"Why can't you do it?" Imperfection asked calmly.

Jia Gu Heng didn't answer, but he didn't know how to answer.

He was grasped by these questions of life and death in the palm of his hand, and he had no second choice but to seek and think.

"Hong told me that you left Jinling two months ago, but you delayed all the way, so you had to follow the bookseller's team to the west...... Is that so? ”

"Yes."

"Why?"

"Although these people don't know me, in the three years in the mustard seed garden, I can be regarded as getting along with them day and night, I think since they are also coming to Luoyang, I might as well give them one last ride."

"But you killed them outside Luoyang."

Jia Gu Heng nodded.

"Why is that?"

Jia Gu Heng was silent for a moment.

He quietly looked at the incense on the table not far away, the burned incense ash was still attached to the incense pillar in the same posture as before, and a dark red line slowly burned in the middle and slowly moved down.

Jia Gu Heng's gaze followed the bright and extinguishing burning line, thinking about the thoughts that had been in his heart little by little.

“…… Because, I don't understand. He whispered.

"I don't understand what."

"I originally thought that the journey they would make to transport the engravings would also be full of dangers, and there would be mountain bandits and demons...... But no. Jiagu Heng frowned and said, "The monsters of Middle-earth have long known to avoid places frequented by people, and there are post stations and patrols along the official road...... Even if you encounter any trouble, it can be solved quickly.

"From Jinling to Luoyang, it takes more than two months to walk slowly like them, and when they arrive in Luoyang, they rest for half a month, and then turn back to Jinling, which is more than two months - this round trip, half a year has passed.

"What have they done in the past six months - to carry a shipment of goods that no one has robbed at all, to go from one place to another, and then turn back the same way."

Jia Gu Heng looked up at the zenith.

"I thought about it for a long time, and suddenly I felt that these people were pitiful. Although they are human beings, they live like donkeys and mules and horses - but they live like donkeys and mules and horses, but they do not know it...... Thinking like this, thinking about it, the face of these people in my heart becomes more and more hateful day by day.

"Last night, I sat in a tree and listened to them chatting in front of the campfire. They discussed how to have fun when they got to Luoyang, and that's when I got to kill - I didn't quite understand why, but I did. ”

"That's it?"

"That's all." Jia Gu Heng nodded.

The flawed gaze fell into a slight contemplation.

"Did I cause any trouble for my husband?" Jia Gu Heng asked.

Ying Ying shook his head, and he sighed lightly, "When you used to ask me about my name, I never talked to you about it, do you remember?" ”

"Yes." Jia Gu Heng laughed a little embarrassedly, "At that time, I always bothered you with these trivial things—"

"It's not because of trouble...... The reason why I couldn't explain it at the time was exactly the reason why I couldn't explain it. "But now it seems that I can only talk to you about it." ”

Jia Gu Heng showed a confused expression.

Blemished said softly, "I like to get to the bottom of my temperament, it's okay to put it on people, but it's a poison when it comes to monsters, especially big demons like you."

"People live for a lifetime, but only for decades. What's more, in order to keep out the cold and eat their stomachs, they have to work all day long, and they can divide even less. It's not like you, once you think of a problem, you have to get into it.

"People have a short lifespan, and if they can accomplish one thing in their lifetime, they can become their support—from musicians, craftsmen, celebrities, healers, monks, emperors, scribes, and officials...... This is true of all of them. If you have a skill to accompany you, and then find three or five best friends, you will never be lonely in your worldly life.

"What about you? You don't like to live in groups, and if you live for so long, what kind of thing can become your basis for survival? ”

Jia Gu Heng was stunned for a moment.

These questions ...... He had never thought about it before.

"Some people don't think about these questions for the rest of their lives, but there are so many boring things in the world, and it takes some time here, and some time there, and the days will pass;

"Some people can't figure it out after thinking about it all their lives, although it is painful, although it is tortured, but once the period of death is over, the pain will come to an end.

"But what are you going to do?" Bleed Ying looked at him, "If 'death' never comes to you, are you going to look for death?" ”

"I ......"

Jia Gu Heng frowned a little painfully.

He did have some vague instincts before, but he had never been able to speak as completely as Flawed Ying.

- That's right, he did always look for death.

He can realize that "death" is both a liberation and a curse for "people", but he can never see what kind of relationship "death" has to himself.

He followed the example of a human being, and inserted a sword, spear, and halberd into his body, which did cause him a sharp pain, but it could not kill him.

The only thing that could make him feel like he was dying was the pain that he felt every time he sank into philosophical thought—but when the pain was unbearable, he would faint and his thoughts would naturally stop.

So how can he really experience the feeling of death, he doesn't understand, so every time before killing, he has to ask the other party "Are you afraid of death?"

He hoped that someone would be able to experience some new knowledge at that moment when his life was hanging by a thread—and that might also be able to relieve his own suffering.

So far, however, no one has been able to give him a satisfactory answer.

"I didn't tell you this earlier, because I was afraid that saying these things would only make your troubles even more - but now it seems that I can't stop talking about it. ”

"I can't find death, and death doesn't come to me, Mr. Flaw, what should I do—"

"Please put life and death aside for a while." Blemish Ying's eyes burned like a torch, "I really can't figure out what I want to live for, so let's live for me - I need your help." ”

Looking at the young man in front of him, Jia Gu Heng was once again briefly speechless, and he looked at the flawed Ying a little helplessly.

"I can...... Taking the liberty of asking you a question? ”

"Please."

"You...... It's a 'person', right. ”

"Of course."

"How old are you......?"

"Twenty-seven." Defective replied.

Jia Gu Heng suddenly trembled uncontrollably.

He suddenly remembered the situation when he first met Defect Ying in the Domain of the Sun Thirteen years ago, when Mr. Defect was not as calm as he is today, with some youthful youthfulness in his gestures.

He suddenly appeared without warning and said to himself, who was dozing off in the warm afternoon sun, "Hey, come with me."

Before Jia Gu Heng could answer, Fang Ying stretched out his left hand and gently touched Jia Gu Heng's forehead - a feeling that Jia Gu Heng could not describe, but it still made him unforgettable.

After that, he followed the man around in a daze, and finally came to Middle-earth.

I guess Mr. Bin was only fourteen years old at the time.

Look at the person in front of you now...... The childishness of those years is long gone.

It's only been a little over a decade.

Time is in people, and it really goes too fast.

And what went faster than this was their minds - from the flawed eyes, Jia Gu Heng once again saw the kind of thing that made him extremely envious and never able to get it.

For people, as long as they can accomplish one thing in their life, it can become their support...... So Mr. Bin must have found his life's job, right?

If you continue to stay with him for forty years, fifty years...... Will he also become an old man with a scarlet head like his master?

Thinking of this, Jia Gu Heng suddenly became excited.

He straightened up and bowed solemnly to Flaw, and a lot of indescribable respect and attachment rose in his heart.

"This body, this life...... From now on, Mr. Wei will look forward. ”