Sometimes, a lot of things are not decided by yourself. But that's okay too.

After all, life is in your own hands, and not all people will be willing to be arranged by such fate.

"What happened after that?"

Ling Yi'an saw that the evil spirit said well, and he began to be silent...... He knew that this matter must not be simple until now.

It's just the reason for this...... There are many things that he can't decide on his own...... Even if I can really go back to the time I was with my parents, or even the time when my mother was still alive...... It seems that it can't be changed either......

This kind of life, no matter who you put it on, is not a good thing. After all, this kind of thing is too ethereal...... For many people, there is no way to accept it.

"After that...... It's a nightmare for your mother. ”

Nightmare......

When Ling Yi'an heard this, he couldn't help but clench his fists, and his mind was full of chaotic thoughts...... He didn't know why, he became so angry, and he didn't know why, he became so restless.

This is not the life he should have. As he thought, he couldn't help but slam his hand on the plank behind him. If it weren't for his adoptive mother...... His birth mother probably wouldn't have died. Isn't that what the evil spirit means by nightmares?

If his adoptive mother is good to his biological mother, then why, the evil spirit will say that the mother's life after entering the palace is simply a nightmare?

"At that time, your mother, after receiving grace day by day, became pregnant soon after, and Concubine Rong, who is your adoptive mother, became pregnant almost at the same time. ”

Almost at the same time......

Pregnant......

That is to say, if it weren't for herself, maybe her mother wouldn't have caused the killing?

In short, all of this is too elusive, if it weren't for this, in this treacherous harem, there wouldn't be so many difficult places for me to live.

"And then, the woman brutally killed my mother in order to keep the dragon in her belly, didn't she?"

Ling Yi'an said, the more he thought about it, the more angry he became, and then he accidentally poked a hole in the window of the boat...... Fortunately, I was not under the boat, but somewhere else...... Otherwise, maybe because of my own carelessness, the whole ship will be overturned......

After all, the boat it floats on the water. Once the hull is in the water, it can easily sink...... This is not my own speculation, but my own personal experience during so many years of fighting in the north and south.

I think back then, as a coach, he had to charge for his people and his soldiers at all times. At all times, you must ensure that you are sane and sober, and no matter what happens, you must not be in a hurry or be confused.

However, at that time, the situation was critical, and when I was running, I was accidentally pulled by someone, and when I turned over, I fell into the lake.

How deep the lake was, Ling Yi'an didn't know, he only knew that he was too nervous at that time, and he lost his mind for a while, no matter what kind of situation he was in, what kind of person he met, he felt that he had no way to get up from that lake.

Later, his own detachment worked very hard to pull his body out of the lake, although his life was temporarily unhindered, but from that time on, he has been very afraid of water, until many years after that, he was sure that he could overcome his inner fear, to face the underwater world again.

If it weren't for this, maybe he wouldn't have been shackled by such a thing at all...... If it weren't for this incident, he wouldn't have wasted so many years at all...... Who is to blame for such a thing in the end...... It's still to blame, the father who sent himself out to do such a hard task......

After all, my father still doesn't care about himself......

If he was interested in himself, he would not have sent his own son to such a dangerous situation at all, thinking that back then, at that time, when his father appointed himself to go out for this matter, I don't know how many people were saying, congratulations to himself, he was reused by the emperor...... But behind the scenes, they were secretly talking, saying that only the prince who was not valued by the emperor would be sent to such a far place, and the emperor was not distressed.

Speaking of which, I didn't think about it so much at the time. He thought that his father and mother treated him not badly on weekdays, and his brother treated him better...... If he could, he would rather go to such occasions a few more times, just so that his father and mother could value himself as much as he valued his royal brother.

But this ...... Is it just my own imagination......

At that time, I was too stupid...... No matter what kind of life it is, he is willing to accept it...... So much so, for such a long time, he never thought that he would be, someone else's plaything, a chess piece, an object that he could get rid of if he wanted to.

I lived by myself, but I really failed to the extreme.

It wasn't until so many years that he reacted, but this reaction came too late, and he was late, and he hated himself and felt that he was too stupid...... It's just like this, really stupidly helping others do so many things, without knowing their own situation. let yourself end up in such a fate......

What a sad and sad person......

I don't know, will my children and grandchildren, when they talk about themselves, talk about their own experience, or ...... I would really waste my entire life in this place...... Then, there was no chance to go back to see Chu Ning?

Bah, babaa......a How did you think of so much from one ship...... even thought of Chu Ning...... It's really, it's really time to change it...... If he can't change it, maybe he will have to live in such sadness and guilt forever.

Is that what he wants? Of course not.

In this life, he has lived so many unfair days, even in the current situation, he can't just give up on himself.

If you never knew about these things, that's fine......

However, since he has this opportunity and already knows these things, he naturally has no way to be a person who stands by and watches. After all, this involves his own life, and even Chu Ning's life, Qingwan's life, and Yunyou's life.

He must not allow himself to die in such a place......

"It's not ...... what you think"

Just when he was starting to achieve his ambition, the evil spirit's sudden words broke the peace in his heart.

What does this mean......

Could it be that your own ideas are all wrong?

Ling Yi'an thought, and then felt a little nervous.

What's going on...... In this case, do you think too badly of your adoptive mother, or do you think too well of your biological mother?

He felt that there was no way to accept all this...... He was running out of ideas. Why does everything have to be so complicated...... Let him have a small body, and he is really about to be unbearable......

However, no matter how big the blow is, he must learn to accept and overcome it, because after all, there is no one by his side who can really accompany him.

Perhaps, only in this way can I complete this hard-won transformation......

Many times, he felt like a joke...... A prop that will be looked down upon by others and will be at the mercy of others......

This is not the life he wants...... If one day he could, he would rather be able to live in his own world without being entangled by these mundane things......

Life, fate, sometimes it is so difficult to choose, but at this time, it is often not possible to think rationally, after all, there are many things, many things, are on the verge of collapse, and you have to make a choice.

It's like when I knew about this just now, I couldn't help but feel a lot of resentment in my heart...... This resentment, once ignited, will be an unmanageable situation.

In any case, though, he is not a qualified son. For so many years, no matter when, he didn't do what a son should do, but instead faced his mother-killing enemy...... I kept calling her mother...... has been non-stop, listening to her words, and doing filial piety by her side......

It's ridiculous, it's ridiculous...... It's ridiculous......

It's just that now, apart from being able to deal with these things well, he has no other way to save this bad situation......

Life is like this, and things are impermanent......

Is there anything else to struggle with?

"Not what you think...... Back then, because too many people stumbled on your mother, your mother became very cautious, and it can almost be said that she became very nervous for you, no matter who it was, as long as someone wanted to touch her stomach, she would not hesitate to go to the emperor and cry immediately...... Tell him that someone is going to murder the emperor's heir......"

What the?

And such a thing?

Is your mother such a person......

Ling Yi'an thought about it, and couldn't help swallowing his saliva, his face didn't look very good, and he could even be said to be a little nervous.

Yes, in the face of such a situation, who can guarantee not to be nervous? After all, this fact seems to be too different from his thoughts, doesn't it?