After getting off the train, I stood in the station, letting the crowd around me pass by.

It's as if people all over the world are busy with their lives and work, and no one can even notice my presence.

At this moment, I experienced an unprecedented emptiness and loss.

After a long time, I sighed slightly, shuttled back and forth in the flow of people, and walked out of the station.

I habitually touched my pockets, but as soon as my hand reached into my trouser pocket, I froze.

I don't know when, I've finished my last cigarette.

I looked left and right and saw that across the road on the right, there was a convenience store.

Walking across the zebra crossing, I bought a pack of Yellow Crane Towers.

After walking out of the convenience store, I expertly unwrapped my cigarettes and pulled out one of them and put it in my mouth.

Just as I was figuring out the lighter and preparing to light it, I suddenly noticed a familiar figure out of the corner of my eye.

I couldn't help but raise my head, and when I saw her appearance clearly, my body trembled suddenly, and even the heart in my chest instantly hung in my throat.

I never thought that Si Lingyan would appear in front of me at this time.

At this moment, I was like a piece of rotten wood, stunned in place, a little overwhelmed.

"Here, drink it while it's hot, this is the red bean and lotus seed porridge that has just been launched, which can warm the stomach."

As Si Lingyan's words fell, she lifted the plastic bag in her hand and handed it to me.

I noticed, obviously, that the plastic bag contained a hot drink.

After hesitating for a while, I took the plastic bag in her hand and gently inserted the straw into the rim of the cup.

The warm lotus seed porridge was like a warm current that flowed down my throat and spread to my entire body.

Suddenly, I felt a little warm and comfortable.

But I don't know why, but my heart is even more uncomfortable.

"I don't rent the façade of the New Leaf Music Club anymore, and I have sold all the instruments inside."

"What!"

It was like hearing the most shocking thing in the world, my eyes widened, and the eyes that looked at Si Lingyan were full of incredulity.

"You sold the music club? Why! I was shocked.

"I have all changed to medicine, only by doing this can Yin Lanlan's situation be better. During the time you left, Yin Lanlan's condition deteriorated even more seriously, and sometimes she even didn't eat for a day. Yin Xing, can you not leave in the future and spend more time taking care of Yin Lanlan with me, okay? ”

Tangled!

Hesitate!

Si Lingyan frowned, her eyes full of helplessness.

It's like an overturned five-flavor bottle, and I have an indescribable taste in my heart.

At this moment, a thousand words instantly piled up in my chest, and although I squirmed in my throat, those words were tightly stuck in my throat, and I couldn't say a word at all.

I leaned against the telephone pole beside me, frowning, only to feel the dark cloud between my brows getting thicker and thicker, and it could no longer be dispersed.

Before I knew it, I had drunk the red bean and lotus seed porridge in the cup, and I sucked the straw hard until I heard a loud clattering sound, and then I threw the cup into the trash.

Then I lit a cigarette and took a heavy puff, listening to the crackling sound of the tobacco burning.

After a long time, I slowly raised my head, looked at Si Lingyan meaningfully, and said in a complicated voice: "You don't have to do this. ”

"Not necessary? Yin Xing, you have to understand, Yin Lanlan is your daughter, isn't it the most basic thing to buy medicine to cure the disease? ”

"Then you can't transfer the music club! That's your heart's work! That's your dream! You've put so much effort into it, and now you say transfer when you say transfer? What do you want that group of kids to do? Do you want to tell them that your dream has woken up, you have to recognize the reality, and then hope that they will not pursue the so-called dream in the future, but honestly work at the bottom of the society, right? ”

I became more and more emotional, and then I felt like my breathing was getting a little short.

Even I couldn't figure out why my temper was so big all of a sudden.

To be honest, my thoughts are similar to those of Si Lingyan.

When I saw Yin Lanlan crying because of her depression episode, I was so anxious that I was about to cry.

At that moment, I thought of all the ways I could think of, I wanted to sell all the furniture, or borrow money from Zhou Yao, I also wanted to work hard to create, praying that my songs would sell well again, only then could I use the money to buy enough medicine to relieve Yin Lanlan's pain.

However, these are all fantasies, and this is simply unrealistic!

Si Lingyan's current behavior has just turned my anxiety about Yin Lanlan into guilt for Si Lingyan!

When she did this, my heart was even more uncomfortable!

My words seem to have had an effect.

When Si Lingyan heard the children, I noticed, a complicated light flashed in her eyes.

Although it was only for a moment, I still saw it all.

Si Lingyan's face darkened, and even the luster in his eyes became more and more rare.

The past that had settled deep in her heart spread to her body in an instant.

Si Lingyan was like a piece of rotten wood, stunned in place, as if unconscious.

From beginning to end, I stood aside, smoking quietly, depressedly waiting for Si Lingyan's reply.

After a long time, Si Lingyan came to her senses, she greeted me, stared at my eyes tightly, and said word by word: "No! I won't kill the children's dreams! Although I also know in my heart that maybe in a few years, these children will not go down the path of music, but at least they have tried. They are still young, I can't bear to make them realize the cruelty of this society too early, even if it is a small wish, it will become their motivation and longing, right? ”

Si Lingyan's voice was very soft, but such subtle words that could not be more subtle were like a brand, carving deep traces in my heart.

Si Lingyan, she has always been a gentle and kind woman.

It is precisely because of her that I can see the value of life and everyone's responsibility to the world.

Si Lingyan suddenly stretched out his hand, gently grabbed my arm, and said softly: "Yin Xing, go home, Yin Lanlan is still waiting for you." ”

Hearing Yin Lanlan's name, my heart chuckled.

I don't know why, Wang Cheng's figure appeared in my mind again.

Before, I clearly promised Yin Lanlan that I would find Wang Cheng and ask him clearly what was going on.

However, things didn't go as smoothly as I imagined, even if I met Wang Cheng, I didn't figure out what happened to Yin Lanlan.

It was like a huge question mark that weighed heavily on my heart, and I couldn't feel any movement except for the jagged heartbeat in my chest......