After all this was done, Shu Han asked the secretaries to start copying their own reports, and he returned to the room, now the time is almost about two o'clock in the evening, and there are only more than four hours left before dawn, Shu Han did not go to bed directly, but sat back on the chair, poured himself another cup of coffee, looked at the dark night outside the window, the whole person was empty, didn't think about anything, just watched quietly.

Since crossing into this world, he has seen a lot of cruelty, he once let two ordinary people die like this in order to save Lin Bida, for which he has felt guilty for a long time, but as he survives in the apocalypse for longer and longer, more and more people live because of themselves, and more and more people die because of themselves, Shu Han slowly became numb.

After coming to Black Iron City from the mining area, his work became busier and busier, and he didn't have time to think about these things anymore, and after a long time, these things seemed to have been forgotten, but in fact, Shu Han knew that it was just a short forget, in his heart, in fact, he still cared about these, he could never forgive himself, if he could have been more shrewd and more tactful, would there be fewer people who died because of himself?

Shu Han thinks this every time in the middle of the night, he can't convince himself to accept his original mistake.

Everyone makes mistakes, but in modern times, those mistakes may be stealing a pack of one-yuan snacks in the store while people are not paying attention, or not washing hands when going to the toilet, or choosing to imitate the handwriting and signature of one's parents due to poor test scores, or taking the money from breakfast to top up the game, these mistakes do not involve human life, so there is a possibility of change.

But in this apocalypse, any mistake may lead to the loss of a human life, which is completely different from the mistakes made by Shu Han in modern times, which is why Shu Han has always been guilty, and he has never been able to redeem the mistakes he has made.

In the face of this gloomy sky, Shu Han rarely had a period of time for himself, he didn't want to sleep, since he came to the apocalypse, all kinds of past appeared in front of him one by one, in a trance, he had not returned to modern times for more than a month, thinking of the things left in Su Yu's villa, Shu Han didn't know how they lived in that era?

I'm afraid that Su Yu will also go through his own stage, the social order began to die, the law of the jungle began to occupy people's hearts, everyone degenerated from people to beasts, in order to survive, began to use all kinds of means desperately, the whole society was completely chaotic, in that era, even Su Yu, I am afraid that he can only kill people, rob, to live, maybe he will have the same confusion as himself.

Modern people often can't understand the thoughts of people in the war years, and human society can't understand what these people are thinking when society collapses, Shu Han's mind is chaotic, all kinds of distractions are slowly growing in the dark night, until there is a knock at the door, Shu Han interrupted his train of thought, glanced at the clock hanging on the wall, it was already about three o'clock in the morning.

He had been sitting in front of the window for an hour, Shu Han thought to himself, time flies so fast, it must be Zhang Song who has already completed the transcription, so he shouted to the door: "Come in." Immediately the door was pushed open, but it was not Zhang Song who came in, but the doctor Zhao Qingtian, Shu Han was stunned for a moment, and then thought of his agreement with Zhao Qingtian, so he got up from the chair and said with a smile: "Zhao Qingtian, your work time is really long enough." ”

"Hey, I'm afraid you've slept at night, there are too many patients, I only care about dealing with patients, and when I get off work, I find that it's already past two o'clock." Zhao Qingtian said with a smile, his expression was slightly haggard, in the past few days, so many patients need to be treated by him, he is indeed a little tired.

"Come, sit, we haven't talked for a long time since we separated, hey, you've brought wine, that's great, I'll go get a cup." Shu Han smiled and introduced Zhao Qingtian into the house, and then instructed the entourage outside the door to get a few appetizers, and after a while, someone walked in from outside the house with a few plates, a salted chicken, a spicy duck neck, a plate of peanuts, a stack of chicken gizzards, plus a pine flower egg with tofu, five dishes, not particularly good, but the wine is undoubtedly an excellent dish.

"It's worthy of being the director, this shot is extraordinary." Zhao Qingtian smiled and teased, Shu Han didn't take it to heart, his current status, for these things that satisfy the appetite, he has long been surprised, poured the wine brought by Zhao Qingtian to the two of them, and then raised his glass and said, "Come, let's have a drink first." ”

"Okay." Zhao Qingtian also raised the cup, and as soon as the two of them touched it, they drank all the wine in the cup, Shu Han sighed comfortably, and Zhao Qingtian said with a smile: "This is not a good wine, how can you look at your expression, it is like drinking Qiongzhi nectar." ”

"Haha, I don't look at whether the wine is good or not, it mainly depends on the person, if I can drink with you Zhao Qingtian, even if it is boiled water, it is the best wine." Shu Han chuckled and said, this made Zhao Qingtian very happy, laughed twice, and said: "This is different when you are a director, when you talk about it, it is to make people comfortable, come, have another drink." ”

The two of them raised their glasses and drank together, two glasses of wine went down, and the bodies of the two people also warmed up, Shu Han gave Zhao Qingtian two chopsticks of dish, and then said, "How is it?" At the hospital, do you still insist on staying? Don't hold on, I don't want to hear the news of your sudden death one day, everyone has everyone's life, don't put yourself in it. ”

"Shu Han, you don't know me yet, I think so too, but seeing those people lying on the ground, you don't know, I really can't stand the way they look at you." Speaking of things in the hospital, the smile on Zhao Qingtian's face was only a touch of bitterness, and he said: "How young these people are, some are only fifteen years old, and they are a round younger than me, hey, go there, just call mother, I look at them, pitiful, this is only a few years old, this is going to die, alas." ”

As he spoke, Zhao Qingtian couldn't help but sigh deeply, Shu Han silently poured wine for Zhao Qingtian next to him, he knew that Zhao Qingtian must have been holding back his stomach for the past few days and wanted to say that he should be a listener at this time.

I saw Zhao Qingtian pick up the wine glass and give himself a sip, and then said: "I look at those people, can I not save them?" I know, they don't want to die, Shu Han, you know, I hate you sometimes, before that, these miners were slaves, they didn't have much fear of death, and even many people thought that death was a happy thing.

After you die, you don't have to work anymore, after you die, you don't have to starve anymore, after you die, you don't have to work before dawn every day, and you still have to wait until it's dark and you're still in the mine, Shu Han, you gave them them, they don't want to die, they want to live well, they want to make money, they want to marry a daughter-in-law, they want to have children, they want to adopt a child in the future, they want to have a real family of their own.

They want to live, Shu Han, I have been treating and saving people for so many years, and I have seen many pairs of eyes, but I have never seen so many eyes that are eager to live, and the owners of these eyes are just some fifteen or sixteen-year-old children, alas, Shu Han. Zhao Qingtian sighed again.

Hearing Zhao Qingtian say this, Shu Han also said: "Qingtian, this is a good thing, people can't just be a walking corpse for the rest of their lives, they want to live, have a good life, have what they want to do, and have their own goals to achieve, this is a good thing, now some people can't hold on, can't do it, that's their life, we can't manage so much."

In this world, it is difficult to keep yourself, not to mention taking care of everyone, I can give them a glimmer of hope, if they hate me because of this, I don't care, some people often say, send the Buddha to the west, do good deeds can not only do half of it, but no way, my ability is limited, I can only do half of the good deeds, the remaining half, I can't do it.

I'm useless, I can't mobilize more supplies, I can't get them enough healing, I can only let them wait here to die, the only thing I can do is to try to make them as comfortable as possible before they die, let the living people continue to live, find a way for those who are alive, this is the only thing I can do. ”

"I know your difficulties, I just look at those children, I feel uncomfortable, don't take it to heart." Zhao Qingtian smiled bitterly and said, Shu Han understands him very well, seeing so many children die in one day, who is not uncomfortable, not heavy, Shu Han himself is the same, he said: "I won't take it to heart, but you have to be careful yourself, you should sleep or sleep, as for treating diseases and saving people, you can do your best to obey the destiny of heaven, I am serious, you can't save everyone." ”

"But I can also save one is one, the doctor is benevolent, this is the truth that my family told me after I became a doctor, my parents have died a long time ago, the family is also poor, except for a house, this is the only thing my parents left me, I am a doctor, I can't count human lives like you, as long as I can work, I will be saved."

Zhao Qingtian's words made Shu Han's heart quite hurt, but he had to admit that Zhao Qingtian was right, he was indeed calculating life, Zhao Qingtian is a pure person, a pure doctor, a moral model, he can save people regardless of everything, but Shu Han can't, he needs to think about the gains and losses, he needs to consider the wealth that a miner can bring, and the proportion of expenditure.

Even if Shu Han doesn't want to think about this, he must also think about this, this is his duty, he must treat people as numbers, not as a living person, if he wants to do this, then Shu Han only feels that he will be tortured to death, he smiled bitterly, and said:

"Okay, I'll try my best to raise medical supplies, and I'll leave all the things here to you, you're a good doctor, and you have a sense of proportion, so I won't say anything more, come, continue to drink."

Zhao Qingtian waved his hand and said: "If you don't drink it, you will get drunk if you drink it again, and there are still many things in the hospital." ”

Seeing that Zhao Qingtian didn't want to drink, Shu Han poured himself a glass and drank it, and then said, "Zhao Qingtian, have you ever thought about going back to Black Iron City and becoming a doctor?" ”

"Back to Blackiron City? What do you do, the people there don't want to see me, and I can only be a doctor in the emergency department when I go back, which is not what I want to do, it is better to be here, I can contact any case, and I can do research at will, which is not very good. Zhao Qingtian shook his head and said, about Zhao Qingtian's past, Shu Han had also heard that Zhao Qingtian originally worked very well in the Black Iron City Hospital, and he was a very outstanding doctor among the younger generation.

But perhaps because he is too outstanding, so he is a little arrogant in his temper, during a consultation, he directly pointed out that his master had a problem with the judgment of treatment, and thought that his method should be more secure, and Zhao Qingtian's parents had been dead for many years at that time, and Zhao Qingtian's connections in the hospital did not inherit it because of his personal personality.

So after Zhao Qingtian annoyed his master, he was directly assigned to the emergency department, the so-called emergency department, that is, all diseases have to be seen, but they can't see deeply, there is no professional ward, and there is no professional doctor.

Zhao Qingtian has a very high talent in medicine, where can he stand this, he has been determined to be a really good doctor since he was a child, and hopes to study those medical methods left over from the pastoral era, so as to treat more people, so in a fit of anger, when he was drinking with his colleagues, he scolded that the people in the hospital were a group of wine bags and rice bags, and he didn't know that real gold was in front of him, and he was a group of fools.

It's good to die, Zhao Qingtian is too scheming, the person who drinks with him, the next day he passed what Zhao Qingtian said to the director of the hospital intact, the reason why this is the case, in fact, is also related to Zhao Qingtian himself, he gets along with friends, is always very straightforward, when he sees others doing wrong, he scolds when he opens his mouth, and in terms of personality, he is more upright, such a person is suitable for academics, but not suitable for rolling in society.

In medicine, Zhao Qingtian's talent is very high, and it is not too much to call him a rare genius in a hundred years, so when he sees those peers working, he will inevitably teach a few lessons, and his tone is more impulsive, he used to be a hot and popular doctor in the hospital, and naturally no one dared to be angry, but now Zhao Qingtian has gone to the emergency room to register, and he is still rushing, which naturally causes many people to be dissatisfied.

This Zhao Qingtian's friend is one of them, Zhao Qingtian himself has no connections in the hospital, and after offending his master, he was even more snubbed, coupled with this scolding, he directly entered the cold palace and was assigned to the mining area, and he stayed for three years.

When human civilization dies