On the way back, Yan Rin kept thinking about his feelings for Lu Jiuyang, did he like her? It doesn't seem to be quite.

Feelings are really wonderful things, Yan Rin can give Lu Jiuyang all the beautiful things, and he boils them down to his sister-like love.

But spoiling without a bottom line and even wanting to see her all the time, what kind of feelings is that? Mother Lu is right, both of them are in the adolescent stage of love, even though Yan Rin is five years older than Jiuyang, he is still a child in the eyes of his elders.

If he was really asked to take care of Lu Jiuyang for the rest of his life, would he be willing? Yan Rin suppressed his ridiculous thought in an incredible way, how could they be?

She is only 17 years old, and she will go to high school and college in the future, and she has more rich lives waiting for her to explore. And what about yourself? will always be in S City, and the job will always be firefighting, how can the life at a glance pull the little girl in.

Yan Rin felt that the more he thought about it, the more annoying he became, and he drove to a friend's bar.

"Yo, you're on vacation. Why did you think of looking for me today? ”

Friend's bar is a quiet bar, decorated in a modern literary style. The bar is perfect for him to hunt for beauty, so it's usually good to come here just for him.

"I'm upset and come to sit here." Yan Rin found a quiet booth, and the dim light flickered on his brow, and the frowning brow proved his irritability.

"What's wrong with you, are you going to the team tomorrow? Do you want to drink some? ”

"I'll take a 10-day break, let's have a drink, there's something I want to talk to you about."

Yan Rin really didn't know what to do, he originally thought that he could suppress his feelings for Lu Jiuyang, but because of Lu's mother's words, he was confused again.

He was afraid of delaying Lu Jiuyang, and he was even more afraid that the relationship between the two would hurt Lu Jiuyang, so he didn't know whether he should advance or retreat?

If Jiuyang was in college now, then Yan Rin wouldn't have so many worries. Jiuyang has not fully grown up, and his feelings may be just simple attachment.

The thought of this made Yan Rin even more annoyed. He didn't know whether his repeated behavior of crossing the line and the ambiguous relationship between the two were right or wrong.

"Why, it's still the little girl from last time. Dude advises you, if you don't like it or not, just try it. ”

The friend held a wine glass to instill his own emotional outlook on Yan Rin, in his opinion, love is the indulgence of having today and no tomorrow, the two of them don't care about the etiquette and secular when they look at each other, and they will shoot and scatter if they don't see each other.

Why are you so entangled? The most important thing that laymen have to do in the world is the exchange of love.

"No, you don't understand. I...... I don't think the same way as you. What's more, she is only 17 years old this year. ”

"Alas, it's too young. A lot of things are not easy to start, and I pity your five-fingered girl. ”

The friend made a joke about Yan Rin there, after all, he couldn't understand Yan Rin's feelings for the little girl, but in his opinion, if it was Yan Rin, he would definitely persuade himself to retreat to the position where he should retreat.

"Yan Rin, buddy will ask you a word. Do you like that little girl? ”

Yan Rin didn't know how to answer, he recalled that when he was with the little girl, her laughter, her crying, her silliness and cuteness, it turned out that before he knew it, she had slowly occupied his heart.

My friend knew by looking at him that it was over. This silly boy really likes that little girl. Alas, how can I like a girl so much younger than myself for the first time.

"Yan Rin, what do you want to do so much? You're always like that, you kid just don't think about your feelings. If you like it, be with her, and that kid will like you too. ”

Yan Rin didn't know that liking someone was pleasant and painful, he was afraid that his love would hurt Lu Jiuyang, and he was even more afraid that it would bind her future. But he didn't want to see the scene like today at the school gate, what if there was a boy with her in the future?

"It's not as simple as you think. She's been hurt a lot before, and her mom told me today to keep me at arm's length from her. ”

"My liking doesn't matter anything compared to her future, and she's a kid. She may just mistake dependence on me for liking. ”

"I can't intervene in her life when she's just back in school. If I let her hurt anything, I'd be even harder. ”

The friend looked at Yan Rin's entanglement, and he knew his concerns. Who hasn't lived a green life, who hasn't loved someone sincerely.

When I love her, I always hope that she will not be hurt at all, and all the good things I have can be given to her without reservation. In her own eyes, she deserves all the good things in the world, because she is better than anything else.

"Yan Rin, I know your concerns. But can you really suppress your feelings? Can you promise to be her brother forever? ”

Yan Rin knew that he couldn't, but reality didn't allow him to be presumptuous. Lu Jiuyang can do whatever he wants with impunity, he can't.

He only hopes that she is well, and that in the future she can find something she likes. Everything else that affected her, he didn't want to do. He was afraid that his feelings would affect her, and that they would have no future at an inappropriate age.

"I don't know, but what I do know is that she's still young, and I can't use feelings as an excuse to get out of control."

"You, you, what a ...... Alas, since you have made your choice, let's take it one step at a time. ”

Yan Rin had never drunk so much since he was discharged from the army, and the feeling of a hangover made him a little uncomfortable. When he woke up, he saw the familiar furnishings of the room, which seemed to have been sent back to him by a friend.

He opened his mobile phone and saw the message from Lu Jiuyang, Yan Rin My mother didn't say anything strange, don't take it to heart.

Yan Rin, are you angry? Why didn't you reply to me? Yan Rin, don't be angry, okay, I apologize to you. Yan Rin, why haven't you replied to me yet?

Dozens of text messages went on until midnight, this silly girl. "Auntie just sent me downstairs yesterday and I wasn't angry. I went out with friends last night for some drinks, and my phone turned off. ”

Within ten minutes, the little girl's message came, "Oh, it scared me to death, I thought you were ignoring me." Then you can rest well. ”

Yan Rin looked at the message on his phone, he knew that Lu Jiuyang was too afraid of losing. She longs for love but is afraid to leave, she has been insecure since she was a child, she shows all her weaknesses in front of Yan Rin, how dare Yan Rin destroy the distance between them.

He remembered a song that the distance between us was just right here, and it couldn't be saved if we didn't hug us. Probably he and Lu Jiuyang are destined to be inseparable, and he can only take care of her until he meets someone who loves her more than him.

What if not? How could it be, the little girl is so cute. What if so? So what to do yourself.

Yan Rin's heart felt as if it had been pricked by dense needles, and a sore pain filled his entire chest. It turns out that the feeling of not being able to love is like this, and he hopes that Jiuyang will never understand.