Chapter 51: Death and Impermanence
Deep Rain still remembers the scene where the painting was found. At that time, she had just left the apartment.
She didn't expect that she had also painted some paintings that she didn't know about during the sleepwalking period. When I saw Chu Mitian on the painting, I felt even more incredible.
What she draws is bound to be a scene that will happen in the future. Of course, this kind of future is not absolute, and when she paints it, it means that it is a future that can be changed.
She once committed the stupid crime of hatred and misanthropy, using the paintings she painted as bait to deliberately lead the occupants to kill each other.
"Xingchen, maybe I'll see you soon."
Deep Rain muttered to herself.
"But I want to atone for my sins as much as I can before I die."
She has always believed that the death of her lover Bian Xingchen is her retribution. But why didn't this retribution be upon herself? People like her don't deserve to survive at all.
"It would have been nice if it had been me who had died, not in the middle of the night. Why wasn't it me who opened that deadly drawer in the warehouse? If that's the case, maybe I'll be able to meet the stars. ”
In the nine years since I left the apartment, Deep Rain has been cursed by this thought every moment. Unable to calm her mind, she began to calm her mind by writing. As a result, he didn't expect to become a hot networker. She devotes the money she earns to public welfare to alleviate her guilt and inner pain. All the way up to ...... An encounter with Kitayama Jinglong.
She didn't know what she was able to do now. It can be seen from that painting that the current Chu Mitian has died and turned into an evil spirit. And she can live to this day, Chu Mizhen and Chu Mitian's sisters and brothers have paid a lot of sacrifices. Therefore, she decides to do whatever it takes to prevent the already dead Mitian from becoming the murderous spirit of the Blood Word Mission. In order not to worry Mi Zhen and prevent her and Li Yin from getting involved in the new Blood Word Mission, she decided to take on everything alone, even if she died here. She even felt that maybe she subconsciously wished to die here. She didn't have the guts to commit suicide, so she hoped to die at the hands of evil spirits.
After all, she knew very well that there must be an afterlife.
Just as she was walking down another hallway, she suddenly heard a strange voice behind her.
"Huh?"
Shen Yu's expression froze, and his body couldn't help but tremble.
She turned her head with difficulty, and her heart beat strongly.
What's behind you?
Immediately after, her eyes widened......
……
The Wheel Entrance Gym and the Luo Bride Pavilion are very different.
It is said to be probably the oldest in the shrine, and the Kitayama family shrine dates back to the time of Azuchi-Momoyama, and the construction of the Riniri Dokan was around the same time as the establishment of the Tokugawa shogunate.
When the room was opened, they felt as if they had traveled back in time to ancient Japan, especially Akitohiko, who often watched Taiga dramas.
"What is this?" As soon as he entered, Mo Yuan noticed that there was a samurai armor in the aisle. However, he basically didn't know anything about the history of Japan's Warring States period, so he couldn't see the origin of this samurai armor.
"It's just a copy." Beishan Jinghuang didn't take it seriously at all, and said: "Our family has never produced any decent samurai. Or rather, I've always hated the samurai culture in our country. ”
"Do you know if your family had any similar ability to remove spirits in that era?" Qin Ziyuan didn't have the slightest interest in whether Beishan Jinghuang liked warriors, "Or ......?"
"Probably not. At least if there were, I shouldn't be ignorant. In fact, it's a miracle that our shrine has lasted so long. During the Azuchi-Momoyama period, even if it was a daimyō, it was considered a waste to be able to eat a bowl of rice. ”
"Is it just a miracle?" Mo Yuan also noticed this sentence: "There is no other reason? ”
"I don't know ...... either"
She has never been interested in the history of her family, and she does not want to know about it.
Why did she say she didn't like samurai culture? Perhaps it's because there are so many places in the family's history that worship samurai culture. Although, his maternal grandfather Kitayama Shinshin himself did not have the shadow of bushido at all, he did not have the so-called loyalty and patriotism, and he did not want to die for the country. However, the ideas of samurai culture had a huge influence on the rest of the family.
It's ironic that at this point, she is the polar opposite of her grandfather, whom she hates, and the Aunt Koeda, whom she misses. This is also the reason why Aunt Koeda has a soft spot for Yukio Mishima's works. Yukio Mishima was a man of letters, and he could also be said to be a samurai. He has always believed that Japan has lost the spirit of samurai culture, and on the contrary, it has begun to be influenced and transformed by European and American cultures little by little, and Aunt Yukieda also recognizes this very much.
True beauty is only a human fantasy. This is the sentence that impresses her the most in Aunt Korea's reading notes. In the ending of "Kinkakuji", the reason why the male protagonist finally burned down Kinkakuji was precisely because his original illusion about the beauty of Kinkakuji was shattered in reality. Mishima eventually saw that Japan's samurai spirit had been shattered, and finally chose to self-destruct, just like the Kinkakuji Temple that was burned down by fire. Aunt Koeda's notes say that because of this, she can't understand her father, Kitayama Shinshin, who forcibly left what was supposed to be destroyed in this world.
Destruction, death...... What is truly perfect should be destroyed at the most beautiful moment. Because what is truly good cannot last long. That's why Aunt Koeda wanted to die at that time.
But at this moment, something suddenly occurred to her.
"Wait...... What was the meaning of the sentence that Aunt Koeda wrote down at that time? ”
This self-talk sentence was said in Japanese, so only Ming Chenhiko understood it completely. He hurriedly asked, "What do you mean by that sentence?" What words? ”
"So Aunt Korea's death was to escape the immortal fate that her grandfather wanted to inflict on her. Because she knew that after eating the meat, she would not die. Does she want to die outside the shrine? ”
Hearing these words, everyone fell silent.
"Foolish." Qin Ziyuan really couldn't understand Beishan Xingzhi's mentality: "If that meat is really the same as Tang monk meat, you can eat it and never get old, then I will get it no matter how much it costs." It's so hard to live, do you still want to die? ”
"That is to say," Dong Ning pondered for a while, and then said to Beishan Jinghuang: "If you commit suicide outside the shrine, can you really die?" ”
"I don't quite understand, maybe."
"You can eat meat and not die, where is there such a cheap thing." Silver Feather didn't hold out any hope for this: "The apartment will never be merciful to give us such a plug-in. I know very well that this apartment will only give us cruelty, darkness, and death. ”
At this point, everyone and Dong Ning are completely in agreement.
This is the essence of this apartment.
"Maybe it just means that we won't die in this Blood Word mission, but only for this Blood Word." Ming Chenyan still holds on to a glimmer of hope: "My understanding is that it is still possible to die outside the shrine after eating meat, but you will not die inside the shrine." ”
"Nope." Beishan Jinghuang shook his head and said, "I remember it very clearly. My grandfather always emphasized that if you have a disease that could lead to death, you must return to the shrine before then, and even if you die, you must die in the shrine. So when my mother was diagnosed with colorectal cancer, my grandfather asked her to come back to Japan immediately. ”
"Immortal...... Death...... ...... inside and outside the shrine"
Dong Ning lifted the bangs in front of her forehead, and a terrifying conjecture gradually began to emerge in her mind.
"North Mountain Jinghuang. Let me ask you a question. ”
After Jing Huang heard Dong Ning's voice, he looked at her suspiciously.
Dong Ning looked at her, and then asked, "When that incident happened back then, many servants died in your shrine. And no one in the family died? ”
"No...... No one died. ”
"Everyone in your family has eaten that meat, right?"
"I didn't ...... That's right. ”
Dong Ning then looked at the corridor in front of him and said, "None of those dead servants ...... Ever eaten meat, right? ”