Chapter 32: Brother, Here We Is
Before the imperial brother died, he entrusted this huge North Vietnam to her.
But at that time, she was only a little girl under the age of sixteen, and she supported Zhao Qinian all the way to stumble forward, and she didn't know how many sins she suffered before she survived to the peace of the country and the people.
But as for herself, not only did she not get half a point of gratitude, but in the end, she ended up with her body and heart shattered, and died of oil.
When she was awake, she didn't dare to think or speak, but she only dared to say the sentence she buried in the deepest part of her dream in front of an illusion: "Brother, Ah Ruan is wronged." ”
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The autumn wind is sorrowful, the moon is bright and the stars are scarce.
After lying on the bed for a long time, Zhao Huangge still hadn't struggled out of that nightmare.
Her cheeks were cold, and the heart-rending and heartache in her dreams were vented, which made her a little unable to ease up until now.
It's just that the mind has been gathered a little.
Zhao Huangge raised his hand silently, wiped the wet piece on his cheek, and sighed imperceptibly for a long time.
That dream was not so much a nightmare as it was her obsession.
In her previous life, when she was drifting away from Zhao Qinian, she almost dreamed of her royal brother every night, dreaming that he accused herself, and said with disappointment that she would take a good child crookedly; I also dreamed that he comforted himself, saying that Zhao Qinian was a bastard and asked her not to worry about him in general.
In the year before her death, the relationship with Zhao Qinian was almost incompatible, and the little emperor had just taken charge of the government and wanted to monopolize all the powers, but he forgot whether his ability was enough.
Zhao Huangge couldn't break him, and after the admonition, the relationship with him became more and more estranged, and sometimes he hated so much that he really wanted to leave it alone, but in the end, he could only grit his teeth and clean up the mess for him.
What's the matter?
That is the only son of the imperial brother, and the heir of the Zhao family, no matter how much she hates iron and steel, no matter how angry she wants to kill, she still has to compromise in the end.
Those days were until she died.
Killing herself, she was not afraid.
She, Zhao Huangge, has never been afraid of death, but she is afraid of seeing the ghost of her imperial brother, and she is afraid of being questioned by the ancestors of the Zhao family, why did she fail so much.
But in addition to those self-blame, there is actually an emotion.
Grievance.
Since the death of her brother, no matter what happened, she held on, and gradually forgot that she would also be wronged.
She threw a heart out, only to be torn apart and trampled on the ground.
Aren't you wronged?
She took the eight-year-old Zhao Qinian, broke through the sword one level after another, and finally brought out a white-eyed wolf, even if she was wrong, how could Zhao Qinian be completely innocent?
Zhao Huangge closed his eyes and suppressed those surging emotions, but the gloom on his face was a little strong.
probably just dreamed of the imperial brother, and the emotions in her heart were torn back and forth at this moment, and her face became more and more ugly.
When the female doctor entered the door, she was startled when she saw her like this, and immediately asked with concern, "Princess, are you uncomfortable?" ”
How could this pale, look more terrifying than at night?
Zhao Huangge was immersed in thoughts, and didn't notice the female doctor entering the door, but when he heard her voice, he came back to his senses, frowned slightly, and said, "It's okay." ”
She was really unconscious later, but she also vaguely knew that a doctor came to see her.
Thinking of this, Zhao Huangge's heart moved.
When unconscious, she seemed to ......
I heard the voice of the royal brother.
Zhao Huangge felt something in his heart, but his expression was a little tangled.
Just had such a dream, she really doesn't know how to face the royal brother now. But she hasn't seen him for more than ten years, and now she is a living royal brother, but she can't help but want to see him.
Seeing her like this, the female doctor was worried that she was not feeling well and didn't say anything, and after asking for instructions, she came to check her pulse, only then did she breathe a sigh of relief, put her mind at ease, and smiled and comforted: "The princess's body is indeed fine, you take good care of it, and it won't be long before the body can recover." ”
Hearing this, Zhao Huangge nodded, those complicated emotions were no match for longing, she asked hesitantly: "This palace asks you, has the imperial brother been here?" ”
The female doctor didn't know these twists and turns in her heart, and replied respectfully: "Princess Hui, the emperor did come to visit you, and he is now in Yanhua Temple." ”
As soon as these words came out, Zhao Huangge's heart instantly beat wildly, his brother and her were close at hand!
She could barely contain her emotions and asked, "When did he come, did he say anything?" ”
Seeing her expression, the female doctor said with a smile: "You were still in a coma at that time, and the emperor only said to let Weichen take care of you." ”
When she said this, she said, "Does the princess want to see the emperor?" ”
Zhao Huangge nodded, but shook his head again, glanced at the sky outside, and said, "No, let's sleep in this palace for a while." ”
She said that she wanted to sleep, but she couldn't sleep either, but when she thought that Zhao Xianyuan was staying in a place not far from her, she felt a little unable to sit still.
I want to see him, but I am afraid to see him.
Soon, though, she didn't bother with these things anymore.
Because, the emperor is coming.
The genius was about to dawn, and when Zhao Huangge was about to fall asleep in a daze, she heard some movement outside, and her consciousness, which had fallen into a light sleep, woke up in an instant.
"How's the princess?"
The voice......
Zhao Huangge suddenly sat up straight from the bed, but fell back because of the pain in his lower back.
She frowned slightly, and saw the emperor raise the curtain and walk in quickly.
He had already heard the movement, and when he saw Zhao Huangge frowning in pain on the bed, he suddenly said in a deep voice: "You don't lie down well, what are you doing when you get up?" ”
While speaking, he instructed the female doctor: "Why are you still stunned?" Show it to the princess, but it's not hurt! ”
The female doctors hurriedly stepped forward to check her injuries, and there was a shortage of soldiers in the room, and the imperial doctors went in and out, only Zhao Huangge was lying there stupidly.
The moment she saw the emperor, all the expressions on her face froze.
It seemed that her mind was emptied in an instant, only those eyes could still be used, but she looked directly at her third brother, the current emperor Zhao Xianyuan.
The emperor was twenty-six years older than her, and if his children survived, they would be six or seven years older than himself.
It is precisely because of this that they are not so much brother and sister as father and daughter.
Since his death, in his past and present lives, Zhao Huangge has not seen him for more than ten years.
Looking at it now, the man is still the same as in his memory, elegant and easy-going, with an unnatural whiteness on his face due to a long illness, but he can't lose half of the tenderness in his eyes.
She was so stunned, but the emperor was startled.
After the doctors had finished diagnosing and saying that she was fine, the emperor waved his hand and asked them all to go out.
After that, he walked to her side: "It's my mistake, I shouldn't have killed you, Ah Ruan Mo cried." ”
The emperor reluctantly wiped away her tears, and there was more connivance in his voice: "It's all my brother's fault, don't cry, but where does it hurt badly?" ”
Zhao Huangge didn't realize that she was crying, and it wasn't until his hands were wet that he knew that she had burst into tears at some point.
Such a gentle royal brother is real.
There is no accusation in a dream, and there is no illusion in a dream.
"Brother......
Zhao Huangge couldn't hold back any longer, hugged his waist, and let himself cry and tremble.
After the death of the first emperor that year, the Empress Dowager Dehui died in front of the coffin and was buried for the first emperor.
Zhao Huangge, who lost her father and mother one after another, only felt that she had no relatives since then.
It was also at that time that Zhao Xianyuan took her hand and said to her gently: "The folk say that the eldest brother is like a father, although the father is gone, I will love you like him." So Ah Ruan is not afraid and does not cry. Brother, here you are. ”
After that, Zhao Huangge liked to call him brother instead of imperial brother.
Royal family affection is always mixed with interests, and the young Zhao Huangge doesn't understand, but it doesn't prevent her from being coquettish to the people closest to her.
And the emperor was also called by her, a brother, for many years.
She cried and hugged him, and called out to his brother again and again, and the emperor's body suddenly stiffened.
When I saw her last night, she was still in a coma, crying so badly.
It's just that she cried silently at the time, but now, she cries like a child.
I don't know how long this is a grievance that I have been holding back, but now that I finally see someone, she can't help crying, and her eyes are dark.
The emperor's eyebrows were heavy, and his tear-stained fingers stroked her hair, and he said for a long time: "I am here." ”