Chris continued to search for Leon's relevant information, and the more he read, the more angry he became, the lace news and love scenes that were described by the paparazzi, the affection that he had publicly shown with various actresses since his debut, and the life of Jill and his glamorous bed, which was reported by multiple media outlets, may not have realized that his fists were clenching tighter and tighter.

This is obviously a man who treats feelings like child's play, he is not suitable for Yue'er at all, Chris knows Yue'er, even if so many years have passed, there are some things that he is sure will not change.

At the moment, he wasn't sure what went wrong, but he couldn't sit idly by anyway, but how? Who is he to her? The thought of this made him feel a little bitter.

Suddenly, a piece of news caught his attention: Leon is about to go to Canada for three months to shoot, and the new film is expected to hit the Oscars!

He turned on the news and read it carefully, it turned out that he was going to Canada tomorrow, so tonight should be saying goodbye to Yue'er, plus Chris has actually been paying attention to Yue'er's movements in the past few months since he came back, so this Leon should have been so close to Yue'er recently, and they may even have just started dating.

Thinking of this, Chris closed his laptop and walked to the balcony of the apartment. The rainstorm has passed, and New York feels new and brighter.

Yue'er, do I still have a chance? Has time washed away all the bonds between you and me? Chris closed his eyes and took a deep breath, and when he opened them again, his eyes no longer flashed with indecision, but with his courage and ambition in every mission.

Actually, it doesn't matter if Leon is suitable for Yue'er or not, Chris finally faced his heart honestly at this moment, he just wanted to make an excuse for himself, a high-sounding reason to return to her side again.

But deep in his heart, there will never be a man who can replace himself to give Yue'er happiness. Only he will be Yue'er's only good match! But now that he is broken, how can he not add burden and pressure to Yue'er?

Thinking of this, he closed his eyes helplessly, originally he stopped because he still had a trace of luck, is he still waiting for him after so many years, he needs some time to adjust himself.

But tonight, seeing Leon's appearance, seeing Yue'er take the initiative to kiss him on the cheek, and his tender kiss on her forehead to say goodnight, even if these are not hot kisses between lovers who have fallen in love, this has made Chris's heart ache, and he can no longer sit still.

Thinking of this, he walked briskly back to his room and dialed a number: "(Dr. Stuart), sorry to bother you so late." Is it convenient to speak now...... The treatment you told me earlier about in Switzerland, I decided to go. Please arrange it as soon as possible...... Last time you said that based on my symptoms, it can be as fast as two months and as slow as three months, right? …… Okay, then please arrange it as soon as possible, I can go at any time. ”

Hanging up, Chris finally felt like he had taken a big step forward. Dr. Stuart is a nationally renowned military physician who specializes in traumatic stress disorder in military personnel, and it was with him that Chris was diagnosed.

However, Dr. Stuart also said that he has a mild illness, probably because he has been on the front line for so many years to carry out the highest risk tasks, and has experienced too many lives and deaths, and he has been working under this high pressure for many years to cause him to relax all of a sudden and have symptoms such as anxiety and insomnia.

Because of Chris's military achievements, the medical benefits enjoyed by an officer of his rank after being discharged from the army are also quite good. Dr. Stuart recommended the Stella Center in Zurich, Switzerland, which is one of the best PTSD treatment centers in the world, with the most professional medical team and the most cutting-edge medication and physiotherapy options, coupled with the beautiful natural environment of Switzerland, the patient treatment results are also recognized as the best in the industry.

A trip to Switzerland for two or three months would have been a great relief for a situation like Chris's, and Dr. Stuart knew about his past because he was his attending physician. He believes that Chris's heart disease is partly due to his military life, but also partly due to the upheaval in his family.

If he goes to Switzerland and his symptoms are cured, he still needs to rebuild a warm family to soothe his tired soul. Heart disease also requires heart medicine, and the family warmth that came to an abrupt end in his life will only really heal his wounds when he has it again.

All in all, the doctor was pleased to see that he was willing to take this step forward, and when he suggested it, Chris refused without thinking about it, insisting that he go to the United Nations first. It's not a bad thing to figure it out at this point, and Dr. Stuart is very happy that Chris made this decision, knowing that the biggest obstacle to the treatment of PTSD has never been the doctor, but the fact that many patients are not particularly cooperative.

Hanging up the phone, Chris looked at the twinkling stars in the sky, remembering that many years ago they had also lie down and look up at the sky, imagining what life would be like when they grew up. I also remember that the two of them were super bored counting the stars in the sky, and they were arguing because of the different numbers. In the end, Chris relented.

"Okay, okay, you can say a few."

"I was right, and if I said 49, it would be 49."

“…… It doesn't matter how many stars there are. ”

"So what's important?"

"I have only one moon."

After that, there was silence, and Chris remembered the affectionate kiss, and his whole body trembled slightly.

Does my moon remember all this? He looked up at the bright moon in the sky, pinning his endless thoughts.

Chris felt that the heavens must be in his favor, otherwise how could he have given him a chance to go to Switzerland after he suddenly realized the folly of his stoppage. If it weren't for the fact that Leon was going to leave for three months, he wouldn't have dared to leave so rashly for so long. He would be afraid that his moon would be taken first. Thanks to God's mercy, and gave him plenty of time, this time he must go to Switzerland, he must say goodbye to his broken self as quickly as possible, and then he must come back, just like he triumphs on the battlefield, to recover his lost white moonlight.

Somewhere in Bai Yueguang's heart

So bright and yet so cold

Everyone has a period of sadness

I want to hide but I want to cover it up

The white moon illuminates both ends of the world

but not by his side

I can't wipe away your tears at that time

The road is too long to chase back and forgive

You are a wound I can't speak

I want to forget but I can't help but think about it

Like stumbling all the way through exile

Your bundle cannot be released

The white moon illuminates both ends of the world

The more complete it is, the more lonely it feels

I can't wipe away the tears in my memories

How to compensate for the long road

You are a wound I can't speak

I want to forget but I can't help but think about it

Like stumbling all the way through exile

Your bundle cannot be released

Somewhere in Bai Yueguang's heart

So bright and yet so cold

Everyone has a period of sadness

I want to hide but grow