"No children......"

Although it was only half a sentence that was not finished, Xu still heard a deep disappointment from these three words, so even if Gu Yuyin smiled and covered it up and comforted her in every way, she was still sullen.

It's not that she hasn't had a child, it's just that the child came at an inopportune time. She remembered that night, after a stomachache for half a night, she finally began to bleed, and the bright red blood soaked half of the quilt and took the child in her womb with her.

After waking up from the coma, she saw Yu Yin holding her hand, she remembered that it was the first time she saw Yu Yin crying, he said, "Lady, I owe you, I will definitely try my best to make up for you in the future, and we will definitely have another child in the future." ”

He did the first sentence, married to him for nearly twenty years, Yuyin has always been considerate to her in every way, and there is not a word of bickering between the two, but they can respect each other like Bin, Qin Se and Ming. But the second sentence seems to have become a promise that can never be kept.

For so many years, she has not been able to get pregnant, Lang Zhong also invited, took medicine, and the husband and wife did not know how many temples they went to, but God just didn't want to hang the curtain and give them a child. This time, she felt that she had been heavy and had a weak appetite for two months in a row, so she asked Lang Zhong in the village to take a look, and she didn't have any hope, but she didn't think that Lang Zhong told her that she had a child after taking the pulse.

The husband and wife couldn't help but be overjoyed, but when Lang Zhong came to see Yu Yin today, he took her pulse by the way, and didn't expect to tell her a thunderbolt from the blue: she was not pregnant, or even if she was pregnant, the child was not kept for various unknown reasons.

What people are most afraid of is not despair, but just having a little hope, and being pinched away by the roots. After so many years, Xu has been tormented by this constant cycle of disappointment, and she thought she could get used to it, but found that this feeling could never be used to.

Especially this time.

Therefore, when she heard Gu Yuyin say those three words, she almost collapsed, and after barely saying a few words to him, she hurried out of the room and came to the outside of the courtyard to wipe her tears.

"I don't want children to be born one after another, but I don't want them, have I created any evil?" She stood in the shade of the tree and sobbed, complaining about the injustice of fate to herself, crying and crying, and even clenched her fists and beat her lower abdomen a few times to vent the sullenness in her heart.

"Lady, are you alright?"

A man's voice sounded behind him, and Xu Shi turned around and saw that the person who came was Zhao Zimai, who had come in the morning. Only this time, there was a short and sturdy young man beside him, who seemed to be his follower.

"Thank you, my lord, the women are fine, I don't know what the adults are doing here?" Xu has always been a little wary of these officials, and when he saw Zhao Zimai, he quickly wiped away his tears and stood respectfully.

Zhao Zimai saw the tears on her face, but it was inconvenient to ask more, so she only said, "I don't know if Gu Li is awake, I have something I want to ask him." ”

"He just woke up, and he was in the house."

After Xu finished answering 1510, she followed the two of them towards the courtyard, but as soon as she stepped into the threshold, she stopped her steps and turned around to look behind.

Outside the yard is the ancient plank road paved with pebbles, the plank road goes down along the Yuhe Suo River, the total length is more than ten miles, the pebbles on it have been trampled by pedestrians, it has been polished to oily and slippery, it is just exposed from the sun shining in the mist, and it is full of colorful halos, it is very beautiful.

Xu narrowed his eyes slightly: there was no figure on the plank road in front of her, but Fang Cai, the moment she stepped into the courtyard gate, she clearly heard something, very clearly, it was not far away, she would never hear it wrong.

"Wow......."

Again, floating down coldly from overhead, like the screams of a night cat, but more like a baby's cry, slicing against her scalp, and seemed to touch a few strands of her hair.

Xu Shi couldn't calm down anymore, her body shook like an electric shock, turned her head and walked out. The moment she turned around, she seemed to hear Gu Yuyin's voice, he should be letting herself watch the tea, but she didn't pay attention to it, but walked towards the plank road more firmly.

The tall ancient banyan tree was intertwined with twins and leafy branches, as if weaving a large green net overhead, and only the sporadic sunlight could penetrate through the huge net and fall on Xu's face, like a beating spot, making her face look extremely strange.

A passing villager saw her and said hello, but received no response from her. Later, he recalled that something was wrong with Xu that day, although she was walking forward, her two eyes were blunt, there was no brilliance in them, and the eyeballs were like two pieces of wood.

Moreover, after walking a few steps, he seemed to hear Xu say something to himself, as if he was some kind of 'child' or something. But he didn't think much about it at the time, and left alone. In this village, there are many people who are crazy for their children and die for their children, and it is not a big deal to have one more Xu family. So he went home, and he didn't even think to inform Gu Yuyin, leaving the Xu family alone on the beautiful and long plank road, and let her go farther and farther.

When the moon rose from the other side of the river, Xu finally came to the edge of the Jade River, the river was clear, like a mirror, reflecting both her and the moon in it. She leaned down and stared intently at her own mirror image, but her thoughts drifted somewhere else.

The voice was always there, like a kite, far and near, circling the tip of her heart, but never leaving. She thought it was so small, like a kitten, so small that it had to be sheltered by her in order to survive.

"Don't leave me, I'll protect you."

At the same time as she said this, she suddenly felt a little dazed, because the moment her eyes focused on the water, she found that the "self" below was holding a swaddling cloth with white flowers on a blue background, which was the small cotton quilt she had made for her soon-to-be-born child when she had nothing to do in the past month.

"Kid." Xu Shi muttered, reached out to touch the swaddling clothes, and the moment her fingers touched the river, she was excited: This water is so cold, the cold is biting, so cold that it seems to be able to freeze overnight.

But it's not yet the season when the river freezes, right?

The chill stung her fingertips, and her mind cleared a little: how did she get here? On the banks of this big river, people from the village used to come often, but later the government sent people to guard it, so few people came here to take risks.

For a time she even avoided coming to the river, for the water was so permeable that it smelled of rot in it, and every time she smelled it, her chest was uncomfortable for a long time.

But why did she come here alone?