Chapter 187: Denying Yourself
Yin Wanwan didn't forget to be entrusted by others before he got out of control, "Song Hui, he-"
At this kind of moment, for Qi Chu, other things are bird matters, without waiting for her to say, burying her head in gagged her mouth, "Don't be distracted at this time - I have my own measure." β
After the clouds and rain, Qi Chu hugged her, playing with her in her hand and wearing a green jade plaque around her neck, small and delicate, in her hand, almost no weight, but it was the only accessory she usually weared.
Since they got together, he bought her a lot of jewelry, but he never saw her wear one, and sometimes he would ask her what she liked, only saying that she didn't like to wear jewelry, and over time he didn't care, anyway, what to buy for her, she would accept, but never wore it.
Only this green jade pendant, which she never left with her, always carried, a thin silver necklace, wrapped around her neck, but who knew that this pendant belonged to him, or that it was the only relic left to him by his mother.
He had been wearing it since he was a child, and it was his mother who had come from the temple to bless him for his safety, and after she was injured and unconscious, he ripped off the pendant, took her hand from the unconscious, and handed her to her.
He only hoped that the blessing of the pendant could bless her from now on without any harm, in fact, he didn't want her to understand, even when she woke up, he didn't say anything, but he didn't expect her to understand, the necklace wrapped around the pendant, and the pendant entwined them for a lifetime, just like the ancient husband and wife, giving each other a love thing.
Although he didn't know what she knew or thought, she never asked him the origin of the pendant, and he didn't care, anyway, since she woke up, he didn't hope she would understand anything, but she didn't disappoint him either.
He remembered one day, after she came out of the shower, the pendant was so clear on her fair skin, he looked at her for a long time, and finally she just smiled faintly, touched the pendant with her hand, and said to him, this is what you gave me, I like it very much, thank you. Immediately, he walked over, hugged her head, buried his head and kissed it deeply, at that moment Qi Chu had to admit why this woman had been able to occupy his heart for so many years, because she knew how to occupy a man with gentle details.
After resting for a while, Yin Wanwan adjusted her breath, reached out and took the bag, took out a white plaid handkerchief from the bag, and handed it to him.
Qi Chu raised his eyebrows, "What is this?" β
She said, "This is what I gave you to me." β
Qi Chu showed a surprised expression, lowered his head and took the handkerchief, and when he saw the initials of his name embroidered on it with thread, he suddenly realized that only she would think of giving him such a gift. "I saw my aunt embroider a newlywed pillow for her daughter again, I thought it was very beautiful, so I asked her to teach me, but no matter how I embroidered, my aunt embroidered it well, you don't want it, don't dislike it."
Qi Chu smiled, "This is the first time a woman has given me a gift. β
Yin Wanwan suddenly approached his lips and dropped a kiss on his lips, "Qi Chu, I know you understand why I gave you this gift." What she gave him was not an expensive men's watch, nor was it a gift for men full of heritage, just an ordinary men's handkerchief, but the two initials that belonged to him showed a clear and peaceful temperament on the whole handkerchief. Yin Wanwan suddenly remembered that he woke up after being unconscious, and the first time he saw him, he sat opposite her like that, looking at her playfully.
"Ever since I was sober, the relationship between us, you said that we started anew, back to when we first met, so I've been trying to find a way to see you as a person, and even the intentions and thoughts behind you, but then I found out that it's difficult, but you're really good to me, so I gave up, gave up probing those questions before-"
Yin Wanwan stroked his beautiful face, "Qi Chu, I'm sorry for you - after waking up, in fact, for a long time, I just felt too lonely, and I really wanted someone to accompany me, and you happened to appear at my bedside, senior, Yingying They also said that we were together before, and without that accident, we would get married, but I still don't believe it, so I have been watching the relationship between us during that time, and there are very few feelings that can be invested in- But as we got along more and more, I gradually discovered that I had lost my memory and fell in love with you. β
Qi Chu smiled slightly, "Wanwan, this is fate, right?" β
Yin Wanwan nodded solemnly, "Qi Chu, I'm sorry, as your woman, I haven't been able to understand the real you-" She looked at him and looked into his eyes, "I don't understand what kind of courage a man needs to dare to identify a woman, but I also admit that my moral outlook is a little different from yours, but let's talk about it in the future, okay?" You don't want to do such extreme things to yourself in the future, okay? β
Qi Chu chuckled lightly, disapproving, he looked at her, like looking at a child, but she was too innocent, far from knowing him enough, and when she really understood, she might run away, run away. "It's not extreme, I can't keep youβso, I won't talk to you either."
Yin Wanwan was a little helpless, "Qi Chu-"
Just as he was about to say something, Qi Chu's voice came lightly, "However, I want to hear how you think we should talk?" On the night of early winter, Yin Wanwan leaned on his arms, her eyes were a little dilated, and when she fell into deep thought, she couldn't help but whisper to him after a long time, "Qi Chu-"
"Huh?"
Yin Wanwan sighed slightly, "Why did you choose me?" I'm sorry for you. β
Qi Chu laughed.
"I'm asking you very seriously."
Qi Chu was noncommittal, picked her up, turned her, and faced himself, "I'm also very serious, but you don't seem to believe me at all." β
"Because of your friends."
Qi Chu showed a rare expression of surprise, "My friend? Who is it? β
"Senior Gu, Qin Shaoyang." She smiled at him, "It's like the girlfriend next to the senior, and Ying Ying, who Qin Shaoyang likes, they are all - how to say, the very energetic kind, especially Ying Ying, broke into the depths of Qin Shaoyang's heart, you actually chose me, I admire you very much, I am a person who is much worse than Ying Ying regardless of temperament or personalityββ"
Qi Chu lowered his head and kissed her forehead, there was no emotion in his voice, "Do you think you are not as good as Ye Yingying?" β
Yin Wanwan didn't answer positively, "Interesting soul, no matter where you are, there will be a wonderful life, you, Qin Shaoyang, Senior Gu, and Yingying, all have such souls, but only I don't-" Qi Chu hugged her tightly and asked in a daze, "Huh?" β
Yin Wanwan said sincerely: "I'm not such an interesting person, I know very well what kind of person I am, a person like me, I only have one friend in this life, and it is difficult to make other friends, you propose to me, you want to stay with me for a lifetime, in fact, it is not necessarily a good thing." β
Qi Chu looked at her, his eyes were deep and not a little bright, even a little complicated, and she also lightly told him a fact, "I remember that after my parents died in a car accident, I was taken by my grandfather, I remember that once an elder came to the house to borrow money from his grandfather, he was actually involved by his father, and he partnered with this elder to do business before his father's death, but after his father died, his grandfather terminated the funds invested by his father outside, and this elder was also dragged down by this and was about to go bankrupt, so he would come to the house to borrow money. But Grandpa refused him, because it was this elder who invited Mom and Dad to Portugal to play, and they had a car accident, I can understand Grandpa's anger, but then I secretly stole a million from Grandpa's safe and sent it to the elder's house-"
"After being known by my grandfather, my grandfather slapped me, and that was the first time my grandfather hit me, but my grandfather beat me, but it was him who cried, I still remember that my grandfather told me at that time that he was really disappointed in my personality, and I didn't say a word - in fact, what I think is very simple, my family does not lack that million, but that million can save the elder family, what does it matter to him, but I know that such an explanation is not acceptable to anyone."
"Once I was chatting with Yingying, I asked her what she would do if there was something she liked and you wanted, but it was in someone else's hands. Ying Ying said to spend money to buy it, and if you can't buy it, you will find a way to cheat it, but my thoughts are very negative, I will pretend not to like it, or forget that I like that thing, Qi Chu, you see, I am like this, I don't have the kind of vitality that other girls should have, you and I are together, in the next few decades, there will not be too many surprises, and it will even be boring. β
"So, Qi Chu, I feel sorry for you." Yin Wanwan's voice was very light, and her beautiful eyes were full of lonely tones, "There are so many interesting girls in the world, but you have to gamble your life and live a life with a plain person like me." β
But after she finished the last word, the whole room seemed to stop suddenly, Yin Wanwan lowered her head and leaned on his arms, but the next second she was picked up by him, and when she opened her eyes again, she was already face to face with him.
She looked down at Qi Chu, and at this moment he was also looking at her with an interesting face, and his calm expression seemed to see through her.
Qi Chu spoke slowly, "You are in front of me, talking so much, denying yourself, what are you afraid of?" β
Sure enough, she saw through it.
Yin Wanwan didn't dare to look him in the eyes, but she suddenly leaned over and hugged him tightly, burying her head in his shoulder, she had never taken the initiative before, panicked like a child.
Qi Chu was silent, and couldn't bear to raise his hand and gently pat her back to soothe, "Wanwan-"
She interrupted him suddenly, "Listen to meβI feel like I want too much from you, and I covet you too much, and I'm afraid I'll be punished, Qi Chu." Her voice was a little tired, "You know what? I don't like to be like this, the more I crave it, the more I end up not getting it. β
She lay on his shoulder, her voice was weak and helpless, her eyes were lost, "I deny myself, I don't want to be denied by you in the future, I don't want you to regret it one day, I also said before that I am afraid that you will regret your decision now in the future, and bet on me with your life and marriage." β
After saying that, there was a long silence between the two, but she still hugged him tightly.