Although he thought so in his heart, out of politeness, Jiuyang still replied: "Are you there?" I'm sorry, Uncle Yan, I fell asleep after coming back to take a shower, and I forgot to tell you. ”

After replying to Yan Rin, Lu Jiuyang began to clean up the mess. With the accumulation of instant noodle boxes and the clutter on the tabletop, Dr. Chan said that tidying up clutter can make you feel better. After more than ten minutes like this, Yan Rin sent her a message.

"It's good to be home, young and bad memory, kid. I've just gotten off work and I'll talk about it when I get home. This time, Yan Rin sent a voice, and the warm voice came to Lu Jiuyang's side through the current, and the whole room seemed to become less empty.

"Uh-huh, stay safe, Uncle Yan."

Jiuyang later put that voice many times, and the speed of sorting it became much faster.

After cleaning up, Jiuyang went to take a shower again. She is very afraid of getting dirty now, and when she was serious before, her hands were scrubbed and broken, but now she has reduced a lot of skin, but she still takes a shower several times a day.

Jiuyang saw that almost an hour had passed, and out of courtesy, she asked Yan Rin, "Have you arrived home?" Have you eaten? Uncle Yan. ”

The news came quickly, "I've already eaten, what about you." ”

Jiuyang hugged his big ears and Tutu sent a voice message to Yan Rin. "I've eaten, Uncle Yan told me about your work, I'm too bored."

"If there is anything interesting about going to work, why don't you tell me why you are suspending school, and then I will tell you about being a soldier."

Jiuyang's enthusiasm suddenly cooled, and she was afraid to mention those things again and didn't want to talk to Yan Rin. But since she chose to believe in Dr. Chan and Yan Rin, she had to try.

"Okay, the story is very long, Uncle Yan, don't bother me."

"Well, if you say it, I'll listen carefully."

"I have a very good friend who is there for me when I'm upset, when I'm not confident, and she's there for me at all times. I started opening up to her and letting her into my little world. That little world has my biggest secret. ”

"The secret is that my parents divorced when I was five years old. Dad went to jail for committing a crime, and Mom remarried. The family situation was complicated, and I began to have a psychological shadow because I witnessed some bad things for my mother and stepfather. ”

"I have been hiding my family situation since I was a child, but I confessed to her. As a result, she revealed my secret to the world, because she thought that the best state for the two of them was to fall into each other and embarrass each other. ”

"After that, I learned about her family situation and her psychological condition. She's the devil, can you understand that feeling? When you finally let down your guard and be honest with someone, that person treats your weaknesses as ants, crushing and crushing them little by little. She even said that our friendship was all fake, and I just liked that others had full trust in me, and finally abandoned that person fiercely. ”

"My family couldn't understand and even thought I was ashamed, my classmates pointed fingers at me, and my former friends took the lead in insulting me. As a result, I couldn't go to school normally and gave up all the familiar social interactions. I was afraid of anyone's eyes and started to fear intimate conversations. Then I took a leave of absence from school for psychotherapy. ”

"That's all I had before I met you."

Jiuyang exhaled a long breath after sending these words to him, and told him all those concerns, embarrassments, and fears as they were. No matter what he thinks, Joyoung has already taken the first step.

She hadn't cried for a long time, and she had lost the ability to cry since she got sick. She always thought quietly, why? Why are other people's families normal and ordinary? Why is other people's friendship warm and everyday? She has nothing, why does God punish her again and again.

"Huh~, I'm sorry Uncle Yan, I didn't want to talk to you about this. After all, it's all a bad experience, and no one is obligated to listen to these bad words. If there's anything that makes you uncomfortable, then I'm sorry. ”

Jiuyang saw that Yan Rin hadn't replied for a long time, and she knew that their chat was over. No one will want to talk to her, and no one will like her.

"I'm sorry kid, I'm sorry for recalling your bad memories and I'm sorry for replying to you for a long time. Well, hopefully you can come out of these bad pasts. It's not your fault, you're just the victim. Trust, honesty, sobriety, and self-healing are all rare abilities, and I'm glad I saw them in a 16-year-old. ”

Jiuyang began to cry when she saw that none of this was your fault, and she finally saw the person who came to save her in her swamp.

The hand that wanted to type trembled uncontrollably, and there were many words that wanted to be said by the throat. Jiuyang felt that his heart was breaking through the ground and growing spring shoots.

"I'd love to tell you that everything will pass. But there are some words that are too heavy for me to say easily, and I don't know the suffering of others, so I don't persuade others to be kind. But you must believe that there is a time for good and bad, and the meaning of suffering is also for the splendor when happiness comes. ”

Jiuyang could imagine how Yan Rin on the other side was racking his brains to persuade her at this moment. Such a kind and gentle person must be a gift from God.

"Uh-huh, thank you, Uncle Yan. A lot of things have passed, and I will slowly try to get better. Tell me about your time as a soldier. ”

"I was a soldier very ordinary, and I didn't study well and had a dream of being a soldier, so I decided to serve the country as a soldier. Although I was lonely in the two years I was a soldier and basically had no contact with the outside world, it is still very meaningful to look back on those days. ”

"Well, this is the end of today's story sharing, children should go to bed early and get up early, and they can grow taller." Yan Rin terminated her curiosity. Well, it's not too early, and there are still a long way to go.

"Uh-huh. Thank you, Uncle Yan, for resting early, too. ”

Lu Jiuyang still didn't have a nightmare tonight, but he dreamed of Yan Rin. In the dream, Yan Rin and her stood at the foot of Kilimanjaro Snow Mountain, and the two stood side by side. He wears a black down jacket with a gray scarf, and he wears a white cotton jacket with a gray scarf. Everything was beautiful in the dream.