After the last puff of my cigarette, I also made my way to the square with the most crowds.

After getting used to it, I spread the bag in front of me, pulled a few coins out of my pocket and threw them in.

After trying a few syllables, I held my guitar and played my own.

I closed my eyes and listened to the roar of the vehicle's engine, feeling the countless neon lights coming into my eyes.

I've been walking around this city over and over again, and I've long been familiar with all the roads, but when I walk through every street in this city, my heart is never at peace.

I could no longer see anything but the dark haze. I laughed wildly in the city that gave birth to me, and I cried loudly at the end of the darkness, as if everyone was full of disregard for life, and even sympathetic eyes were out of reach.

I wanted to run, I wanted to run even more, like an escaper, throwing all my sorrows and memories to the city.

But I can't help it, there are so many things here that I am attached to.

I'm looking.

At the same time, it is also losing.

As I finished playing a tune, I opened my eyes and looked at the scene in front of me, and I was at a loss.

No one stopped at my tunes and songs, and all I had in my bag was a few coins I threw in.

All of them are running around for their busy lives, and life does not allow for them to leave free time to rest.

My nose suddenly became sore, and my desire to cry became stronger.

I held back tears and looked up at the bright moon hanging in the air.

The moon was exceptionally bright tonight, and in the silent glow, I could even see the clouds drifting in the sky.

How I want to complain about God's unfairness to me, I have studied music for so long, and I was finally able to stand out in the music forum, but fate played tricks on me again and again.

I sighed helplessly, put my guitar on the ground, and smoked a cigarette in a dull manner.

"Oh, here you go!"

The sudden sound made me stunned slightly, and the next second I saw a stack of banknotes thrown into the storage bag.

I looked up in disbelief, but when I saw her, I was stunned.

I glanced at my head, took a heavy breath, and asked, "Shen Mumu, why are you here?" ”

Shen Mumu walked in front of me, sat next to me, and looked at me with interest, "Why can't I come?" Let me ask you, has Qin Mei ever looked for you? ”

When I mentioned this, I was furious all of a sudden, stared at Shen Mumu tightly and asked, "Let me ask you, did you tell her about Shu Yang's?" You're sick! What the hell do you want to do! ”

Shen Mumu sneered, she elegantly took out a cigarette, put it in her mouth and lit it, and said softly: "She asked me, since I know about it, why don't I tell her?" But I really didn't expect this woman to do such a thing. ”

As if thinking of something, Shen Mumu suddenly leaned closer to his head and said mysteriously: "Do you guess Shu Yang has a miscarriage now, or has he not had a miscarriage?" You know, that's your child, and he left without even seeing his own father, alas, it's pitiful. ”

The yin and yang weird tone is Shen Mumu's usual method, and every time I talk to her, I can be half angry.

Suddenly, I felt a surge of qi and blood, and it took a lot of effort to recover, I pointed at Shen Mumu's nose and scolded angrily: "How many times have I said it, that child is not mine, can you not button my hat indiscriminately!" ”

Shen Mumu smiled slightly, and said softly: "Is the child yours, can't you go for a paternity test after birth?" Oh yes, Shu Yang may not be able to give birth, maybe the child has been miscarried by now. Yin Xing, I suddenly feel that you are quite pitiful, it is really interesting to raise outsiders as your own children, and treat your own children as outsiders. ”

After speaking, Shen Mumu shook his head slightly, got up and left.

From beginning to end, the dark eyes in my eye sockets were tightly focused on Shen Mumu's body, until her figure disappeared into the deepest part of the darkness with the crowd, and I came back to my senses and lit a cigarette dullly.

My mind was full of thoughts about what Shen Mumu had just said to me, but I couldn't make any decisions in my heart.

Although Shen Mumu's tone sounded very uncomfortable, every word she said would be unexpected.

It's like she told me again and again that the child in Shu Yang's belly is mine.

And this is the kind of behavior that causes more and more people to think that the child in Shu Yang's belly is mine.

I vaguely remember that the person who first told me about this seemed not to be Shen Mumu, but Wang Cheng.

My feelings became more and more complicated, as if a big stone had piled up on my chest, and no matter how much I moved, I could never put it down.

Suddenly, I was a little scared, I was afraid that things were really like what Shen Mumu said.

What if the child in Shu Yang's belly is really mine?

What if!

I smoked heavily, one after the other, letting the glow of neon lights flicker on my face.

Suddenly, I felt a tingling pain in my lungs, I was coughing wildly with a red face, and my stomach was about to vomit.

Then I remembered that I had smoked too much.

I stared blankly at the cigarette butts all over the floor and sighed.

Then I picked up the stack of money in the storage bag and roughly counted it, a total of more than two hundred.

I glanced at the direction where Shen Mumu finally disappeared and stuffed all the money into my pocket.

After putting away the guitar, I dragged my tired body slowly in the direction of home.

I always knew in my heart that no matter how much I was wronged and tormented outside, as long as I could get home, these unpleasant things would dissipate in a blink of an eye.

Because I know that there is a girl named Yin Lanlan who is always waiting for me at home.

In her eyes, I am her light. And I also pinned all my fetters on Yin Lanlan alone.

However, it never occurred to me that God always seemed to like to joke with me.

When I saw the undisguised door, my heart thumped, and a sense of fear instantly permeated my entire body.

As if aware of something, I rushed into the room and opened the door.

I lifted the quilt, but the empty bed gave me a huge visual feast.

My breathing became more and more rapid, and I shouted at the top of my voice: "Yin Lanlan! ”

Then I ran to the kitchen again, and even searched the bathroom and Zhou Yao's room, where is there still Yin Lanlan's shadow!

At this moment, I felt like the faith that held me up collapsed.

I sat on the ground as if I was a mess of mud......