Actually, I don't have much to say.

I loved Kwon Yun, I don't regret it, that's enough.

I used to really think that love would be the whole of life.

My life is divided into three parts, the first part is before I met Kwon Yun, the second part is after I fell in love with Kwon Yun, and the third part is after I don't love Kwon Yun.

Part 1 is very simple, me, Yi Chen, and my parents, we depend on each other.

I remember one day, when the cultivator came, my sister knew that my brother and I had spiritual roots, so she took us away.

It was an era when demons were raging.

As an ordinary person, he has no ability to resist the demon race at all.

So in our eyes at that time, it was a kind of luck to be picked up by cultivators.

We who entered the Xuanlei Gate were both lucky and unlucky.

At that time, my younger brother Yi Chen was not yet the Demon Emperor of the Demon Clan, he was just a new disciple who had just entered the sect.

His master was accepted as the first personal disciple, but unfortunately, the master was very unreliable.

Even if we are a disciple of our own lineage, we have to follow another senior uncle or senior brother to cultivate.

Yi Chen was even more miserable because Quan Yun came.

Compared to that cultivation genius, Yi Chen, who was originally a senior brother, suddenly dimmed, so as not to be inconspicuous.

The three words "big brother" mean a lot of things.

The eldest brother is like a father, and the eldest sister is like a mother.

In the Xiuzhen sect, the word "long" also means a lot of priority.

If it is farther away, it will inherit the priority of the Xuanlei Gate in the future; Closer, the priority of various cultivation resources.

However, Yi Chen's embarrassment is here, he has the best cultivation resources, but he can't compare to Quan Yun.

The competition in the correction sect is very cruel, and if you can't beat him, your resources will go down.

As a result, Yi Chen, the senior brother's cultivation resources, unconsciously, were not as good as Quan Yun.

Obviously ranked second, Quan Yun not only has more and more priorities, but even his prestige in the sect is getting bigger and bigger, and there are more and more people who believe in him.

At this time, what should Yi Chen do?

Many people said: "I think the senior brother should abdicate and give way to Xian, and this position should be given to the second senior brother to sit." ”

"I also think so, Senior Brother's cultivation talent is too poor, he can't compare to Second Senior Brother at all, if it continues like this, there will definitely be problems in the future."

"Anyway, if I had to choose between the senior brother and the second senior brother, I would definitely choose the second senior brother."

……

At that time, I was deeply in love with Kwon Yun, so I didn't think there was anything wrong with that.

The contradictions between me and Yi Chen are also accumulating little by little.

I couldn't see his pain and struggle, my eyes were full of only the light and glory of Quan Yun.

One day, I had an accident.

I lost my "innocence".

I was in a lot of pain, and I felt that I was no longer worthy of the golden glow of Kwon Yun.

Lost the right to continue to love him.

Wang Lu comforted me and said, "Don't think like that, it's not your fault. If you are the one who really loves you, you will only cherish you more because of this, sad that you were not by your side at that time, and save you from fire and water. ”

At that time, I didn't know that Wang Lu was actually Quan Xiaolu.

What do you say about my relationship with Quan Xiaolu?

It's not very good, it's not not terrible.

After all, I loved Quan Yun deeply at that time, and as Quan Yun's sister, I naturally liked Quan Xiaolu very much.

Maybe in Quan Xiaolu's opinion, I'm really good.

But the identity of "Wang Lu" has brought me a lot of trouble.

A lot of people say he likes me, he's pursuing me, and I should be with him.

"You're like this, you're gone, what else do you have to be picky about?"

"It's good to have someone like you, hurry up and be grateful to Dade."

"Yi Xiangxiang, you are not worthy of the second senior brother."

……

I don't know what Quan Yun thought at that time, he didn't change anything from before, what kind of attitude should he have, or what kind of attitude.

If I had done it before, I might have thought that Kwon Yun liked himself because he was really good to me, compared to others.

However, if I extend this kindness to everyone around him, I can easily see that his attitude towards me is no different from that of others.

In other words, in fact, I am no different from others in his heart.

From the beginning, I was not special with him.

It was I who deceived myself into thinking he liked me.

Later, my younger brother Yi Chen disappeared.

Without warning, suddenly one day it was gone.

It was only then that I realized how bad my situation was without my brother's protection.

Although his situation was not very good at that time, his presence was able to shelter me somewhat.

Not anymore.

There are more and more malicious voices, more and more positive and bright, appearing all around me.

When I was in front of them, I pretended that nothing had happened, but in a place where no one was looking, I couldn't help but cry secretly.

I don't know what's going on, what I've done wrong, why God wants to hurt me so much.

Others think: "Your brother is missing, and you are not worried at all?!" ”

Especially the flowers are towards the moon.

As an admirer of her younger brother, Hua Chaoyue never hid her thoughts.

It's a pity that Yi Chen never responded to her.

Led by Hua Chaoyue, I got into even more trouble.

When Wang Lu came in as a man, it would only get worse, but she didn't realize it.

Until Wang Lu announced his true identity - Quan Xiaolu.

The trouble on Hua Chaoyue's side was temporarily solved, but Quan Yun's confidantes came to the door.

Me: "......"

Looking at his so many faces, I didn't know how to react for a while.

They are not only young and beautiful, with different styles, but also clean and innocent. This increased my inferiority complex and made me feel like I couldn't hold my head up.

But I gritted my teeth and survived, because I remembered what my master had said: "Don't punish yourself for other people's mistakes." No one knows better than you what you are. ”

Yes, no one knows better than I am.

Knocking out my teeth and swallowing it in my stomach, no one can understand my grievances.

Quan Xiaolu said, "You should spend more time on cultivation. The master once said to me that when you have strength, everyone will keep their mouths shut. ”

I had only one thought on my mind – to shut everyone's mouths.

I tried all my strength, cultivating, cultivating, cultivating.

When my mind was full of only cultivation and all information from the outside world was blocked, I suddenly realized that cultivation was more lovely than Quan Yun.

I fell in love with cultivation.

Compared to the unattainable and uncertain Quan Yun, the matter of cultivation is obviously much cuter.

It's something I can control, and it will give me a response to whatever I give.

I fell in love with cultivation and didn't need any reason.

Because I spent too much time and energy on cultivation, I don't know when, Quan Yun faded in my heart.

Fader and lighter, less and less traceless.

When people started calling me Uncle Shi and calling me "real person", I suddenly realized that it was time for me to accept apprentices.

Standing on a high place, looking back at the road I have walked, I actually feel a little incredible.

Really, before this, Quan Yun I never thought that I would be able to go so far.

Probably life is like this, focus on one thing, immerse yourself in it, study hard, and you will always gain something.

In this life, I have no regrets.