This month's reward testimonial has dragged on to this day, and I am really ashamed.

How to say it.

This autumn is indeed an eventful autumn.

People are soft-spoken, but they are just duckweeds in the sea.

Looking back at his journey, it has never been smooth sailing, but it has been a bad fate.

I'm a very simple person.

There are three goals for writing a book.

One, to provide for a family.

Second, be loyal to your hobby.

Third, the name will remain in history.

Indeed, I never dared to claim to be a genius.

After all, there are not many people who have written books for fifteen years and have achieved nothing.

In this industry, those who write about my year have either more or less held the Great God Covenant, or have already recognized themselves and changed their careers.

The taste of not being popular for fifteen years is difficult to describe in words.

Life is just a few decades, and I don't know how many fifteen years can be wasted here.

In the dead of night, I often wonder if I will regret my choice when I get old, I can't press the keyboard anymore, and I can't write a beautiful story.

I have always told people that I am very peaceful and do not envy and envy those big and purple gods.

But I seldom tell others that my so-called peace was not born this way, but that I was unable to struggle on my knees in the mud again and again, and finally slowly learned to face reality.

My reality is simple.

I'm too weak, too bad, too rubbish.

I am using the talent I don't have to force into an industry that doesn't match my talent.

After all, readers' eyes are bright, if I can really write a good book, why wait for fifteen years?

I claim to be smart, but I'm actually stupid and ridiculous.

A truly smart person should have gone to a more suitable path a long time ago.

I don't know if I'm afraid of change or if I'm not willing.

The ups and downs of these days, the author sees it in his eyes, and the readers also see it in his eyes.

In fact, I understand the demands and positions of many people, and the rights that all people want to fight for.

I thought about saying something.

But I have a sudden awakening, and I don't deserve it.

Others are worried that they won't get more generous pay if the book becomes popular.

If it had been fifteen years ago, I would have had exactly the same worries, the same indignation, when I was young and enthusiastic.

But when I look back, I can't write a book that is even coveted in the past fifteen years.

Not a year, not two years, but fifteen years.

There are really few fifteen years in a person's life.

Fifteen years later, I still haven't been able to write a book worth fighting for something.

So I thought, what am I fighting for?

A person who has not been able to write a red book for fifteen years, what is he worthy of?

It's hard enough to survive.

The current trend of "Savior" is also the best one I have ever been in this industry.

I told myself that no matter how fierce the wind and waves were outside, it was not my life after all.

What I should care about, and what I should always pay attention to, is that I must be worthy of my book and worthy of the readers who have always supported me.

So I'm trying very hard to keep my head ethereal.

I didn't think about anything, just a very simple thought.

Write your own book.

If I smash the writing, how will the outside environment develop in the future, and what can I expect?

Who will help me support my family?

Help me pay off my debts?

Am I worthy of myself, and worthy of the readers who have been with this book until now?

Also, I don't know what you think of the quality of the recent chapters of Salvator Mundi.

From my own point of view, I'm not satisfied, I've never been happy with myself.

Of course, this book will inevitably become more and more difficult later in writing, and the difficulty of creation is increasing geometrically.

It must not only be logical, the scene is constantly enlarged, but also start from the details, the characters must be vivid, the plot must be interesting and fascinating, and the so-called truths I talk about must be interesting and thoughtful for the readers.

The core of this book is actually very frustrating.

That's the biggest challenge I'm facing.

I have to, and I can only focus on this.

Otherwise, I'm sorry for anyone.

As I reach middle age, I have smoothed out the edges and corners, but I still remember what my original intention was in writing the story.

I'm still arrogant.

I still want to be a writer who can write works that will be remembered by others, rather than being said to be codeworded all the time.

A hundred years later, there are still people who read my books and are moved to tears, and laugh because of my books.

I'm still greedy.

I also want to be rich, as rich as J.K. Rowling.

At the same time, I have always believed that a writer's wealth and talent can be equal.

I can't guarantee that this book will do it.

Thank you to all the readers who subscribed, tipped, and voted for me during April 2020.

Below is the list of April tips, with the amount in parentheses.

Thank you all, you are so strong!

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