"Life and death are not simple, I don't know, I only know that those who survive will experience a long time of pain, no one comes out of the stone, relatives and friends die, they will all go through, you think you are in pain, is it too hypocritical."

Xia Xincheng's tone became stern, and she could see that Du Ruonan had fallen into an extreme mood.

"Am I being too hypocritical? What do you know! ”

Xia Xincheng snatched her guitar and carried it on her back, and pulled her out: "Since you are not afraid of death, you don't care about delaying for a while." ”

Du Ruonan just followed her without speaking, Xia Xincheng bought cigarettes and alcohol, and took her to the riverside park.

found a quiet place, she held the guitar and looked at her: "There is wine and smoke, the story is said casually, if you can't think about it, go straight down, life and death are convenient." ”

Du Ruonan looked at the river not far away, smiled bitterly, opened a can of beer and drank it all, then lit a cigarette and smoked.

"Do you have someone you like?"

"Yes."

Du Ruonan turned his head to look at her, a little surprised: "Artists can also fall in love?" ”

"I'm acting, not a monk."

Du Ruonan took another puff of cigarette and raised his head to spit out white smoke: "My mother was sick, when I was taking care of her, my boyfriend brought me food, and I was in a car accident on the way, he was an orphan and didn't have much money, and my money was not enough to save the two of them." ”

Then there was a period of silence, and Xia Xincheng didn't speak, just quietly accompanied her.

After smoking a cigarette, she put the cigarette butt into the can and lit another one: "The story after that is very old-fashioned, I have only one thing in life, borrow money, at that time I was really willing to do anything, as long as I was willing to give money, if I didn't want to keep my body to take care of them, I really planned to sell my liver and kidneys."

Later, the doctor said that my boyfriend was already in a vegetative state, and even if he really woke up, he could not be a normal person, and my mother's illness would be very hopeful if she could get imported medicine. ”

Du Ruonan took a deep breath and looked at Xia Xincheng: "If it's you, how do you choose?" ”

Xia Xincheng shook his head: "There is no choice." ”

Du Ruonan laughed, Xia Xincheng could hear that it was full of bitterness: "My mother is fifty-five years old, my boyfriend is twenty-five years old, they have both given me the most unforgettable memories, if I can exchange, I would rather divide my own life equally among them."

The doctor said that from a medical point of view, I should choose to save my mother, I love my mother, of course I want to save her, but it was in exchange for my boyfriend's life, I really can't help it. ”

"How much money is needed, I'll lend you."

Xia Xincheng opened her mouth, but she didn't expect Du Ruonan to be unhappy, she just shook her head.

"I pulled out the oxygen tube."

After Xia Xincheng heard this, he suddenly felt a pain in his heart, what a painful decision this was.

"One year, I thought that taking care of him for a year, I would be bored, desperate, and determined to give up, but the moment I pulled it off, I knew that I was reluctant."

The cigarette in Du Ruonan's hand had been blown out by the wind, and she lit it again and smoked a few times.

"Auntie, are you okay now?"

Xia Xincheng asked.

If Du Ruonan's mother recovered, she wouldn't want to die at all, after all, this family affection was bought by her giving up love.

"It's not good, even imported medicine is useless, I don't know what the meaning of such a life is, I can't face my mother in front of me."

"What is Auntie's disease?"

"Malignant lymphoma."

Xia Xincheng stretched out his hand and patted her shoulder: "I'm not an immortal, I can't come back to life, but if I do my best, I can face the future life, if medicine really can't solve it, then accept it." ”

"What if you don't accept it?"

"My family also died, and there was a car accident, and I didn't even have time to see him for the last time."

Xia Xincheng told her story, Du Ruonan was a little surprised, she looked at Xia Xincheng: "I don't know ...... you"

"So everyone is the same in the face of life and death, but I think they will be happy for me if they know that I am doing well, and they want me to meet a new family more than they are sad for them."

"Really?"

"I believe so."

Xia Xincheng pulled Du Ruonan up: "Take me to see Auntie." ”

Du Ruonan stood still and didn't move: "I don't want to borrow money, my mother is my responsibility, if I die and the money can't be paid, others will be implicated by me." ”

"Okay, I won't borrow money, I'll go see Auntie, she should also want you to have your own friends."

Du Ruonan bit her lip and finally nodded.

Her family suffered an accident and borrowed money from everyone, and now although she has repaid it, no one has anything to do with her anymore, and they all feel that it is a bottomless pit.

Xia Xincheng bought a bunch of sunflowers and went to the hospital, and Zhang Li was already asleep at this time.

She put down the bouquet and whispered, "Auntie, I'm Xia Xincheng." ”

Zhang Li woke up slightly and looked at Xia Xincheng and Du Ruonan: "Nan Nan ......"

"Mom, this is my friend, Xia Xincheng."

Zhang Li stretched out her hand, Xia Xincheng held her and said with a smile: "I was very busy before, I came to see my aunt today, are you hungry, do you want to eat something?" ”

Zhang Li was thin and weak, and she could see that she was very reluctant.

Maybe it's a friend who rarely sees Du Ruonan, Zhang Li kept looking at Xia Xincheng and didn't let go of her hand.

"Mom, are you hungry? I'll give you hot soup to drink. ”

Du Ruonan went to get busy, and Zhang Li pulled Xia Xincheng: "You are Nan Nan's friend, if you have fruit, you can also eat some." ”

Mothers all over the world are the same, no matter what kind of physical condition they have, their hearts to care for their children and younger generations will never change.

Xia Xincheng waved his hand: "Thank you, Auntie, I don't eat it now, Senior Sister Du Ruonan is very capable, I actually want to ask her for help." ”

"Help? Nan Nan, how can she help? ”

"In terms of management, Senior Sister Du is very capable, and many companies want her to go to work."

Zhang Li was very happy when she heard it: "Nan Nan takes care of me, the company wants to ask for leave." ”

"Everyone has difficulties, it's understandable, Auntie, you have to get better as soon as possible, senior sister has the energy to work, maybe she will be promoted to supervisor."

Xia Xincheng comforted Zhang Li, what she was most concerned about was her daughter, she knew her physical condition, she couldn't help Du Ruonan, and she didn't want to be a burden to her.

When Du Ruonan came over with the soup, she saw Zhang Li smiling and chatting with Xia Xincheng, she hadn't seen her mother smile for a long time.

"Mom, drink some soup."

Zhang Li only drank a few sips, and at this time, Xia Xincheng's mobile phone rang, it was Sheng Jintian calling.

She got up and walked out of the room.

"Why haven't you come home yet?"

"My friend's mother is sick, I'm coming to visit, you're done with the operation?"

"Well, which hospital are you in?"

"People's Hospital."

"I'll let Luo Zhong pick you up."

"No, there's still a subway, you're on duty tonight?"

"Call me when you get on the subway."

"Got it."