Chapter Eighty-One: Fragments of Memory
If you can, how can you be willing to hurt this person all over the body, at least I still like such a soft and glutinous little ball, even if I like it, it's just a pet-like play, but I still can't bear to hurt him after all, in the end, if it's not for the task, I may have raised him, even if it's like a pet, but after all, I will give him 100% like.
At least he won't let him be as sincere and scared as he is now, and spend every day with deep fear and the sadness of being abandoned, such days are indeed not suitable for a normal person, or when every normal person receives such feelings, it is indeed a little devastating, but he has no way to give him enough promises, after all, some things are originally extravagant for himself, and he can say more, so he doesn't know what to say more for a while, I only felt that the thoughts in my heart turned a thousand times, but in the end, it was just a gentle sigh.
"There are some things I didn't want to say too clearly, because some things shouldn't have appeared on the surface, and they shouldn't have been mentioned by me, and there are some things I think you should understand in your heart, and I didn't want to say it again, but now it seems that you don't understand it in your heart, or there are countless doubts in your heart, I know you must be curious, why did I save you back, after all, in the eyes of many people you are a useless existence, of course, you yourself also think in your heart that you are denying yourself, You never think you have any value, and you don't think you have anything to use, because you have been abandoned by your father since you were a child, so you feel painful and sad in your heart, and even full of denial of yourself. After saying this, he held up his eyes, looking at the gloom and sadness in his eyes, as if his heart had been pricked by a needle, in fact, he didn't want to do this now, but he had to open his heart as soon as possible, if he didn't open his heart quickly, the next task would be much more difficult, so he had to use this method of fighting poison to make him recognize it as soon as possible, all this to achieve his mission goal to the maximum.
"But from the first time I saw you, I felt so familiar, even if that man said he had betrayed me, he was always unique to me. But from the moment I saw you, I knew that maybe he was not unique, he could be replaced by others, for example, that person was you, in fact, you may be curious, why did I understand it in such an instant, why I could choose you, but have you figured it out? In fact, the first moment I saw you, other thoughts were born in my heart, but at that time, my heart was blinded by other things, so I couldn't see the real feeling in my heart, so I had all this now. ”
"Actually, I know that you are afraid in your heart now, afraid that I will abandon you, but you don't want to admit this feeling, you don't want to admit that you rely on me, because I was a particularly excessive existence in your heart before, but I want to tell you, even if I have done something before, but now I think I have nothing to be sorry for you, I know how excessive what I did before, but I have realized it now, so I will not do such stupid things in the future to hurt others and hurt my self-consciousnessSo I hope you can forgive me, or to another extent, stop putting your mind to my heart like this, or blaming me for the stupid things I did before. Because you believe that I will be by your side no matter when it comes in the future, although I believe that you will not believe my words so easily, but I still want to show my attitude, let you realize what I am talking about, let you know that what I say is true, and what I say is from the bottom of my heart. After saying such words, he was also rarely silent, in fact, he didn't want to say such words, after all, such words are indeed hurtful to others and himself, but he must quickly get out of such a state now, so he said such words.
After saying this, he looked at the eyes in front of him anxiously, in fact, he knew that he would not trust himself so quickly, but he still had an expectation, hoping that he could believe what he said, so he didn't know what to say for a while, just stared at her eyes tightly, with some expectations that he hadn't even noticed, in fact, in the end, he still had some expectations for this person, and he subconsciously regarded it as the little group he had met before, Innocent and kind, with a strong sense of intelligence, but full of protection.
But he didn't expect Xiao Tuanzi to listen tightly to his eyes full of fear that he hadn't even noticed, and then he couldn't help but take a deep breath, with some helplessness in his eyes that he hadn't even noticed before he spoke, "Although I don't remember who the author told me, but I once remembered that there was a person who said such things to me, and I also remember everything he said to me now, although I don't even know who he is, but I know every word he said to me, He used to say that he had been by my side all his life, but in the end he lost his word, he left me, I don't know where he went, I don't even have his appearance now, but I can know that he is indeed to me, and he has told me these things when he said such things, so I really don't know how to get rid of it, all this in the middle of the night, my voice is still in my dreams, will let his soft voice also echo with me in my dreams, But I couldn't even see who he was. ”
Chen Yuan was silent for a while after hearing such words, of course he knew that person was his previous self, and he also knew why he was erased from his memory, so he knew that this time he was himself, if he said it at this time, all this would have changed, the reason why he didn't know what to be angry about for a while, naturally knew that he should have been erased from his memory, but he didn't know what to say for a while, and after a long time, he couldn't help but sigh softly.
"Although I don't know who that person is, but I can know that he definitely didn't leave you on purpose, because the person who can say such things to you must love you very much, or you must have a high position in his heart, if nothing else, he must have left you for special reasons, I believe he also misses you in his heart, otherwise he wouldn't have said that he will stay with you forever, after all, if you are so dependent, he must be a very important person to you, Since you are able to be so important to you, he must be a very good person, and I believe you would not be so good to a person who is very bad to you, right? And I've heard that you've had a hard time in the past, and maybe he's your only light. After saying such a thing cheekily, he couldn't help but interrupt his color, looking at him like this, so a trace of helplessness flashed involuntarily in his eyes, and he said that he still had to try his best to buy time for himself, at least when he was taken off the mask, he could leave a good impression in his heart, even if he used many methods in the end, but he could still bear it, but he didn't know what to do next, so he came faster.
"I don't know what he looks like, but I believe he must be the best man in the world, but why do you think the best man in the world would choose to abandon me? Am I really not worthy of everyone's liking? Am I really not even worth that to them? I know that I have no value to my father at all, so my father sent me here, but I know that the person my father likes in his heart is not my mother at all, so I have such a move, and I also remember my mother's despair and hysteria back then, but I can't remember what that person was like, and even after I asked countless people, no one could tell me what it was for. After saying such words, tears fell down, in fact, he has not shed tears for many years, because there seems to be no one worthy of his tears in this world, and even said that his mother still remembers his harshness and reprimand back then, and he can see that in fact, his mother does not love him at all, or that his mother is more indifferent to himself.
But I love my mother, I love my mother deeply, but because she is my mother, but my feelings for that person are different, I can feel that she is really good to herself, and she can feel her feelings for herself.
I spent countless hours and energy to inquire about who that person was, but in the end it was just nothing, there have been countless people who lied to themselves that they knew the news, but in the end, they were only left with endless despair, even if they suffered some injuries, suffered some suffering, and suffered some sins, but they never regretted it, but they just felt that those people deceived themselves, it was really hateful, in fact, those people took stepping on themselves as a kind of fun, Because being able to trample His Royal Highness the Crown Prince, who was once high, under his feet is indeed the most perfect thing, at least to be able to see his former master prostrate in front of him.