Although Lin Jin originally had the intention of participating in the imperial examination, but after being hit by reality, coupled with her gender problem, she was respectful of the imperial examination, so with this mentality, she went to learn the eight-strand essay that must be studied in the imperial examination, and the results can be imagined, and the learning attitude is naturally self-evident.

In fact, if the master in the class is a knowledgeable person, and the class is more interesting, she may be able to listen to it well, but like Li Fuzi, who only knows how to read according to the book, and only knows that the tough rules must do this, and do that, but he can't say a teaching method that comes naturally, in Lin Jin's opinion, she can go to school obediently every day, which is already very good, as for the rest, don't ask her how high.

Originally, Lin Jin still wanted to pretend to be a good student, but because of the Chamber of Commerce, she had to skip school for a day. finally discussed with Wu Jiugong how to deal with it, because it was getting late, Lin Jin went home directly.

When she came to Yuhua Pavilion, she saw Yan standing outside and wincing at her, before Lin Jin could react to what he meant, Ji heard Lin Ruhai's voice from the house: "Since you have gone home, why don't you go into the house yet, what are you rubbing outside?" ”

Seeing Lin Ruhai in his room, Lin Jin suddenly understood, and secretly called himself unlucky in his heart, in his past and present lives, he was arrested for skipping school for the first time, and this luck is really no one.

Seeing Lin Jin who entered the house, Lin Ruhai was angry and asked angrily, "What did you do?" ”

Lin Jin knew that everything was wrong in this situation, so she obediently bowed her head and admitted her mistake: "I'm sorry, father, I was wrong, I shouldn't have skipped school." Raising his hand in an oath, "I promise you, just this once, I will never do it again next time." ”

Lin Ruhai saw her well-behaved appearance, and his anger disappeared a little, but he immediately straightened his face and said, "Do you think you only have the wrong thing of skipping school?" Mr. told me, saying that you are so ambitious, unwilling to concentrate on learning the art of making, but waste time on miscellaneous things, and I read all your recent articles, compared with the original, there is no progress at all, and there is even a regression, what are you thinking? ”

"I also want to study hard, but I haven't grown this tendon, and if I don't open my mind, what can I do." Although Lin Jin didn't want to complain about Li Fuzi's teaching level, she still inevitably mentioned a few words when she spoke.

Lin Ruhai looked at her fixedly for a long time, then sighed and said, "That's it, that's it." It's me who demands too much of you. Forget it, I don't ask you to enter the imperial examination, you just need to take the exam to show off. When you turn back to the imperial court to raise people's names like prison students, they are helping you donate a person's name, so that even if you can't be a jinshi, you can still be an official. ”

Hearing Lin Ruhai say this, Lin Jin's eyes suddenly lit up, and he hurriedly asked, "Really?" ”

"Really, but you have to pass the exam." Lin Ruhai smiled and nodded, seeing that Lin Jin was not resisting the imperial examination, he felt that his plan was right. In fact, he didn't really deny Lin Jin the entrance examination, but seeing that she was so resistant, he decided to set a small goal for her first, and then coax her to take the exam after she achieved it.

"No problem, I promise to give you a show before you come out." Lin Jin didn't know what Lin Ruhai was thinking about, and thought that he really didn't have any requirements for her, thinking that she had already decided to plan a talent for herself anyway, so she felt that this was feasible, so she hurriedly agreed.

……

Lin Jin accompanied Yang Wan on a stroll in the garden. The maids and servants who were waiting, as well as the mothers-in-law, were all asked by Yang Wan not to approach, so they could only follow them from a distance.

Seeing Yang Wan's actions, Lin Jin, who originally thought it was just a simple garden tour, knew that she should have something to tell her, and she didn't want Aunt Lin to know.

Just as she was pondering what Yang Wan wanted to say to her, she opened her mouth and went straight to the point: "I heard that a few days ago, you had a dispute with your father because of the imperial examination, didn't you?" ”

"Hmm." Lin Jin nodded slightly and didn't say anything.

Yang Wan turned her head, looked at Lin Jin, who was almost about to catch up with her, reached out and pulled a strand of broken hair from her ear behind her ear, and said with gentle eyes: "Actually, Sumire, when you dress up, you should be a very beautiful girl, not losing to your sister Daiyu at all, and may even be more beautiful than her." ”

After listening to her words, Lin Jin took a step back, turned her face sideways, and avoided her hand when Yang Wan's hand approached her again, although she smiled, her tone was extremely firm: "Mother, how can you compare me with my sister?" I'm a boy, we're of different genders, there's no comparison. ”

"But Sumire, we all know and know that you are not ......"

"I am!" Lin Jin didn't wait for her to finish speaking, then interrupted her and said in an irrefutable tone: "I am a man." From the moment I was born and was condemned as a man, I was a man. ”

Yang Wan sighed helplessly, "Whether it's true or not, you and I both know it, why do you deceive yourself in front of me?" Sumire, as a man, must bear the burden of supporting the lintel of the Lin family, so studying carefully and preparing for the imperial examination is a necessary way to go.

You and the master said that you are not the material of the imperial examination, so you don't want to take the imperial examination, but what the real reason is, we know it well. As a woman, pretending to be a man, you will only be afraid of things like this in the future. At that time, I am afraid that you will have to deal with it, and if you don't get it right, your identity will be exposed.

Sumire, let's change back into women's clothes, no longer pretend to be men, from now on, things like the entrance examination have nothing to do with you, you don't have to live so rough like a man, you can do some things that girls should do,......"

"What do you mean a girl should do?" Lin Jin asked rhetorically: "Adjust fat and powder every day, tailor and embroider, dress up beautifully, do you want to do these girls' things?" ”

Without waiting for Yang Wan to answer, she said very simply: "But I don't like to do those girls' things, I think my life is very good now, and I want to change." If I was born as a girl, locked up in the back house every day, and lived the same life as other girls, then no problem.

But I'm not, since I was born, I was told that I was a boy, I grew up so big, I have always been raised as a boy, so my way of acting, way of thinking, thinking mode, etc., are all from a man's point of view, and then my mother suddenly told me, let me stop being a boy, change back to women's clothes, be a girl, how do you let me change?

The appearance can be changed, but it is just the difference between a few clothes, rouge gouache, and hairpins, but how do you ask me to change my heart? I've lived so big, I've always lived as a man, and you made me suddenly become a girl, and let me see things from a girl's point of view, I won't at all! ”

Yang Wan looked a little flustered and said, "It's okay, we can learn." It doesn't matter if you learn it from scratch, you are so smart, you will definitely be able to learn it before you get married! ”

"But I don't want to learn!" Lin Jin said: "Women are like birds in cages, but men can fly out of the cage to see the outside world, if I have been locked in a cage, I will not yearn for the sky, but since I have seen the vastness of the sky outside and tasted the taste of freedom, I don't want to live that life in a cage." ”

"But you're a girl after all, and you're going to get married." Yang Wan asked disapprovingly, "Do you want to pretend to be a man for the rest of your life?" ”

Lin Jin replied with an indifferent attitude: "Then it's better not to get married." ”

Facing Yang Wan's eyes, she smiled and sighed: "Li Bai once wrote, 'Don't be a woman in life, and the bitterness and happiness of a hundred years will be left to others', just two lines of poetry explain the sorrow of women in this world.

In a man's world, the wife is not good, there are beautiful concubines, there are girls who have a room, and there can be confidants outside, but a woman marries the wrong person and can only accept her fate. Even if the mother's background is tough and the mother's brother is outstanding, at most it just makes the woman's waist stiffer in her mother-in-law's house, and it is still of little use to improve the relationship between husband and wife.

Even if she marries into the royal family, the queen of the mother of a country, seems to be noble and glorious, but in fact, the honor and disgrace of the body are still tied to the emperor's man.

Of course, my mother didn't have to worry about me being alone. In this world, for a man, if he wants to have children, even if he does not marry a wife, he can have it, although there will be some criticism, but it has not risen to the point where it is shameful to have children without marrying like a woman, and it is almost impossible to survive in the world. ”

The last few sentences, in fact, are just the words, Lin Jin did not mean Yang Wan. Of course, Yang Wan also knows this, she doesn't know that Lin Jin is a person in two lives, and she already knows her life experience, but because of her early experience, she felt very harsh when she heard this, and she couldn't help but change her face.

Lin Jin was afraid that Yang Wan would not give up, so she continued: "I'll change back into my daughter's clothes, mother, have you figured out how to tell your father?" Confusing the gender of the heirs of the family, pretending to be a woman and a man, no matter which family it is in, is not allowed.

Even if the wife did such a thing, after being discovered, she was abandoned, and there was nothing to say to the Rongguo Mansion. But if the wife is abandoned, she can still go back to her parents' house, but you don't have your mother's family to rely on. Are you really ready to separate from your father after telling the truth? ”

Seeing Yang Wan open her mouth to speak, she took the first step to speak: "I know you want to say that there is also Brother Lin, Brother Lin is a male with the blood of the Lin family, although he has been passed on to the Yang family, but he has also entered the genealogy of the Lin family." But this is just a way for my grandmother to comfort my father, and in my grandmother's place, Lin Ge'er is the Yang family.

If my identity is revealed, Lin Ge'er will become the only male in the Lin family, and my father will naturally not let him inherit the heirs of the Yang family with cigarettes, and my grandmother will definitely not agree. You can't tear your face twice, with your mother on one side and your husband on the other, how will you deal with yourself at that time? ”

Yang Wan knew that in her mother's eyes, Brother Lin, as the heir of the Yang family, was heavier than her daughter, if Brother Lin joined the clan and returned to the Lin family, and once her mother knew that she had made this matter, she felt that her mother would fight with her.

Therefore, in the face of Lin Jin's questioning, Yang Wan couldn't answer it for the first time.