It's late at night, and on the evening of the eighth day of being here, I'm writing in my diary.

Just the day before yesterday, I was still lamenting my future, and then, because of this, I said goodbye to the past in my heart.

Now it seems that my behavior is really extremely naïve and naïve! Yes, very naïve, very naïve!

How could something so good happen, I knew there would be trouble, well, I didn't actually see what was wrong, it seems that I guess this and that, there is no basis.

Of course, none of this matters to me or to me now, and every time I think about it, I am always able to self-deny some of the behaviors and perceptions that I have defined, and I don't know if this is a good or a bad thing.

In short, people are all going to move forward!

Well, that's really my motto, and to be exact, my motto to be able to move forward with optimism and positivity in the more than 20 years that I've not been here.

Now, yes, it's pretty good.

I don't want to change, it's not that I don't want to move forward, I don't want to change just the normal intellectual education and moral beliefs I received in that world!

Because, the day before yesterday, my act of throwing everything away and cutting off all rebirth was now rejected by me! I don't think I can be like that, even though I know that I will be able to survive better or be better mixed in this world.

After all, the premise of integrating into an unfamiliar environment is to melt yourself first! Maybe the change will be very fast, for example, like the decision I made the day before yesterday, maybe it will be slow, for example, I have now overturned the idea of the day before yesterday.

Maybe I'm a fickle person, I don't have a stable and long-term idea, and I can't stick to the decisions I make every time, or maybe in other words, I'm not confident enough.

However, this is me, for example, the dwarf asked me to apologize today, it was nothing more than a sorry thing that could be done, but I didn't do that, so that later I realized that it was not good, and when the dwarf finished repairing the train, I was about to open my mouth to apologize, but I couldn't say anything.

Moreover, even the dwarf bowed and kept muttering to the Li Zhen Committee, I am not good, please forgive me and other apologies.

I felt very uncomfortable, embarrassed, inexplicably guilty, and I didn't know where it came from, and I felt that I wasn't a virgin, and I wouldn't have accumulated in my heart because of an apology.

Now that I think about it, my inexplicable guilt is, for me... Mom and Dad!

For more than 20 years, I have never given anything back to my parents, so it is really difficult for me to be able to let go of this crossing in my heart!

How can you let me go? I don't want to be there, I'm thinking about anything. There is no point in thinking too much, the reality has already happened, and there is no going back.

But this is not what I am doing today that can be properly understood in my heart!

Alas...... Now the more I write, the more annoying I feel...... The pain in my head grew more and more.

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I put down my pen and didn't write a diary because of a headache, and I lay in bed and wanted to sleep by myself.

But, helplessly, I couldn't sleep.

After tossing and turning, I got up again and continued to write in my diary.

At the very least, you should also write out the knot in your heart now, not to be able to figure it out because of this, but to just think that you can write it well today to make yourself feel at ease, to be able to sleep peacefully, and not to wake up from your sleep in the middle of the night.

Yes, I have never slept a peaceful sleep in the past few days, except for yesterday, because I was too tired, mentally tired and could no longer bear the heavy sleep, I have not slept well these days.

It's a bad night's sleep, and sometimes, when I dream about it, I even feel like I'm still working in a daze, and I feel as if I'm back in the small room where my family used to live, and I feel like my parents are still around.

However, when I realized that something was wrong, I suddenly woke up, but there was nothing but a dream.

Then, I couldn't get sleepy, until my body couldn't bear it, and then I fell asleep again, and then, I woke up from my sleep again and again, so usual, it has been eight days since I first arrived.........

Forget it, none of this matters, writing this, my thoughts are not as impatient and panicked as before, and I feel a pang in my heart, I don't know if I have persecution paranoia, I don't know if my current situation is right, after all, I am not a doctor, a psychiatrist.

Anyway, it doesn't matter what I write, I just write a diary, I just write it, and I don't have to go to the previous elementary school and give it to the teacher as a homework.

In other words, the former teacher seems to be surnamed Wang, and he is still a very domineering one........................

Okay, okay, now the table there shows that it's two o'clock in the morning, and of course, it's the time here.

The division of time here is almost the same as the time of the earth, and there is no difference even between this watch and the clock.

But as for why the watch I saw was almost indistinguishable from what I had seen before, I don't care.

No matter how much time this world is different from Earth, it tells me one thing, it's time for me to sleep.

Okay, I've written this diary almost before I know it, and it's more than ten pages, so I'll conclude by summarizing today's diary.

No matter what the future holds, no matter what the world is like, no matter what other people think about them, no matter what kind of outcome they will have in the future.

Maybe I will give up my personality in the future because of something, change my bottom line because of something, etc.

I hope, no, no, no! yes!

We must never forget our own past! Forget everything we once had, forget our roots! Forget ourselves, is not the same as being reborn!!

I wrote this not because of anything else, but because I can't forget it! I can't forget everything I had, I can't leave behind my parents, I can't leave behind everything I have in that world, whether it's good or bad!

It's not like I'm in the wrong head, or crazy, or indecisive, or MDZZ or something.

Just because, I'm a normal person, not a crazy person!!

Well, I won't write it here, I'm sleepy, and even if I write here, I'm already burning blood in my heart, so I won't write it.

Because, I'm so sleepy, I hope I have a good dream today.

—————— Li Qi, this diary was written late at night on the eighth day.