It seems to be surrounded by water, but it is much more turbid than the sea, and the color is not dark blue, but an ambiguous light yellow, cloudy, but warm enough.

A beam of light came down from above, and above it was a thin film with thin red branches growing on it, and a fleshy and ugly ribbon floated in the water, connecting her body, and her mind was chaotic, as if she remembered everything and as if she didn't remember anything, she looked down at her legs.

Oh, she's a girl......

For some reason, she kind of hates her gender.

When she opened her eyes again, she found herself standing on the ground, wearing a pair of oversized green cloth shoes that did not fit well, and a rope had passed through the upper and tied to her black ankle.

There was a pool of water on the ground, and she leaned over and saw that the two pigtails on the top of her head had been loosened, her face was covered with dirt and bruises, and her eyes were big and beautiful, and she looked at her big black grape eyes in the water, and when she looked in, it was pitch black again.

She is in elementary school, and her brother is in junior high school, she is an old woman, but she still has to give up the only egg on the table at home to her brother, who is already very big in her eyes.

My brother always broke the egg in half with his father's disapproving eyes, and put the big half into her bowl. In fact, the other half will also be hers, and her brother will always carry a piece of oiled paper in his pocket, clean it, and give her eggs when no one is around.

This is a little secret between her and her brother.

Mom often arranged a patched small satchel for her when no one was at home, wrapped her brother's old textbooks in brown paper, and wrote the names of subjects on them in a beautiful font.

In her impression, her mother was a vigorous and irritable woman, a woman in the northern provincial town that her father had asked for a lot to marry, beautiful and cool. But now there is gray hair on his head, and there are a little red and purple scars on his cheekbones, these trials and tribulations have made my mother's temper soften day by day, and slowly, there is no brightness in those eyes.

"Nan, study hard, you must study hard, do you hear?"

She nodded, inexplicably feeling that her mother's words were a little too heavy.

She had good grades, graduated from primary school and was admitted to the best junior high school in the county, and the head teacher came to report the good news to her family, and she came several times, and every time she went out, she looked depressed.

"Child, if you want to go to school, the teacher will provide for you!"

How much money can a teacher in the village have a month? She lowered her head, and two burning eyes fell on the top of her head, one from the head teacher and the other from her father, and strangely, she couldn't see her father's face clearly.

"Teacher, I don't read anymore, it's useless for girls to read."

The teacher sighed and left, her family was not without money, as early as the year before, my brother, who was not very smart in his studies, went north to work in a more prosperous southern city, and the banknotes sent back were printed into a small book with a hard leather surface, which was held in his hand by his father.

Mom persuaded her several times, and finally compromised under her father's slap, Mom hugged her, and hot tears sprinkled into her neck one by one, she only felt itchy, and her heart was like ashes.

After a few years, she entered the factory because she had a primary school diploma. The female workers in the factory couldn't see her clean, her beautiful face, and her village background.

She was able to make money, and she was a little further away from that home.

My brother came back and brought back a delicate-looking woman, the woman had a small mole at the corner of her mouth, she could speak well, the family was full of joy, her mother had a smile on her face, and her father's face was also briefly clear in front of her.

My brother said that he would not leave when he came back this time, and wanted to do some small business and let his father take the money.

Dad took out the money and looked at my brother, what kind of business are you doing, are you doing business? Buying more land is the right thing to do. The honest brother nodded, and the sister-in-law also nodded.

She moved, moved out of the village, and her family had a big house in a beautiful style, and she also had a separate house.

She felt that life was better, and she had hope in her heart, so she listened to her mother's words, saved the money she earned, and saved her dowry for herself - she grew up and had to plan.

When she opened her eyes one morning, she didn't know how much time had passed, and life without waves was like a pool of stagnant water, and tomorrow would only stink more than today. She poured a drop of water into her stagnant water, and her father was gone.

The sister-in-law couldn't keep the child, so she picked one up from her mother's relatives, and the brother was bored for a few days, and finally took the child as his own.

Gradually, she became a bit of an eyesore in this yard, she didn't take money from home, and every cent she earned was stored in her own hard-cover book, she felt safe and down-to-earth. My sister-in-law is a good person, and she is good to my mother, but she is different, she is an outsider, how can a woman be willing to raise her sister-in-law for a long time?

She knows what is wrong, and she doesn't speak, and she tolerates everything...... Well, there will always be a time when the spoon touches the edge of the pot, and the patience will pass.

The sister-in-law said that she was not young, it was time to talk about others, her mother had never been a master in her life, she nodded, and the sister-in-law who could speak well went to Zhang Luo for her.

My sister-in-law said, our sister is arrogant and good-looking, we have to find a county town, and my sister-in-law said, you have saved a lot of money for your dowry.

She nodded.

The man's surname is Lin, he is honest and has a stable job, and he has been divorced once, because his ex-wife can't have a baby. When her mother-in-law came to say this, her sister-in-law's face was ugly. The prospective mother-in-law hung a pair of eyes, looked her up and down, and said, this woman is good, she is good to look at.

My sister-in-law's face was even more ugly.

She felt inexplicably out of breath, the man's second marriage didn't care, she was getting married, she was so good at giving birth, she would definitely be able to gain a foothold in her in-law's family.

Who knows, after more than three years of marriage, she has not been pregnant, but she has a job, and her mother-in-law is reluctant to give her share of the money.

Who knows, she was pregnant in the fourth year, the doctor said that it was twins, and she had to take care of them, and her mother-in-law said in a weird way, don't be two girls, she chuckled in her heart, and began to be anxious.

The twins are not easy to raise, she has no job, her pregnant mother-in-law has no good face, her husband is honest and cowardly, and she doesn't even have half of her brother's responsibility.

My brother and sister-in-law came to see her, and she looked at her sister-in-law's envious look in her stomach and felt that she had won. Looking at her brother as if he were his own kid, she felt that she had lost again, and she had lost completely.

Stayed up until the child was born, the dragon and phoenix fetus, the healthy boy inside made her breathe a sigh of relief, the girl delayed a little time, the child was fine, but she sat down and got sick, and spent a lot of money on treatment, the two were in the bed, and her husband disliked her.

She sat down sick, and she sat down sick.

She thought about the bullying she had suffered when she was a child, the way her father who couldn't remember her face looked at her, and thought that she couldn't continue to let her children suffer like this. But look at your unspeakable illness, look at the smile of your mother-in-law holding the kid, and listen to the mother-in-law say in a weird way, if you are all kids, if you are all kids, if you are all kids, your illness is worth it.

The mother-in-law didn't say human words, she looked at her husband's approving look, and never let the girl be the first to breastfeed.

Her figure was bloated because of drugs and childbirth, her eyes became smaller and cloudy, and the twins made her belly full of unsightly lines, how good it would be if she only gave birth to one, she thought so, the child couldn't bring it, so she put the girl to the country mother.

Life is a pool of stagnant water, and tomorrow will only stink more than today.

She didn't think about it for a long time, she thought about the price of vegetables today and tomorrow, thought about giving her son the best education, and thought about how to take advantage of the benefits and cheapness of the factory, she was immersed in these trivialities, and even the memories of her childhood were blurred, every day was busy, and when she woke up, she was busy, but fortunately, when the girl grew up, the housework became easier all of a sudden.

She forgot her mother's love when she was a child, and her days were like a funnel, leaking those beautiful fragments little by little, and what was put on the bright side was the hardships and sufferings of life that were infinitely magnified.

People are like this, other people's families are like this, she comforted herself like this, and she became more and more reasonable. In another trance, the children seemed to have grown up, but she was worried more about it, but soon, there was a bang around her, as if it was, calling the disaster of the end times.

The stagnant water was tossed to the ground and turned into a pool of muddy slime, and she seemed to see a woman with a big belly, but she couldn't always see the face of a pregnant woman, and she wiped the woman's face...... She was so well dressed, she was so slender when she was pregnant, her body was foggy, healthy and clean.

She felt a strong sense of uneasiness and resentment, those vicious thoughts of the market had long been ingrained in herself, she finally saw the pregnant woman's face clearly, and suddenly felt that it was the worthless piece of meat that had fallen from her body, and when she lowered her head, there was a big empty hole in her chest, and the wind was very cold.

Lin Jiu opened his eyes with difficulty, and there was a touch of water and sand on his eyelids, which was sour and astringent, as if he had been in a dream for a long time and cried more than once in his dream.

The scene in the dream overlapped with Ziyu's self-explosion and the appearance of the beetle snake, so that Lin Jiu didn't react for a long time, which side was real.

She didn't die, but the situation was not rosy. l0ns3v3