Chapter 57: It Doesn't Matter
Song Jinsi and Li Shiman were driving on the road, and the car was about to drive to Li Shiman's home.
"Shall we not go to dinner?" She had come to him after work to have dinner with him for a while, but he was going to take her home.
"Well, there's something going on in the evening. If you want to eat alone, I won't send you back first, just go to the restaurant. Song Jinsi replied to her without emotion, as if it were a conversation machine.
"Then I'd better go home!" She could see that he knew what he wanted and still rejected her so coldly and ruthlessly.
"Everyone knows about the news?" Song Jinsi asked.
“...... Well, but it doesn't matter, we all believe in you. Li Shiman pondered for a long time and hurriedly expressed his emotional position towards him.
Song Jinsi smiled, what do you believe in him? He wasn't sure if he had done something that went against his conscience. However, Li Shiman was innocent, and he couldn't bear to hurt her, so he still took the initiative to propose: "Let's end it!" ”
This sentence made Li Shiman hear the sound of the world collapsing, and she was shocked, "Don't! ”
Li Shiman looked at him firmly, and his voice was crying, "Jinsi!" I don't want to leave you, I don't want ......"
Song Jinsi looked at the traffic in front of him, he sighed, "Shiman, we made it clear from the beginning that I don't love you, it's just a cooperation, and now I don't want to continue." ”
Originally, it was just to deal with the family, and they said at the beginning that if either party didn't want to continue, they could break up at any time. Looking at Li Shiman's state now, if she continues, I'm afraid she will get hurt, which is not his intention.
"I don't want to be separated from you, Jinsi! We were still discussing marriage yesterday, so why should we mention separation today? Li Shiman's eyes were full of tears, but Song Jinsi just handed her the carton and didn't even say a word of comfort.
"Yesterday was just angry talk, I won't do that kind of irresponsible thing to you."
"I don't mind, as long as I can be with you, I don't care if you find another woman, don't you break up with me, okay?" Li Shiman cried and begged him, she couldn't break up with him, she was already in love with him, she couldn't live without him.
Song Jinsi was stunned by what she said, didn't it matter? It doesn't matter who he sleeps with! Why do they only care about what they feel in their hearts, and no one thinks about whether they mind in their hearts and whether their existence is important......
Song Jinsi sent Li Shiman downstairs to her house, "Go back and have a good rest!" I'll explain this to the elders. ”
"Hmm." Li Shiman obediently got out of the car and didn't say a word, as if what happened just now didn't happen.
Song Jinsi has nothing to say, he has already proposed to separate, whether she accepts it or not is a fact, he will not be with her again, he is still suitable for a person like him, if he is really indifferent and ruthless to marry her and can't give her happiness, he will feel guilty and blame, he doesn't want to bear this guilt for a lifetime.
Sure enough, as soon as Song Jinsi arrived at Lanyuan, there were people waiting for him at home.
Song Jinsi changed his shoes, poured a glass of water to drink, and then walked to the old man who was already sitting on the sofa and looked at him sternly, and there were two bodyguards standing next to him.
"Is that all you have?" The old man scolded.
He sat here and Song Jinsi didn't even say hello for a long time when he came back, and his casual attitude made him extremely dissatisfied.
"If you don't like it, you don't have to come." Song Jinsi put the cup on the coffee table, then picked up the magazine and leaned on the sofa to read.
"If you hadn't caused trouble, I wouldn't have come here!"
"What's wrong with me?"
"You're going to get married to Shiman and go out to fool around, even if you fool around, you still let others photograph it, if it weren't for the Song family, I'm afraid your scandal would be known to everyone!" The old man has been extremely face-saving all his life, and when this happens, he feels that this grandson has lost face with him.
"If you don't deal with it, I can fix it myself." Song Jinsi didn't care about the old man's anger.
The old man angrily rebuked: "How did you become so virtuous! You're deliberately trying to go against me, aren't you? ”
Song Jinsi sneered, "How dare I? Didn't you control my life to the death! ”
"You! You ......" The old man was so angry that his chest rose and fell sharply.
Seeing him like this, Song Jinsi finally restrained his attitude a little, and said slowly, "I can live my life well, can't you worry less?" ”
"What can you do without the Song Clan?!" The old man looked at Song Jinsi and asked rhetorically.
In the eyes of the old man, there is the unshakable majesty of those who have been in a high position for a long time, and the indifference and oppression that must make you surrender and bow your head, "I have already discussed your marriage with Shiman, and you will be engaged on the first of next month!" ”
"Heh......" Song Jinsi couldn't help laughing at himself in his heart, they were all the same arrogant and arrogant, everyone was inferior to them, no matter how much they did, they might be the perfect top representative in the eyes of others, but in their eyes, they would always be small and weak. What else is he delusional?
"No matter how dissatisfied you are, it's a foregone conclusion." The old man got up and prepared to leave with his cane.
Song Jinsi threw the magazine on the coffee table, his eyes as calm as the deep sea, "What if I don't accept your arrangement?" ”
"Don't accept that you know what you're going to lose!" After the old man finished speaking, the two bodyguards escorted him away.
What to lose? Hehe......
Losing everything he had since he was a child, losing his company, his research center, his fame, his fortune...... Acceptably, what he will lose is his only free heart......
Fame, fortune and wealth didn't matter to him, but he didn't want the company he had worked so hard to create just like that...... The various considerations and pressures in his heart made him feel like he had a splitting headache.
Zhu paid special attention to the time when Zhu Slow went to work, and Song Jinsi didn't seem to be at work today.
Did you go on a business trip? Or is it because of yesterday's incident? Do you want to tell him that he didn't actually have anything to do with that woman that night?
"Hey......"
"Zhu Zhu, what's wrong with you?" Daisy heard Zhu sigh slowly and looked up to ask.
"How long are we going to stay here?" Zhu wanted to go back to Poland, so that she could escape all problems.
"I don't know, I guess it's going to be done by the end of the year!" Because the R&D results came out, they had no reason to stay.
"I hope so!" In this way, it will take a month, it is not long to say, it is not short to say short, let's boil it slowly, and the cold winter will always pass.
"I don't want to go back so soon." Daisy said.
"Well, of course you don't want to have a boyfriend."
"Yes! I don't know what to do when I go back to Poland! Daisy was a little sad, and long-distance relationships were a big problem.
"Let it be! Wouldn't it be shorter to worry about your happiness so early? Zhu slowly enlightened Daisy, she understands this kind of thinking, it is indeed very torturous.
Daisy thought for a moment, and quickly thought about it, "Also, that's what you mean when you say it's fun, right?" ”
"Yes, yes!" Zhu smiled slowly, with appreciation in her eyes, she liked Daisy's cheerful and optimistic very much, and felt that this was the most beautiful look of life.
Song Jinsi came to City A.
He made an appointment with Qiao Shuyi, and then they had a follow-up visit in the hospital.
Song Jinsi sat opposite Qiao Shuyi, who held the inspection report that had just come out.
"Your brain tissue is not diseased, and the nerves that were pressed before are gradually repairing, do your frequent headaches remember the memory you lost?" After thinking about it carefully, Qiao Shuyi asked the most likely question.
"No... Didn't think of anything, but...... There is one person who has a great influence on me......" Song Jinsi hesitated for a moment and said it anyway.
"It's... Is Zhu slow? ”
"Hmm." Song Jinsi replied lightly.
Qiao Shuyi knew that this was the reason, Song Jinsi's headache may be the loss of memory habits in his subconscious, and the refutation with his current cognition caused his feelings to be more chaotic and frequent headaches.
"Do you know what the reason is?" Song Jinsi looked at Qiao Shuyi with a solemn expression, not knowing if he was seriously ill.
"The reason... Maybe your nerves are repairing so you don't have to worry. Qiao Shuyi knew the real reason, but he still answered his question according to medical standards.
"Will the memory I lost regain when I'm fully recovered?" Song Jinsi asked.
Qiao Shuyi didn't expect him to ask like this, because he had never asked what was in that memory before, and he thought that Song Jinsi didn't care.
"This is not guaranteed."
"Hmm." Song Jinsi became careless again.
"How are you doing?" Qiao Shuyi was a little worried about Song Jinsi's current state, he heard Lin Ruichen talk about his situation, he was actually not doing well and became unhappy.
"Well, it's the same!" Song Jinsi smiled lightly, but the smile did not reach the bottom of his eyes.
"Okay, I'm leaving, you're busy!" Song Jinsi got up, and he had to go to Huaen headquarters today to see the company's situation, and the time was full.
When he turned around, Qiao Shuyi suddenly stopped him: "Aren't you curious why it's Zhu Slow?" ”
Why can she affect him so deeply, and why does he get a headache when he thinks about her? Qiao Shuyi suddenly softened his heart after feeling the changes in Song Jinsi, as long as Song Jinsi asked, he would definitely tell him as it was.
But he heard Song Jinsi say softly, "It's not important, I'm going to get engaged next month." ”
So it doesn't matter why you care about Zhu Slow, knowing it will only make him more troubled.
"What?" Qiao Shuyi was surprised, could it be that what Lin Ruichen said was true?
"The invitation card should be delivered to you in a few days, if you have time, come here" Song Jinsi's voice was very cold, without a trace of waves, as if he didn't care about this kind of life event......
Qiao Shuyi looked at the closed door, the shock in his heart mixed with worry turned into a faint sorrow lingering in his heart, faintly painful for his friend.
Every insider didn't mean to cover up Song Jinsi's buried memory, as long as he asked, everyone would tell him, it was because of this that everyone would hide without guilt that he didn't know how precious what he lost, and if he knew how important Zhu Slow was to him, would he still be reluctant to think of her?
Did they really do nothing wrong? Make a look at a person with amnesia that his lost memories don't matter, and induce him to not even want to remember the people he loves......