The saddest thing is not that I don't love anymore, but that I pretend to love it again seems even more sad, and it has always been like this.

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The days when you are stretched thin will really make people wiser, and Peng Cheng is getting thinner and thinner on days like this. His delicate little face was even smaller, and the flesh on his cheeks was like a mango that had shrunk after being placed on the coffee table for a long time, and the original fullness collapsed, looking like a sick little girl.

From time to time, mom will make more delicious food and let Bei Bei bring a friend of her daughter in her impression, a person who lives in words, although she can't see it, but it really exists, she is as casual as a stray puppy at the entrance of the building.

"Daughter-in-law, my mother is really good, we will ...... in the future" Peng Cheng stopped abruptly halfway through his words, he lowered his eyes and smacked his mouth, so out of place, as if he was overwhelmed by some eternal emotion in his heart: "Then she is also my mother." He looked up again at the girl he loved, and said more sincerely than he had ever said he loved her.

The young man's desire for motherly love made the girl's heart ache, and his dark eyes moistened, and she could see it. He always unintentionally expresses his yearning for family affection, yearning for his mother, or maybe he really wants someone, his relatives, and someone who will not abandon him at any time, and he can never give up this person at any time, even if they will eventually perish together, the process of perdition is sweet, pleasant, and desperate, because he will no longer be alone, but suddenly have strength.

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Finally, the two of them had another payday, a long-awaited good day, and this night Bei Bei was waiting for him to get the money back at Peng Cheng's house. Coincidentally, on the day of the funding, Peng Cheng happened to be out of duty, but he didn't go home, he couldn't wait until the next day to get the money, and the two of them were impatient, and they had run out of ammunition three days ago.

Peng Cheng gently unscrewed the door, pushed the door and entered the house, he saw Bei Bei sitting on the bed with the remote control in her hand, she was obviously not watching TV, her eyes were staring at him in the dark, full of doubt. This is what the two of them said, Peng Cheng was waiting for money at the unit, and Bei Bei was waiting for him at home, and when he got the money, he went home, just to buy vegetables and eat.

"It's on?" he heard her, whispering, but still audible how much hope she had.

"Hmm!" the lad answered, as if he had accomplished a beautiful task, and then he heard the girl breathe a sigh of relief, and she sounded much more comfortable. Like a puppy with its tail drooping, he hurried to sit beside her on the bed, took out the thin amount of money from his pocket, and handed it to the girl.

"Daughter-in-law, you count, I spent ten yuan to buy a box of cigarettes for my uncle. This money seemed to be of great significance to Peng Cheng, and his hand holding the money was a little unsatisfied, so that the money could smoothly pass into the girl's hands.

Remember the Shawshank redemption? Maybe everyone sees the world differently, at this time Bei Bei is still an ordinary person, she has not even learned the way to communicate and get along with the world, she likes to use force, everything is strong, superstitious people will win the day, longing for the freedom to speak clearly, but for the so-called freedom of this world, why is she not a prisoner? Maybe everyone is a prisoner, a prisoner imprisoned by money, and what is even more terrible is that most people adapt to and rely on it.

The girl took the money, and when she saw it, she stood it up, as if the bank was performing a money counting contest, and she looked at it carefully, as if she could see it clearly.

Three thousand yuan is a little more, pinched to the hand is only a little thick, she seems to be a little disapproving, did not count carefully, just with two fingers to unscrew the money to see, then casually put it in her pocket, the muscles at the corner of Beibei's mouth twisted, that seemed to be a smile, and then she looked at the lost boy beside her.

With the money, the two of them went to the vegetable market together to buy some leftover vegetables sold during the day, and they could have dinner. It's getting late, and I can't see people twenty meters away, and the morning market for selling vegetables is long gone, only a few stalls selling things in a small market around the area, which are all sold during the day. They originally wanted to buy some mutton soup and come back to cook it, but the stall where they bought mutton soup had been closed for a long time, and if the money could come back earlier, they might be able to buy it.

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"Daughter-in-law, I have something to say. He said, rhythmically pausing before trying to say to confirm Beibei's attitude.

During the meal, Peng Cheng didn't talk much, to be exact, he hadn't spoken much since he came back, the girl had already noticed, he was very unusual today, she guessed that it was because of the money, so she didn't say anything, just waiting for him to speak.

"Daughter-in-law, I want to do something for myself. Peng Cheng put down the dirty dishes and chopsticks in his hand, and he sat next to her, closer than when he had just eaten.

"What for?" she asked him softly, but there was no doubt that he felt the pressure in spite of her low voice, and she looked at him with big eyes that didn't blink.

"I want to do something. ”

"How?"

"I want to buy something from my hands. ”

"Where to sell?"

"In our bathhouse, I told the boss, and he said that if I did it, I would buy my goods. ”

"What are you selling?"

"Just the FMCG products used in the bathhouse. ”

"Where's the cost?"

"I want to use this month's salary. ”

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If you have feelings, you have to dare to follow, Bei Bei didn't feel that there was anything wrong with this conversation, and she didn't think there was anything wrong with Peng Cheng's idea, and she thought about it, she thought about it and even agreed with his idea.

Peng Cheng only costs two yuan to polish a pair of shoes, he is right, she also thinks that it is very unrealistic to make a fortune by shining shoes, rather than waiting for the money to be spent slowly, it is better to do some small business and get it once, he successfully persuaded her, and more importantly, she remembered what Peng Cheng said.

"Brother, are you shoe shine?" His words always seemed to echo in her ears, and she still clearly remembered his self-deprecation when Peng Cheng repeated this sentence to her.

The young man didn't expect the girl to agree so quickly, she only thought about it in front of herself, and that little time was not even enough to eat an egg, and then she agreed. How did she agree, it didn't sound so real, and he was terrified.

"Daughter-in-law, you may not be able to make money in trading. He said, a little nervous.

Of course, the girl knows that there must be risks in trading, and it is normal to lose money and make profits, so she doesn't need Peng Cheng to tell her, she also knows that she may be smashed this time. As for what to do if she smashes it, she is also a little worried, but after thinking about it, if she smashes it, it will be a big deal in another month, and the total loss is only 3,000 yuan, can she still afford it?

used 3,000 yuan to make Peng Cheng forget the sentence "Brother, don't you shine shoes?" Bei Bei felt that it was worth it, so she took out the money from her pocket and stuffed it to Peng Cheng.

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The work in the bathhouse is very painful for most people, first they have to work like a convulsion for 24 hours in a row, and then go home and sleep for 24 hours as if they were pumping to death. The twenty-four hours of this convulsion will generally exhaust almost all of the energy, and even if you sleep enough for the next twenty-four hours for a day and a night, the feeling is very different, and the deficit of the first day cannot be made up in short, but this is limited to ordinary people.

As for Peng Cheng, he is not ordinary. He only needs to sleep one night to support the activities of the remaining two nights, so he always seems energetic and rushes out of the cage like a chicken. The young man slept on a cool kang, and the firepower was indeed strong, and he didn't know where to go after work every day, and he mostly went home late at night.

It's the first time that Bei Bei and her boy haven't contacted each other for such a long time, Peng Cheng is like a sudden amnesia, it seems that he forgot that he still has a daughter-in-law in an instant, the change is sudden, he no longer calls when will the ink girl come back, there has been no news all day long, and even if Bei Bei calls him, he will often not hear the phone.

They no longer kiss me and me, every time they meet, he is excited to tell the girl about the business he has done, his eyebrows are dancing, and he is making comparisons, but no matter how he compares, Bei Bei is still confused. He told Bei Bei where he bought from and where he went to ship, and he was very excited to make a little profit in the middle, and he said that there was a woman in the bathhouse who had been helping him, and the two of them were going to work together.

"What does she do? How do you partner with her?" Bei Bei is Beibei's favorite today, and Peng Cheng cooks instant noodles for her to eat.

"She's the bar. ”

"And how much does she pay?"

Peng Cheng turned around and hugged the girl who was carrying a green onion behind him, and kissed her on the face with some amusement: "Daughter-in-law, she doesn't pay for it, she only contributes." ”

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It seemed that it would take a long time for the business to start and get on the right track, and in that time, Beibei's salary was also in hand, more than seven hundred yuan, and as for a long month, she was a little scared, but she didn't tell him.

Peng Cheng always said that he was busy working, he didn't appear often, and he rarely got the money back, every once in a while, he would stuff her with one hundred or two hundred, which was more or less an emergency, and the two of them lived tightly, so they could get by. But soon Bei Bei starts to worry about what he's doing, because she finally finds out about her brother.

There is a very large vegetable market between Beibei's home and the bathhouse, just on the street next to the bathhouse, and the horizontal exit is diagonally opposite the gate of the bathhouse, and it is not three minutes away from Beibei's house.

On a hot and sunny morning, Bei Bei and Brother Yi met in the vegetable market, but suddenly, she couldn't hide too late.

If you want to say that Brother Yi has such a physique, a successful man who usually carries a small bag almost doesn't go to the vegetable market. It happened that this chance encounter, Peng Cheng was still on duty, Bei Bei later thought that if Peng Cheng rested that day, she might be able to see Brother Yi and Peng Cheng together, maybe it would be possible.

The sun that day seemed to be not good, playing with the heat of life, scorching early in the morning to make people irritable, Brother Yi waved his arms at Bei Bei from afar, and he had enough strength, his face was like mud, and he smiled with oil, and he could still see that it was shiny and shiny.

Running through the mountains and rivers from the many aunts, Brother Yi seemed a little difficult, but he was very persistent, and when he ran in front of Beibei's eyes, he kept calling her from his old brothers and sisters, and he didn't care about the eyes of the people around him, which made the girl very embarrassed. She reluctantly exchanged a few words with her brother-in-law, but she couldn't get away from his topic. Brother Yi has been praising her dress, saying that Bei Bei is beautiful in everything, with a thin waist and a taste, and the girl is cold, and finally Bei Bei can't bear it anymore, she uses Peng Cheng's excuse.

This time, Brother Yi is very good, and he seems to like the topic of Peng Cheng very much. "This kid is not a little timid, and I found out in the past two days. Brother Yi gushed endlessly, he didn't know that Peng Cheng didn't want him to tell Bei Bei about this. finally found a topic that the little brother and sister liked, and the enthusiasm that Brother Yi had accumulated for a long time burst out instantly, and he said it out of control.

As for what Peng Cheng did with Brother Yi, Brother Yi didn't say it too clearly, he pretended to be like a master in the world, and he always spoke with a little bit of subtlety, as if he could pinch it.

After that, Bei Bei didn't ask Peng Cheng too much, as for why the so-called partnership bar is the business of the righteous brother, he doesn't trust it much if he doesn't ask, maybe he just doesn't want to let himself know that he is mixed with the righteous brother, Bei Bei guesses like that, or the man doesn't want his women to know what he is doing and who he is with, and that person is still so unpopular.

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On a sweltering night, there was not even a trace of wind, and the air was extremely humid, sticky and sticky to the body. Peng Cheng took Bei Bei to wander under the street lamp, the dim light of the street lamp was almost extinguished, revealing the old orange yellow, winding and soft, but it was a pity that he was absent-minded with such a beautiful scene.

The two of them held hands, Peng Cheng had never pinched her so loosely, as if she was on her hand and would let go at any time. Bei Bei looked at him twice, but he didn't find out, finally, he still knew about Brother Yi meeting her, he vaguely asked Brother Yi what he said, and she also answered him vaguely, but she didn't say the point. In the same way, he didn't notice the change in her mood, which made her a little annoyed, originally she thought he would find out first, he was such a seeable person.

The two of them walked downstairs to the girl's house, the same dim moonlight sprinkled a soft halo like a grain of sand under the old tree in front of the door, Peng Cheng stretched out his hand and pinched Beibei's shoulder twice, and patted it gently.

"Daughter-in-law, it's not convenient for me to send you up!" he said jokingly.

Wen Beibei suddenly found that Peng Cheng didn't pestering herself like many times before, but just told her to call him after lying down, she looked at his face, couldn't confirm it, he made her heart seem to be empty, and she was gone.

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In the past, Peng Cheng was usually only sent to the grove, but after the two became closer, he began to send her downstairs. When he first went downstairs, he was still a little sneaky, his heels didn't touch the ground, and it seemed that he could start immediately when he saw someone and quickly escaped.

"Why are you like a thief?" asked him, his sneaky appearance was so inappropriate with her straight waist.

"Am I not afraid to see your mother?" he glanced upstairs again.

"Afraid you won't leave?"

He blamed her for looking at her: "I can't bear it." ”

"Aren't you going to be her son?" she asked, like all women, pretentiously.

"I'm her son-in-law, and I'm really not a son. ”

"Then you're still afraid to see your mother. ”

"I ......"

Speaking of this that day, Peng Cheng paused, just this moment, Bei Bei missed a breath, she suddenly realized why Peng Cheng didn't want to see his mother, the ugly son-in-law is afraid that he is embarrassed to see his mother-in-law, no matter how to make up for it, it will be made up after all, and the mouth in his heart is afraid that he can't make it up.

"Daughter-in-law, let's go up later!" Bei Bei didn't like what he always said, the open space in the middle of the three buildings was not covered, and she was not very strong. Every time she hoped that Peng Cheng wouldn't pester her like this, but when he stopped pestering her, she seemed to be even more uncomfortable now.

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"Is there anything wrong with you?" Bei Bei didn't move, she looked at him suspiciously, looked at him for a long time, and asked such a question, she was really not sure of her judgment, but she felt that he should be fine.

"It's okay!" Peng Cheng rejected her, but it sounded fake.

"Then why are you weird today?"

Bei Bei never took her eyes off her, she stared at him closely, watching his eyes shine from absent-mindedness to listening to her question. After that, Peng Cheng began to quibble, full of tricks, and his mouth was like a river, he insisted that he had nothing to do, and he would still pester her, but today maybe the man also has a monthly menstrual cycle, or he forgot.

If it weren't for the next phone call, maybe Bei Bei really believed that men also have men's cycles. It's a pity that someone called Peng Cheng, and after he looked at his mobile phone for a long time, after he turned back again and again, he still couldn't bear to answer the phone. The man on the phone had a slight duck voice, he called Peng Cheng's name, and Peng Cheng said "hey", which was subconscious.

Both of them no longer have an excuse to let this matter pass smoothly, Bei Bei thought it would be a woman, but fortunately it was Brother Yi, Peng Cheng talked to Brother Yi for a long time before hanging up the phone, and then he said: "Daughter-in-law, Brother Yi has something to do with me, but the two of us are doing business, and you are angry." ”

Peng Cheng hugged Beibei's waist tightly, he was relaxed just now and couldn't relax now.

"Daughter-in-law, I know you respond to him, but he can really help us this time, and I don't dare to answer the phone if you don't like it. ”

"Hey!" Bei Bei sighed, she had never told Peng Cheng before that she didn't like Brother Yi, although Brother Yi was always like that, dressed like a king in playing cards. She swore that from now on she would never want to hide her disgust for this fat man in leggings, and she wanted to tell Peng Cheng that her brother made her disgusting.

"Okay! I'm not mad at you, I'm just annoyed with him. Bei Bei lovingly touched the boy's head full of soft hair, and her eyes were soft as if they had been scattered, and she couldn't focus on them.

On the young man's delicate little face, he suddenly smiled thickly, and the untidy little white tooth bit his lip and shook his hair cutely: "Daughter-in-law, my brother is just long-toothed, and he is okay." ”