I don't even remember how I got back to the rental house, I just remember that I took out the key and opened the door in a daze, and my shoulder felt like a mountain was crushed, and my whole body fell the floor.

I don't know how long it took for me to gradually regain consciousness.

At this moment, the door was still open, and the cold wind of the night poured into the whole living room through the cracks in the window, washing my frozen heart over and over again.

I staggered to my feet, closed the door, dragged my tired body, and sat down on the couch.

There was no fragrant food, no hot water, and no one to talk to.

In addition to the biting cold wind, the only thing that can keep me company is the clock hanging on the wall.

I fumbled in my pocket, pulled the last cigarette out of the case, lit it to my mouth, and carefully sniffed the tobacco.

As the minutes ticked by, I sat on the couch and listened to the sound of the clock moving.

At this moment, I experienced loneliness like never before.

After a while, I threw the already extinguished cigarette butt into the ashtray, and after wiping my body with cool water a little, I went back to my room, and lay on the bed looking at the ceiling, in a daze.

At this moment, it was as if I was caught in an unfathomable whirlpool, sinking deeper and deeper into the muddy mire.

My mind was full of thoughts about what Shen Mumu had said to me, and the sad eyes in her eyes when she left.

I tossed and turned in bed all night and couldn't sleep at all.

In desperation, I sat on the windowsill, looked up at my head, and watched the moon hanging in the air, leaving a patch of hoarfrost on my pale face......

Early the next morning, I went to the bathroom to take a hot shower and change into clean clothes.

Then, I took out my mobile phone and dialed Si Lingyan's number.

With a brief beep, Si Lingyan quickly answered the phone.

"Yin Xing, what's wrong?"

As if he hadn't woken up yet, Si Lingyan's voice sounded a little slurred.

I paused and said firmly, "I have some things to deal with today, and I can't go to the music club to take care of the children." ”

The other end of the phone was dull for a while, and Si Lingyan's voice came faintly, "Okay." ”

After hanging up the phone, I put on a coat and went out.

I bought a pack of cigarettes at the convenience store downstairs, and I nibbled on bread and walked slowly along the road.

Soon I was at the edge of the lake, and I was lying on the railing, quietly watching the floating water.

A gentle breeze blew, and the freshness of the lake poured into my nostrils, soothing my restless thoughts.

Suddenly, I felt that the lake had a unique scenery during the day.

The capital on the other side of the lake no longer sang at night, and the dim neon lights and the noisy revelry had disappeared in an instant, as if it had never been in this world.

I couldn't help but smile wryly, the colors that survive in the darkness and haze will one day be exposed to the sky, even if there is no sun in the sky, it will always be bright.

I munched on bread, sometimes throwing some crumbs into the river and watching the fish scramble to feed.

"Isn't this Yin Xing? Here, smoke a cigarette. ”

The sudden sound suddenly sounded in my ears, my body trembled slightly, and I followed the sound, only to see a person walking towards me not far away, and took out a cigarette case, smiled and took out a cigarette and handed it to me.

After seeing his appearance clearly, my heart chuckled, I never thought that Pan Fengfeng would find me at this time.

I frowned slightly, took a few steps back, distanced myself from Pan Feng, and asked, "What are you doing here?" ”

Seeing that I didn't take the cigarette, Pan Feng directly put the cigarette in his mouth, and after lighting it, he lay on the railing and sighed: "Oh, all kinds of things always happen in this life, I just want to ask you, did you quarrel with your little girlfriend?" ”

"What does this have to do with you?" I don't have a good airway.

"Don't be so angry, I'll just ask casually, because I found that Zhou Yao's work efficiency has been a little low recently, and she is always easy to get distracted during work hours, and she refuses to say when she asks her what is the matter. No, I can only ask you. ”

From beginning to end, Pan Feng was talking to me with a hippie smiley expression, and I thought he was very bored and didn't pay attention.

Seeing that I didn't speak, Pan Feng was taken aback, he shrugged his shoulders and laughed at himself: "Alas, it's really strange, these days, whether it's boyfriend and girlfriend or not, they can live together, but unfortunately, there are always people who can't seize the opportunity and lose such a smart and capable woman in vain." ”

Every word Pan Feng said was very harsh, I looked at him fiercely, and said impatiently: "Are you finished!" ”

Hearing this, Pan Feng smiled slightly, said no more, and threw the unfinished half of the cigarette into the lake, looked at me and said contemptuously: "I'm endless." ”

As soon as the words fell, Pan Feng ran onto the road and gradually disappeared from my sight.

I bowed my head and cursed, threw the unfinished bread straight into the lake, and watched the fish swarm for food.

Then I lit a cigarette and smoked sadly.

The fish eat the bread crumbs very quickly, crushing whole loaves of bread and swallowing them into their stomachs in an instant.

"Little fish, little fish, how long has it been since you eaten, do you also have your own troubles?" I muttered.

"They don't bother you, I think you have a lot of troubles."

A familiar voice suddenly sounded in my ears, and I couldn't help but turn my head and happened to meet Si Lingyan's gaze.

"Why are you here?" I was surprised.

Si Lingyan put her hand on the railing, calmly looked at the small fish in the lake, and said softly: "Why can't I come?" ”

"Who are you here to class? What about the group of children? ”

Si Lingyan raised his head and looked at me, and said proudly: "I told them that I had something to go out, and they would study on their own." ”

My jaw was about to drop when I was surprised by Si Lingyan, "How old are they, you have the courage to throw them in the music club to study by yourself?" ”

Si Lingyan pouted and frowned, "What did you say?" What's wrong with being young, the oldest of them is even more sensible than you. Unlike you, who is still as naïve as a child at such an old age, and always wants to solve problems by fighting. ”

I was itchy by what Si Lingyan said, but I couldn't find any excuse to refute it.

After a long time, I looked at Si Lingyan and asked, "Why did you suddenly come to me?" ”