I shuddered slightly, surprised, "What do you mean?" ”

Si Lingyan slapped my hand away violently, and said with tears in her eyes: "I know she's lying to me!" I know that everything she said is false! ”

"Then why are you saying those things?"

"Just because I'm unwilling! I paid a heavy price for Qin Mei, and I have also been wronged and insulted a lot, just because my parents don't approve of me, so I want to be with the person I like! The more they don't think well of me, the more I want to fight them! ”

As if reminding her of the scars of the past, Si Lingyan clenched her fists tightly, and her whole body trembled wildly.

She bit her lower lip tightly, not caring if it was bitten out of blood.

I couldn't help but swallow a mouthful of saliva, and even the eyes that looked at Si Lingyan were full of incredulity.

I never thought that Si Lingyan would have such an unknown side.

"Are you crazy! Calm down! Si Lingyan, don't be like this! I exclaimed.

"I don't want to do that either! But I can't help myself thinking about those things, my dad once almost strangled me, that's my own dad, why did he do that! Si Lingyan cried.

My brain suddenly became hot, and I hugged Si Lingyan in my arms, "I know! I know it all! Just because I had the same experience as you, my dad used to oppose me playing the guitar, but I always worked hard because I wanted to prove to him that playing the guitar well has its own value! Si Lingyan, in fact, you don't like Qin Mei, you are unwilling, and stubborn, you must not be deceived by Qin Mei, she is a madman, she will completely destroy you! ”

I hugged Si Lingyan tightly, doing my best to soothe her impatience.

Suddenly, I suddenly remembered something, I reached into the inner pocket of my jacket, and after a little fumbling around, I suddenly felt like I had touched a cold object.

Then, without any hesitation, I directly pulled it out and put it in front of Si Lingyan's eyes, "Do you remember this jade pendant?" It was you who gave it to me, it is hope, it is the future, it is longing! ”

Seeing Yu Pei, Si Lingyan's body trembled suddenly, and even her eyes looking at me were full of incredulity.

She squirmed her throat, as if she wanted to say something, but she couldn't say anything.

Then, she stretched out her hand and gently took the jade pendant, put it in the palm of her hand and looked at it repeatedly.

Si Lingyan's emotions were not so excited, and I let go of her and let her tinker with the jade pendant.

"Yin Xing, do you think I'm a little abnormal now?" Si Lingyan said softly.

I didn't see it, lit a cigarette, and took a big puff in frustration, "No." ”

"You're right, I really don't feel like Qin Mei, I want to be with Qin Mei, I just want my parents to see it, and I can even say that I'm angry with them. But you know what? Qin Mei is the only one who understands me, me and her are like carved out of the same mold, except for her personality, she has all the qualities I aspire to, which even wants me to be like her. Si Lingyan explained.

I was half angry with Si Lingyan, and even my hand holding the cigarette was already a little trembling, I stared at her in a complicated way, and said incredulously: "Just her?" How good can her qualities be? She's a psychopath now, and she's supposed to be arrested in a psychiatric hospital, where she spends her days discussing with that group of patients all sorts of extreme ways to go after the people they like, whether it's life or death. ”

"Nope! That's not true! Qin Mei, she is not such a person! Si Lingyan explained.

"But she's the kind of person she is now, am I not right?" I said solemnly.

As the words fell, Si Lingyan fell silent.

The cool breeze blows, the leaves on the branches rustle, and countless withered yellow falls swaying with the wind, drawing one beautiful scenery after another in the air, and finally falling softly in the fragrant soil, blending with nature.

Si Lingyan's eyes dimmed, she paused, focused her gaze on the only upright flower seedling in the weeds, and said faintly: "Yes, she has changed a lot, she has become terrible, she has become miserable, and she has become inhuman. But Yin Xing, have you thought about it? No matter how bad or vicious a person is, he wants to be a good person and become what he originally longed for. ”

Without waiting for Si Lingyan to finish speaking, I refuted her words, "But this person is not Qin Mei!" What if it was her? Do we have to pay for all the crazy things she's doing now! ”

Once again, my questioning left Si Lingyan speechless.

She didn't refute or excuse herself, just sat quietly on the bench, silently staring at the red flowers waving in the wind.

I exhaled heavily, leaned back in a more comfortable position, and smoked a cigarette in a depressed manner.

I felt like my head was in such a mess that I didn't want to do anything at all.

What made me even more strange was that I remembered that there were two flowers in the weeds, and after one of them was hit by the dew and withered, the other grew even more luxuriantly.

It's clear that the season of the beginning of autumn has passed, but the flower is still standing majestically.

It's like a miracle!

I smoked more often, and the crackling sound of tobacco burning was like a piece of music, gradually rippling in my head.

"Yin Xing, this flower will always exist, it will never die."

Si Lingyan's voice suddenly came to my ears, I turned my head to look at her, Si Lingyan's serious appearance almost made me laugh.

"Dreaming, how can you not die, when winter comes, let alone that flower, even that weed is gone." I quipped.

Si Lingyan didn't speak, she looked at me complicatedly, then got up and walked to the quiet path that led to the road, "Let's go, it's time to teach the children." ”

"Well, you go first, I'll stay for two more minutes." I responded.

Si Lingyan didn't say anything, and walked slowly towards the quiet path.

I glanced at her, then focused my eyes on the flower, smoking a cigarette and thinking over what Si Lingyan had said to me.

In fact, I know that what Si Lingyan said is true, and the flower swaying in the wind will indeed not wither, because Si Lingyan has long regarded it as herself, and its tenacious will has always told herself that she wants to carry out her beliefs and go on this road that no longer exists, even if she already has an answer in her heart, even if she has long known that this probability is really slim......

Perhaps, it is because life is full of regrets that Si Lingyan can become such a perfect woman, safe and independent, and walk out of the glorious path that should belong to her......