I wrote that Zu has been almost two years, and two years is not long, but it is not short.

For me, it was too brief.

Briefly enough to be in my consciousness that it was only two weeks ago.

Sometimes I just got up, sat in front of the computer, turned on my mobile phone and swiped for a while, and at eighty or ninety o'clock in the evening, I found that today's novel had not been written and I had not eaten.

Write it, it's so hard, and I can't finish writing three chapters, so it's reduced to two chapters, and finally it becomes one chapter, and even one chapter is difficult to deliver.

If you don't write it, you feel like a bastard and you have failed the reader.

And so on and so forth.

And so on and so forth.

From the official writing of the book five years ago, to the present.

During this period, I watched my friends get married one after another and have children, some have one, some have two, and some have three.

And in my memory, they should still be the same as me, in junior high and high school, getting married and having children is an adult thing, and it is a very scary thing, sometimes I wake up, the first thing I think about is whether it is late for class.

After a few seconds, I remembered that I was not seventeen or eighteen years old, but already a special mother, thirty.

Well, thirty.

When I was 13 years old, I swore to my best friend that in the future, he would enter politics and I would join the business, and we would cooperate with the outside world to deal with China's bad habits, punish traitors and eliminate evil, and become bigger and stronger step by step.

Later things are the same as all realities, he didn't enter politics, I didn't enter business, but it was not bad, he was admitted to the power state-owned enterprises in other provinces, I wrote a book, the income is almost the same, a little higher than working in a factory, and there is no comparison with entrepreneurship and being a boss.

Our friendship has also come to an end in all the real worlds, and it doesn't necessarily come together once a year.

has been a maverick since childhood, so in this cruel world, it has been devastated.

Since I was a child, I have been incompatible with others, whether it is rare or not, what the ending is, the process is always painful, and in those years, or more than ten years, I have been fighting against everyone, although others have never taken me seriously.

I said in the novel that if you want to be the main character, there will inevitably be a villain who will step on you, press you, and knock you down, making you admit and accept that you are a waste.

I originally wanted to create a protagonist who rises without relying on family background or relationships, like me, but Zhang Yang in the novel finally worshiped the big tree of Daozu as a teacher, and I didn't rise at all.

Maybe my efforts for more than ten years are not as good as the one that your parents bought for you a few years ago.

Wrong, I should be confident and get rid of it.

Because of the conservative blow, I had psychosis and severe depression in the middle, and it took several years to come out, so I was originally quite fun, but then I became less fun.

Sometimes my friends take me to a drink and dinner with a group of his friends, and the group of people has a good conversation.

I watched quietly, not that I was calm, nor that I was pretending to be cultured, but that I felt that they were like a group of uneducated wild monkeys.

From a person with lofty ambitions to a person with no ambitions, my idealism is to get by, so now, I am bitter and willing to accept reality, and I am painful to be unwilling to accept reality.

I actually reflect on myself every night why I wasted so much time today.

Really, I swear every night that I will have three shifts tomorrow, but the first watch lasted for a year.

I don't lie all my life, I don't lie to people, and I ask the people around me to do the same, otherwise I will fight, don't talk like a fart, but in front of readers, I actually broke my promise again and again, obviously I just promised that I would update more in the future.

The era we are in now is the most glorious era since the human era, in this era, no kind of talent will be buried, but the troubled times need scholars to save the country, and the prosperous era is actually not needed.

Therefore, as an author, writer, or writer, in this era, in addition to the rising online literature gods and publishing bosses, every one of our authors is in danger, policies are changing day by day, the film industry is in the cold winter, and online articles are also depressed one after another.

Everything seems so, how to put it.

Beyond one's power.

Because it is written about the supernatural, it must be converted in the later stage, many people don't understand, if you write about the supernatural, it will be supernatural, why do you have to write about the fight of immortals in the later stage?

This question.

The concubines were tired.

Because you can't upgrade by writing supernatural skills, one million words will be at the top, I can write supernatural to three million words, and you promise to keep reading, but the rest of the reading, not even one-tenth of the current one.

The world is not what we imagined.

Insiders look at the doorway, and laymen look at the liveliness.

So my novel evaluation has always been polarized, this is inevitable, those who don't like to read can hate me to death, and those who like to read pay attention to reading, in addition to the speed of updates, the content is already the limit of my mental power.

The results of this book are also better than the previous ones, although from the perspective of communication, it still can't get into the eyes of those in charge of the online literature industry.

I'm used to it, too.

was finally able to restrain his arrogance with peace of mind, and held back to watch one or two people around him start a business and make a fortune, earning millions a month, and admitting that he was very ordinary with the manuscript fee that could support his own life.

I can finally stop looking at anyone's face and stop being stuck in what others think of me.

It's like when someone asks me to borrow money, I can say it calmly.

you.

The novel is in the late stages, and the number of words in the finished book is agreed to be three million words, and 2.5 million have been written, and at the current rate, it may take ten months to finish, so I will make a plan to finish it in two months, although my words are not much different from, I still have to try.

In this state now, I really can't help you old readers.

See you tomorrow.