, and the rest of the time is in my memory, since I was young, it has been worn on my left hand, no matter what happens, my father will not allow me to take it off, who but my father can have access to this ring that now seems to be crucial?
Unless......
As soon as I thought of this, Shen Lang was on the side, and asked hesitantly.
"Brother Chuan, could it be an uncle......
"Shut up!"
Before he could finish, I yelled at him angrily.
Qi Zhi saw my irritable appearance and knew that I was now thinking chaotic and struggling inside, she waved her hand at Shen Lang, signaling him not to continue, and then pulled me to the side, stretched out her hands to hug me, trying to use her body to warm my struggling heart at the moment.
I know what Shen Lang didn't mean when he finished speaking, he was suspicious of my father, suspected that he didn't love me as much as I imagined, but wanted to use me to decipher the rumors that this Guanshan has been inherited for thousands of years.
And I didn't really get angry with him when I asked Shen Lang to shut up, but I found out for myself that Shen Lang's words scared me, because he said it to my heart.
In my heart, I began to doubt my father!
I came here to explore my father's tracks, but what I discovered made me suspicious of my father's behavior.
A father figure is amiable, like a towering mountain, caring for me in the wind and rain, so that I can grow up smoothly.
The figure of the other father is sinister and cunning, in the darkness that I can't see, he tries his best to take me every step of the way, and wants to treat me as the most important key to this thousand-year-old inheritance.
The two very different looks made it difficult for me to combine the two images.
These two images alternated in my head, and I didn't know how to be good, and I felt like my whole person was in endless darkness, without any motivation to continue.
Chun Ting looked at me, as shrewd as he was, how could he not guess why I was struggling in my head, he sighed, his eyes looked straight at me, and his words were full of sincerity.
"You have to believe Han Ying, his love for you is not fake, as for other things, although I know something, I can't explain it to you."
Chunting walked over as he spoke, looking at me who was being held in Qi Zhi's arms, curled up like a fragile child, and there was obviously some unbearability in his eyes, but he continued to speak.
"Han Chuan, you are the son of destiny, a person of fate, you can't escape the fate of continuous reincarnation, whether you want to or not, in the end, you have to face it, step by step to explore what is hidden in it, this is your fate, you can't escape."
"If you want to give up, I won't do a futile retention, but you can't figure it out, it's better to move on, use your own way, find the real truth hidden behind the fog, and think about it yourself."
After Chunting finished speaking, he stopped talking, patted me on the shoulder vigorously, and called the others to step aside, leaving me and Qi Zhi here, wanting me to calm down for a while.
Although Chunting's words are simple, they are like a light in the dark, rather than being at a loss here and speculating, it is better to continue to explore, no matter whether the ending is good or bad, it is better than I don't know anything about my father and all this.
Qi Zhi kept holding me, perhaps feeling the gradual calming of my emotions, she looked into my eyes seriously, poured out her red lips, and said words from her mouth that made me feel warm.
"Brother Chuan, if you want to continue to investigate, I will travel with you all over the thousands of rivers and mountains, if you want to escape these troubles, I will find a place with you to do laundry and cook for you, no matter what you choose, Qi Zhi will be by your side."
I looked up at Qi Zhi unexpectedly, I didn't expect that after knowing her for such a short time, she could say such affectionate words, and her eyes didn't seem to be fake, and her sentences were sincere.
Qi Zhi may have just said such sensational words, her face was red, but her expression was full of determination, and her eyes were full of seriousness when she looked at me.
If a woman is like this, what more can a husband ask for?
I finally made up my mind, gently motioned to Qi Zhi to let go of the hands that hugged me, and then got up and looked at Shen Lang apologetically.
"Brother, I'm sorry, I was a little messy just now, don't mind."
Shen Lang still looked stupid, he scratched his head, looked at me and smiled unmindingly.
"What are you talking about, Brother Chuan, we grew up together, I can still hate you because of a word, as long as you are happy, no matter how you choose, I will support you."
I looked at Shen Lang gratefully, and I had thousands of words in my heart, but I didn't know where to start, all of them condensed into a pat on his shoulder.
To be a brother, there are not many, but two or three confidants are enough.
Then, I walked up to Chunting and asked a serious question.
"Chunting, I'll only ask this sentence once, am I or not?"
I knew the words I was asking sounded weird, but I was sure Chunting understood what I meant.
Sure enough, Chunting knew what I meant, and his answer to me was something that sounded even more awkward.
"You are you, you are not you, as for who you are, it is your last choice, and no one else can interfere."
The answer as I expected was strange, until now, I even began to doubt my father in my heart, but I had no doubt about what Chunting said.
I looked at the bronze statue and slowly took off the ring in my hand, opening my mouth as I picked it up.
"I know what virtues I have, in fact, I am a layman, before you said that I am a child of destiny, the key to a thousand-year-old secret, I didn't believe it at all."
Ling Xuan heard me say this, as if he wanted to say something, Chun Ting waved his hand, signaling him not to speak, and continued to listen to me.
The ring was the perfect size for my finger, it was tailor-made for me, it was easy to put on, but it was really difficult to take off.
"Saving the common people, no matter how you think about it, it's not my turn to be a person, you people are either profound, or extraordinary, in fact, what I originally thought was very simple, that is, to borrow your hands to find my father's traces."
I said that I used them as a tool to find my father, but I found that they did not mean any resentment, but smiled.
Although I was puzzled, I looked at Chunting and continued.
"Along the way, I obviously feel that you have something to hide from me, but I don't feel the slightest malice from you, and now there is such a thing, and it is unrealistic for me to want to be alone."
When I finally took off the ring, I played with it in my hand and smiled self-deprecatingly, my smile full of bitterness.
"Keep investigating, I'm really a little interested in my identity now, my father didn't hesitate to hide this from me for so long, this ring that should have been on Chang Yuchun's body has always been on my body, maybe I'm really the one who is destined for heaven, you say?"