In such a silent and dim corner, the two of them snuggled up to each other so closely.

Hearing Yao Siman's words, Lu Xiaoran's heart inexplicably had an indescribable feeling.

He knew very well that no matter who he was, when facing a scar in his deepest heart, there should be few people willing to bring up the old thing again.

After all, some memories, every time they are mentioned, every time they are remembered, they are destined to be a deeper pain and torment.

Thinking that Yao Siman really wanted to share with him the secret she had always hidden in her heart, Lu Xiaoran was very content, and almost decided that she was probably the most important person on the other side......

Thinking of all this, the boy forgot to continue to ask about the girl's past, but suddenly fell silent and hesitated.

After thinking about it carefully, Lu Xiaoran touched the head of the girl who was leaning on his shoulder at the moment, and shook his head seriously, "Forget it, Xiaoman, I was too nervous just now to ask questions without considering your feelings at all."

If it scares and pains you, I'd rather not have you go back to memories that you don't want to face. ”

Hearing this, Yao Siman couldn't help but be a little moved, stretched out his little hand, grabbed the hand of the young man next to him tightly, and said quietly: "Lu Xiaoran, do you remember?" You've told me about you when you were a kid before.

So...... Even if it's a secret exchange. ”

"But ......"

Lu Xiaoran was still a little uneasy.

It's a pity that he just said two words, but Yao Siman suddenly interrupted him: "That year, my grandmother just passed away, and I was probably about ten years old." ”

As she spoke, the girl's eyes faintly began to pantothenic, and she took a deep breath: "Grandma's back, my father is still the same as in the past, he goes out early and returns late every day to ask friends to gamble, and he has no heart to take care of me at all."

So my mom had no choice but to give up some of her temporary job in order to make some time to take care of me.

As a result, not only did our family lose the subsidy of my grandmother's pension, but even my mother's income from part-time work was also reduced, and my life naturally became worse day by day, and my parents began to make a big fuss about trivial things in front of me, and my mother even sometimes beat my father because she spoke badly.

Every time I see the two of them arguing, I get so scared......"

At this point, Yao Siman's body instinctively curled up a little, and continued:

"I remember a time when my mom had more smiles on her face.

She was very happy because she was pregnant with another baby, and she told me that soon I would have a little sister, and that since I found out that my mother was pregnant, my father went out less often.

I'm also very happy.

I thought that I could finally have a peaceful birthday at home.

Unexpectedly, my dad had only been at home for a few months, and when his gambling friends came to the house, he had itchy hands again.

At this time, my dad couldn't stop anymore, and he gambled more and more, stealing money from my mother or borrowing money from friends and relatives for various reasons.

It didn't take long for our family to be in debt, and no one was willing to lend money to my dad anymore.

So...... My dad started to think about the old house that my grandfather bought. ”

Finally, Yao Siman's voice began to become a little wrong, and hot tears began to pour out from the corners of his eyes.

Seeing this, Lu Xiaoran wiped the girl's tears with her hand, even though she had a heart that wanted to know everything about the other party, she was full of reluctance: "Xiaoman, don't say it, don't continue to talk about it." ”

Yao Siman bit her lip, clenched her two cold fists tightly, and continued: "That night, my mother and I were in the big bedroom on the second floor, and she was helping me check my homework in school.

Suddenly, my dad showed up.

He was like my uncle tonight, with a cold face, and walked quietly to my mother and me.

As soon as he came, he called me out, and when he saw that I refused to leave, and whether I was crying or making trouble, he carried me out and shut me out.

I was the only one outside the door, no one......

Listening to the quarrel coming from inside, listening to the sound of my mother shouting for help later, I was really scared, but ...... I couldn't help anything, so I could only cry desperately and bang on the door desperately.

However, when the door was suddenly opened by my dad, I was really frightened!! ”

When Yao Siman thought of that picture, his whole person couldn't help but tremble, grabbed Lu Xiaoran's clothes tightly, and threw himself into his arms again in fear.

Swallowing suddenly, she choked and said, "Lu Xiaoran, do you know?

My dad was standing by the door with a chair and staring at me.

In the room, my mother was lying on the puddle of blood next to the bed, there was blood on her dress, there was blood on her legs, she was covered in blood, she was covered in blood......

My mother was lying on the floor, and she looked up at me with such difficulty, and told me to turn away from her, and asked me to go back to my room.

I remember hiding out the door and crying and crying, and I didn't know what to do.

Later, my dad took my mom to the hospital and left me alone at home......

Later, I waited for several days before my mom came home.

On the day she came back, she hugged me and cried, she said that her little sister was dead, and she said that she would never be able to give me a little sister again......

For a long time, I was so scared, I always felt like there was blood everywhere in my house, and I could hear my little sister crying everywhere I went.

Probably because I'm scared, I always hide in the closet......

I always thought I was all right, but every time I saw my uncle and aunt arguing behind closed doors, I was still so scared, and every time, I still couldn't help but think of the scene I saw that night.

I didn't dare to open the door, I didn't know if I would see any terrible images when I opened the door.

What should I do if it's terrible? What to do, what to do......"

In the end, the girl's voice became softer and softer: "Lu Xiaoran, am I very useless, am I very useless......"

"Xiaoman, it's not that you're useless, it's just that you don't know how to face it yet. How could the person I Lu Xiaoran like be useless......"

Lu Xiaoran hugged the trembling girl, feeling that her heart was a little heavy, and she just wanted to hug her tighter, tighter, hoping that her body temperature could be enough to warm her cold and lonely heart.

After talking about this incident in the past with difficulty, Yao Siman hid in the young man's arms at the moment to keep warm, although he was still haunted by that incident, but deep down in his heart, somehow, as if he had finally relieved a little bit.

Thinking of his mother, Yao Siman sniffed, suddenly raised his little face to look at the young man in front of him, and asked in confusion: "Lu Xiaoran, what do you say...... Do people really have to get married? If you get married, will you be happier than if you are alone? ”