After a long time, Chen Feng turned his head to look at his intimate lover who was sleeping by the pillow by the moonlight.

His mind was a little empty, and many mixed thoughts were boiling.

His memories gradually flowed uncontrollably.

Since the two met, from misunderstanding and suspicion to relying on each other, then appreciating each other, and then to Chen Feng being ashamed of himself, Zhong Lei was getting deeper and deeper, and then Chen Feng finally had a showdown and confessed, he wanted to say goodbye, but the bits and pieces that fell deeper and deeper surfaced from the bottom of his heart, and then swallowed his heart.

Obviously, they are very familiar with each other now, but Chen Feng still deeply remembers the indescribable shock in his heart when he first recognized Zhong Lei and found out that she was the Beethoven of the next thousand years.

At that time, Chen Feng didn't dare to expect too much, just thinking that even if he became an ordinary friend, he would be satisfied with two more words.

How could he have thought that he would live the ninth life in just nine months, see countless lives and deaths, and be reborn, and now he has finally done the "female version of Beethoven" that has become more amazing.

It's a fact, but he still can't believe it.

It's like a dream, there are ups and downs in this big dream, and there are also happiness and satisfaction, Chen Feng knows that it is a dream, but he doesn't want to wake up, and he can't wake up.

He still occasionally fantasizes that if there is no crisis, everything will continue to live plainly, and then he will always look up to Zhong Lei who is flying higher and higher in the ordinary, and sometimes sigh with self-pity and sigh why he didn't have a better relationship with the other party when he was a neighbor.

This fate may be sad for oneself, but it is also difficult to say whether it is good or bad for civilization.

Chen Feng peeked at Zhong Lei again, and then silently buried his face in the pillow.

At this time, he didn't know whether he was ashamed or excited, and maybe he still had a heavy sense of responsibility.

It was the first time in a long time that he had crossed over with another person asleep beside him.

Alas.

It's time to fall asleep, and hopefully this time I can do better.

Certain!

The next day, early in the morning, Chen Feng opened his eyes in a daze.

The furnishings in the room are still familiar.

The sixteen pairs of woolen pants that were shaken off the ground with the quilt in love last night were neatly stacked on the bedside table.

Chen Feng rubbed his eyes, sat up straight, and looked around.

This is indeed the master bedroom of his own villa.

Well?

After about five seconds, he realized something, his pupils dilated, and his face became distorted, revealing panic and confusion.

Chen Feng's teeth creaked.

Finish...... It's over!

I didn't go there!

The crossing failed!

This...... What to do?

Did we win this time?

My mission is over?

The finale?

How is Tang Tianxin?

How is everyone?

Has humanity rushed out of the solar system?

It's really ...... Is it over?

The compound eye civilization is so powerful, could it be that I really did so well this time and successfully wiped out the fleet of the compound eye civilization in the galaxy?

Will the home planet of the Compound Eye Civilization in the Virgo Local Cluster send a new, larger, and more advanced fleet?

What is the next step for a super-order civilization that created a solar dome and an electron black hole?

How did we fight this battle?

How exactly did you win?

Or did we actually lose too?

It's just that the energy that supports me in planeswalking is depleted?

……

Ten thousand problems that have made him anxious all the time, but he said that if he didn't clean it up, it would be messy one after another in his heart.

These seemingly simple questions, but they are often related to the life and death of tens of billions of people, as well as the survival of entire civilization, constantly hit his mind.

Gradually, Chen Feng's face was as dead as ashes, holding his head in his hands, extremely annoyed and frightened.

He had long feared that there would be such a day.

That is, he suddenly loses the ability to travel through time and space, and then he doesn't know what will happen, and he can only leave the future to fate.

Yes, I have already arranged what I should do in the rest of my life, and I also have inexhaustible wealth potential, and I am destined to become the richest man in the world in twenty or thirty years at the latest, becoming the dual leader of science and art admired by everyone, and maybe even the invisible boss in politics this time.

But, does it make sense?

Who is not a cup of loess after all?

I don't want the present, I want the future!

Bastard, why did you give me up so well.

Give me a few more chances, and maybe I'll make it!

I know that traveling through time and space is equivalent to replicating the universe, and this energy consumption is very large, so large that it is beyond my imagination, so can I lower my requirements?

Give me one more chance, even once!

Don't give us up on us without saying a word!

Mankind...... I've really worked hard!

It's not fair!

Unconsciously, Chen Feng clenched his fists and his eyes turned red.

Emotion told him that he couldn't just give up and admit defeat, but reason told him that it was impossible.

It's not enough, it's not enough.

This time, the humans may not even be able to completely complete the cultivation of warships, let alone find a way to crack the grid link, energy field shield, and super strong materials.

Or will it be defeated.

What to do?

But there is also a layer of reason that speaks to him.

Give up, that's a thousand years from now.

By then, his tombstone would have been yellowed and weathered, and he would have died a hundred years ago.

Even if humanity perished, what would it matter to me?

But he couldn't help but have names in his head.

Tang Tianxin, Lin Bu, Ding Hu, Ou Qinglan, Dong Shan, Ouyang Zhenghua, Sergei, Lai Wenming......

These people are firmly linked to his heart and the future, and they are inseparable.

He is no longer a pure twenty-first century man, and he will be more desperate, more frightened, more nervous and more remorseful than any of the subjects of the Oxford Professor's questionnaire.

Someone else's end is hypothetical, and his end is real.

He can't do it with his own indifference, so he will feel pain.

He always thinks that so many people, generation after generation of struggle and efforts, will eventually face the end of being completely cut off from life.

All will die, all will die, all will be ruthlessly erased from the traces of what once existed.

We've worked so hard.

But our enemy is too strong and too strong, and behind the enemy there is an unimaginably stronger force.

I...... What should I do?

I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I let everyone down.

This...... I failed to cross!

Sometimes the memory is too good to forget, and it is also a great sadness.

The so-called essence of forgetting does not need to be repeated, but the meaning of forgetting to people is not only the loss of certain memories, but also a kind of self-protection ability of human beings.

The most forgotten thing, the most unstable quantum helix structure in the human brain, is the very thing that causes suffering.

Under the subtle impact of emotional needs, these painful quantum spirals that make up memories will continue to be impacted, disintegrating at a faster rate.

However, in the process of continuous improvement of genetic arousal, Chen Feng's memory became stronger and stronger, and his talent for forgetting gradually became weaker and weaker.

He will remember the good things as well as the painful feelings.

Chen Feng can clearly perceive that with the continuous improvement of genetic arousal, in addition to the changes in physical fitness, the memory, logical analysis ability, and thinking acuity of the human brain are constantly improving, and his perception of pain and happiness is also continuously improving.

However, pain is always deeper in memory, and most people recall that when they were children, the most important thing that comes to mind is those images of sadness and anger.

Happy memories are always very short and ethereal.

As a result, as memory improves, the emotional impact of pain becomes more intense.

In the face of this increasingly strong emotional impact, human beings' need for willpower is also invisibly rising.

Willpower is a very mysterious thing.

Will tends to change with people's insights, knowledge levels, and experiences, and at the same time, it will also be based on the current worldview and the historical precipitation handed down by the entire civilization.

Chen Feng gradually understood one thing.

It's no wonder that in the 21st century, the human genetic arousal is only 25%.

This is clearly a biological instinct for self-preservation.

Humans are not worthy of such an ability when they are unable to bear the weight.

Weak populations with overly strong thinking skills in advance do not necessarily lead to a better future.

There is a greater possibility of a large-scale psychological collapse in the population, which in turn will lead to the collapse of civilization.

Assuming that there is a second "native" of the 21st century who has the same arousal and thinking ability as him at this time, let alone make something to achieve, I am afraid that the pain of super memory accumulation in his heart will make this person instantly collapse his mind and become a madman.

Chen Feng was able to hold on because he had been to the future many times before he slowly grew up, or perhaps he himself was also a little talented in the matter of endurance.

But no matter how strong the willpower is, it takes time to dispel negative emotions, and it is impossible to deceive oneself and say that I am fine, and it is really fine.

At this time, Chen Feng could no longer control his emotions, and fiercely held his head with both hands and kept rubbing his hair.

He was in an unspeakable state of loss and grief.

He took out his notebook full of "Five-Hundred Years Plan" again, and looked at the handwriting on it.

Chen Feng took a deep breath, in his mind, heaven and man were at war, constantly deducing, constantly calculating, trying to deceive himself and come to the conclusion that he wanted to deceive himself, he wanted to tell himself that as long as the "Five-Hundred Year Plan" was strictly implemented, he would definitely succeed.

But, after a long time, he threw the notebook forward with a fierce flamboyance.

Syllable!

The thick notebook hits the big screen TV in front.

Chen Feng looked up at the sky, and his hands couldn't help but tremble.

It's impossible, it's lost.

I can't lie to myself.

It's all my fault, if I had worked harder and worked harder, maybe I would have succeeded?

I haven't done enough.

I...... I am a sinner!

His eyes were sour, and his heart was full of unspeakable grief.

In his mind, he can't help but fantasize about the defeat and destruction of mankind after a thousand years.

At this moment, the bedroom door was opened, and Zhong Lei, who was wearing men's pajamas, walked in.

She didn't see Chen Feng for the time being, but lowered her head and muttered something melodious.

Then she looked up again, and saw Chen Feng, whose face was as dead as a sheep's epilepsy, and she was startled and pounced on, "What's wrong with you?" ”

Chen Feng's dead fish eyes slowly turned to Zhong Lei's face.

Looking at her concerned eyes, Chen Feng's gaze gradually regained some vitality.

He took a deep breath and said slowly in a sad tone that others couldn't understand: "Zhong Lei, I failed, I failed to cross. I didn't go there. I've lost the ability to planeswalk and change the future. I...... We're doomed. In a thousand years, humanity will cease to exist. ”

Looking at Chen Feng's rare and extremely decadent appearance, Zhong Lei was stunned for a long time.

Then she slowly sat on the edge of the bed, picked up Chen Feng's hand, and gently scratched her fingertips in his palm, "Didn't we already think about this matter thoroughly yesterday?" ”

"Huh?"

"Are you getting into the nitty-gritty? We are the ones who are left behind! In the future, you are still waiting for us to create a better present for him! How can you be sure that you have lost the ability to traverse, and not that we have been left behind? Do you have proof? Why don't you think in a good direction if you don't have evidence that can't be proven? What are you thinking? ”

Chen Feng was shocked and stunned.

The two looked at each other like this for a full five minutes.

He scratched his head awkwardly, "yes." Is it possible? ”

Zhong Lei patted his head, "It's not possible, but it must be so, we must believe this, we must tell ourselves this!" ”

"Hah...... Hahaha...... Yeah. ”

Chen Feng suddenly woke up to one thing.

It's no wonder that in the previous timeline, every time I crossed over, I would have a period of dormancy after the time crossing, I didn't show up much, I didn't deal with people, I didn't even do anything, and I seemed to be paddling and salty.

At the time, he really didn't take it seriously, and he didn't think there was a big problem.

In the past, every time he looked through the history books, the perspective spanned thousands of years, and even his "short" life in the past was often a hundred years.

In such a long time span, the window period of only one or two months is really inconspicuous.

Looking back from the perspective of historical data, even if Chen Feng himself did not show up during this period, he was still operating behind the scenes of the original plan to change the promotion, so if he didn't think about it carefully, he couldn't taste the strangeness.

Now Chen Feng understands.

In fact, this period of time is my own low period.

This kind of pain and panic is experienced every time.

I must complete the psychological construction and tell myself that there is this line of possibility, so that I can adjust and return to work.

If Zhong Lei is not by his side today, Chen Feng feels that with his own character, he will probably choose to hide, and then gradually recover, slowly come out of the tip of the horns, and choose to paralyze himself through continuous self-encouragement and spiritual suggestion, to believe in the second better possibility, so that he can fight for life along the established policy with great willpower.

This process is easy to say, but how many negative emotions are in it, how many psychological twists and turns, and how many times he struggles in the quagmire of despair, Chen Feng can only speculate and imagine, which is really difficult to describe.

He suddenly grinned, and in turn squeezed Zhong Lei's hand, "Fortunately, you have it this time." ”

Zhong Lei: "Hmm. You're welcome. ”

"It's good to have you."

After a moment of silence, Zhong Lei suddenly grinned, "But from now on, the two of us are destined to disappear, false people." ”

Chen Feng was stunned for a moment, and then laughed too, "Ha, okay, but that's not important." ”

"Yes, it doesn't matter. What matters is how much of the wealth of civilization that these two false people can leave for the future and the truth of the future. ”

"Well, cheer up and get to work."

Chen Feng chatted with Zhong Lei for a while, and after a busy breakfast together, he personally drove her to Mason Academy.

Yes, Zhong Lei lied last night.

She didn't take a leave of absence.

Chen Feng watched Zhong Lei walk into the gate of Mason Academy.

She turned around as she walked into the hallway.

The two waved their hands from a distance.

Chen Feng turned around, got into the car, and prepared to drive away.

Zhong Lei called him again.

"Actually, I came up with a new song in the morning, and I'm going to skip class today, so I'll get the lyrics and basic melody out first."

"What song?"

"Happiness to the Nth power."

"Hey, what a cheesy song title."

"Happiness is a very cheesy thing, firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce and vinegar."

Chen Feng smiled, "But I believe that this song will definitely be very special and special." ”

"Of course. By the way, I've recently learned yodeling again, so I'll let you hear it next time. ”

"Huh? Want to sing into a song? ”

"It's not."

"When will you listen?"

"Guess."

Then Zhong Lei hung up the phone.

Chen Feng scratched his head for a moment, but then smirked for a while and continued to drive forward.

Life goes on, and the future is still unknown.

Everyone has to fight on their own path.

Chen Feng prepares to go to the headquarters of the North American branch.

He thought of Ou Fat Man again.

The fat man must be busy reading the report and getting familiar with the business.

When he arrived yesterday, the fat man had already signed up for the MBA program at the University of California, Berkeley, in advance.

In fact, the fat man already has an MBA certificate, but he is ready to take it again and make up for the mistakes he made when he was messing around.

Recently, fat people have recently developed a not-so-good mantra.

"Master, I will not disappoint you, nor will I disappoint my father, my daughter-in-law, and my babies!"

Chen Feng doesn't really like the mantra of being fat.

He had a different opinion.

The fat man's words reminded him of the thirty-first century thinking cocoon in the previous timeline.

Chen Feng also reflected that there is one of the biggest problems in people's outlook on life in the last timeline.

At that time, people struggled and worked hard not for themselves, but for the recognition of others.

This is a large encompassing group of other people, including family members, relatives, friends, teachers, colleagues, anyone in the whole society, and the ancients who "knew under the spring".

Taking Metroid as an example, when most people become Metroid, they think that they can glorify their family and make the social status of the community higher.

When he returned to the capital of Shudi, he felt very deeply, and those family members and relatives at that time appreciated his various expectations, and also had honor and honor for his achievements.

At the same time, some of the younger generations of the other families are always eager to be recognized by him, but the family friendship is very weak, everyone is still busy, trying their best to do their own thing, and what they say is that they will never embarrass you as a top fighter.

Time continues to go back, since the beginning of 2500, the core belief that supports the world has become not to let the efforts of the sage Chen Feng in vain, and not to disappoint the predecessors and martyrs.

On the surface, this is a good habit and a shortcut to a strong will, but taking a shortcut will will inevitably come at a cost.

The price is that later generations artificially constructed a thinking cocoon.

Chen Feng now thinks it's all wrong.

The support of people's beliefs should not be based on the approval of others.

The essence of this outlook on life is vanity, and it is also an integral part of the core framework of the cocoon.

People's motivation for struggle should be more based on self-drive.

Belief should be self-realization of the value of life.

Endogenous power is stronger, more durable and stable than external power.