Lin Jin accompanied Yang Wan on a stroll in the garden. The maids and servants who were waiting, as well as the mothers-in-law, were all asked by Yang Wan not to approach, so they could only follow them from a distance.

Seeing Yang Wan's actions, Lin Jin, who originally thought it was just a simple garden tour, knew that she should have something to tell her, and she didn't want Aunt Lin to know.

Just as she was pondering what Yang Wan wanted to say to her, she opened her mouth and went straight to the point: "I heard that a few days ago, you had a dispute with your father because of the imperial examination, didn't you?" ”

"Hmm." Lin Jin nodded slightly and didn't say anything.

Yang Wan turned her head, looked at Lin Jin, who was almost about to catch up with her, reached out and pulled a strand of broken hair from her ear behind her ear, and said with gentle eyes: "Actually, Sumire, when you dress up, you should be a very beautiful girl, not losing to your sister Daiyu at all, and may even be more beautiful than her." ”

After listening to her words, Lin Jin took a step back, turned her face sideways, and avoided her hand when Yang Wan's hand approached her again, although she smiled, her tone was extremely firm: "Mother, how can you compare me with my sister?" I'm a boy, we're of different genders, there's no comparison. ”

"But Sumire, we all know and know that you are not ......"

"I am!" Lin Jin didn't wait for her to finish speaking, then interrupted her and said in an irrefutable tone: "I am a man." From the moment I was born and was condemned as a man, I was a man. ”

Yang Wan sighed helplessly, "Whether it's true or not, you and I both know it, why do you deceive yourself in front of me?"

Sumire, the day before yesterday, your father asked me to persuade you not to abandon your studies, but to study hard and prepare for the imperial examination. The reason for your rejection is that you are not a material for the imperial examination, so you don't want to take the imperial examination, but what the real reason is, we know it well.

As a woman, pretending to be a man, I am afraid of encountering things like this in the future. Sumire, let's change back into women's clothes, no longer pretend to be men, from now on, things like the entrance examination have nothing to do with you, you don't have to live so rough like a man, you can do some things that girls should do,......"

"What do you mean a girl should do?" Lin Jin asked rhetorically: "Adjust fat and powder every day, tailor and embroider, dress up beautifully, do you want to do these girls' things?" ”

Without waiting for Yang Wan to answer, she said very simply: "But I don't like to do those girls' things, I think my life is very good now, and I want to change."

If I was born as a girl, locked up in the back house every day, and lived the same life as other girls, it should be no problem, but I'm not, since I was born, I was told that I was a boy, so I grew up so big, and I have always been raised as a boy, so my style of acting, way of thinking, thinking mode, etc., are all from a man's point of view, and then mother, you suddenly told me, let me stop being a boy, change back to women's clothes, be a girl, how do you let me change?

The appearance can be changed, but it is just the difference between a few clothes, rouge gouache, and hairpins, but how do you ask me to change my heart? I've lived so big, I've always lived as a man, and you made me suddenly become a girl, and let me see things from a girl's point of view, I won't at all! ”

Yang Wan looked a little flustered and said, "It's okay, we can learn." It doesn't matter if you learn it from scratch, you are so smart, you will definitely be able to learn it before you get married! ”

"But I don't want to learn!" Lin Jin said: "Women are like birds in a cage, but men can fly out of the cage to see the outside world, if I have been locked in a cage, I will not yearn for the sky." ”