"When I was a kid, I used to ask my father where my mother had gone and why she wasn't with us. When confronted by my cross-examination, my father did not say a word. Over time, I stopped asking. I don't usually think it's fun to play with the children, but every time it is dusk, the children are called home by their mothers for dinner. Looking at their mother-son relationship and licking their calves, I knew how beautiful it was to have a mother's love. ”

"At that time, my father was very busy and could not be with me all the time. I often sat in front of the scroll and watched my mother quietly and imagined her every move. Sometimes I was tired of reading it, and I couldn't bear it, so I held the scroll in my arms so that I could fall asleep. ”

"Later, when I was chatting with Lu Lao, I learned the origin of my parents' relationship. Father and mother fell in love at first sight, when they first met, the two fell in love, and both lived in seclusion in the middle of the firefly, chatting with the world, stroking the piano and making ink, so unhappy. But for some reason, the two soon had a falling out. No matter how the two compromise and tolerate each other, this contradiction has never been resolved. Finally, one day, the mother, who was seven months pregnant, left the Liren Pavilion alone and went to the Northland. Her father chased her all the way and tried his best to keep her, but he never kept her. ”

"Although my father was very intelligent, he was inevitably contaminated with some literary faults, and sometimes he was also out of style. Maybe his mother couldn't stand his affection, so she would rather risk taking the road and leave her father. Three months after my mother left, the servant woman sent me to the Divorced Pavilion and gave me to my father to raise. ”

"How could my father be willing to take me on a journey of thousands of miles to the north to find my mother, hoping that the family would be reunited. But my mother changed her ways, and my father knelt in the rain at the door of her house all night, and refused to change her mind, only the next morning I asked the maid to send a message to my father, saying that she had left the pipa and had no possibility of reuniting, and advised my father to find a good relationship as soon as possible, and not to waste time. ”

My father was disheartened, and after returning to the Liren Pavilion, he became seriously ill, and since then he has been even more obsessed with flowers. So I grew up in a pile of fat powder, and since I was a child, I know how to please women better than others, so others think I'm a merry little prodigal. But including Yue'er, I didn't even hold a girl's hand at that time. At that time, I also liked Yue'er, after all, it was a marriage to the belly, and the friendship of childhood sweethearts, it was impossible to say that there was no little temptation. Just to be honest, the women in the world are really not that different to me. Until I was fourteen...... Meet Sister Mei. ”

"When I met Sister Mei, she was already the hall master of the Genesis Loudu Branch. I just looked at her, and it felt inexplicably familiar, as if the mother in the portrait had reappeared in front of me. Her eyebrows and eyes are completely different from her mother's, but her dignified and sassy appearance is exactly the same as my fantasy mother. On that day, she was wearing a green dress, which was really fluttering. I was so persistent at that glance that I couldn't extricate myself, only to feel that the women around me were eclipsed, and it was difficult to get into the eyes. ”

"I couldn't help but approach her, and I tried my best to stay with her for a while, even for a while. After a long time, it is inevitable that the routines will run out. But no matter how lame my excuse was, she never refused. As long as I hear her call me Xiao Yang with a smile, my heart will be happy. Maybe you're going to laugh at me when you say it, in front of her, I'm just a hairy kid who just wants to stay with her forever and never be separated. ”

"But fantasy can't become reality after all. A few years later, Sister Mei met Xiao Gang Leader during a mission. Sister Mei and Xiao Gangmaster became attached because of a flute song, and since then they have been in pairs and envy others. Soon, under the recommendation of Sister Mei, the Xiao Gang leader joined the Tianwang Gang and became the hall master of Yilu Hall in the Creation Building. Sister Mei and Gang Leader Xiao are inseparable, and they no longer have time to pay attention to me, a clingy little brother. The whole gang said that the Xiao gang leader and Sister Mei were talented and beautiful, and they were a natural pair. I was the only one who was upset to hear these words. ”

"Lu Lao saw my thoughts and advised me to concentrate on martial arts and do my duty as the master of the Separation Pavilion. But I couldn't control my heart, tossing and turning every night, and my heart was flashing in front of me. ”

"But compared to Gang Leader Xiao, what am I worth? In just a few months, the Xiao gang leader has become the hottest figure in the Tianwang Gang, and he also succeeded as the owner of the Genesis Building with the full support of Sister Mei. Everyone knows that Xiao Tianwang of Chuangshilou has high martial arts, strong ability, thoughtfulness, elegance and extraordinary, holds the financial power of the Tianwang Gang, is in the limelight, and is about to scold Fang Xuan and show his ambitions. And I'm ...... There is no bright spot other than a face. It's just a young and naïve young pavilion master, an embroidered pillow Yang Tianwang. ”

"Just because Sister Mei likes him and doesn't like me, I will be unable to defeat the army, and it will be difficult to turn over."

Soon, Lu Lao had an accident and was deposed from the gang. A few years later, Sun Mengran's gang leader also died, and Xiao gang leader filled in and led the whole gang. At that time, the Xiao gang leader had just succeeded him, and his foundation was still unstable. Some of the old qualified gangsters were not convinced, and secretly planned and planned, faintly committing chaos. Sister Mei advocated for the Xiao Gang before and after, suppressed and impeached the old gang, and even risked her life at the expense of her own life, and proposed to personally go deep into the hinterland of the Yanjin Empire and assassinate the Yanjin Emperor. ”

"I didn't feel at ease, so I proposed to Gang Master Xiao to accompany me. With the permission of the Xiao gang leader, Sister Mei and I dressed up in disguise and sneaked all the way. It's already my blessing to be able to get along with Sister Mei alone, where do I dare to ask for anything else. It's just that love is there, and sometimes it's inevitable that the heart is surging and saying something faint. But Sister Mei has married Xiao Gang Master at this time, and the two are in deep love, and they are naturally no longer gentle to me as before, explaining that they only treat me as an ordinary brother, and persuade me to treat Yue'er well and not to live up to Yue'er's sincerity. I was helpless, knowing that my fate in this life was over, so I could only be sad. ”

"Wan Yan Li, as Emperor Yanjin, naturally has many masters to protect him, although the two of us have tried many times, it has always been difficult to find a chance to start. After a few days, we finally found out that Wan Yan Li was going out of the palace to hunt, and immediately set out, hoping to kill with one blow. Who knew that Wan Yan Li's son Wan Yan had already been fortified, and since we entered Yandu City, they sent people to follow us. This hunt is also a trap to attract us into the urn. ”

When Yang Yizhao said this, his face was gradually turning blue.

Seeing this, Xiao Yezi was terrified, and he had expected that the next would be a memory that he was extremely reluctant to mention. She tried to stop him from going on, but he shook his head and refused.

I only heard Yang Yizhao take a deep breath before continuing: "Wan Yan Xuan arrested me and Sister Mei and locked the two of us in a small dungeon secret room in Yandu City. The dungeon is only four feet square, even if you live alone, it is difficult to live alone, not to mention me and Sister Mei are crammed into it. But even so, Sister Mei insisted on sitting upright every day and never exceeding the courtesy. When I saw her like this, my heart grew more and more in love. ”

"Wanyan locked us up for a few days, and he didn't give us water and rice, but just took turns to interrogate Sister Mei. Every time I see Sister Mei dying and being taken back, my heart is like a knife, I only hate myself for being a man, and I can't help her undress and heal. Sister Mei is also very strong, she told me - Wan Yan Xuan wanted to recruit her and force her to be Yan Jin's spy. But she refused to obey to the death, and she was helpless. ”

"Late one night, we were so hungry that we didn't know if we would be able to make it until tomorrow. Sister Mei was dragged out by Wan Yan Yan for interrogation in the middle of the night, and when she was sent back in the early morning, she almost passed out when she saw her. Maybe it was because we were afraid that we would really die and not be able to take advantage of it, so I sent two bowls of gruel. ”

"We are hungry for this day, and Sister Mei is injured again. Even if it's just a bowl of congee, it's already a delicacy for us. Sister Mei was so injured that she couldn't move, so I took a spoon and fed her one bite at a time. She barely drank half a bowl of porridge, and finally regained some strength. When she saw that my face was like a vegetable, she persuaded me to eat some. I wanted to leave the food to her, but she insisted that if I didn't eat it, she would go hungry with me. I was so forced by her that I had to eat the rest of the soup. ”

“…… Maybe I was hungry, but it was the most delicious porridge I've ever drunk. But...... That's what I've been ...... since I was born The most regrettable meal. When Yang Yizhao said this, his fists were clenched, his whole person was tense, his eyes were red, his face was pale, and he gritted his teeth: "After killing this beast, he is in porridge...... Under the medicine of warmth. ”

Xiao Yezi didn't expect things to go like this, and his face changed greatly when he heard it: "Oh my God! She never dreamed that Yan Jinren would use such a means in order to divide Yang Yizhao and Sister Mei. In an instant, she pitied Sister Mei and Yang Yizhao, who was in prison, with no one to help, and could only be manipulated and tortured by the wicked, how miserable it was.

Yang Yizhao sneered self-deprecatingly, and the extreme remorse and self-blame made the muscles on his face twitch, and even his voice trembled: "I watched Sister Mei lose herself in front of me, becoming so charming and charming, I was very scared in my heart." I tried to push her away, but the moment she hugged me, my mind went blank and I couldn't control myself anymore. ”

"Maybe it's because of the drug, maybe it's because I just want to do it, I can't tell. At that time, I was like a beast, immersed in the excitement of filthy excitement, dark and hopeless...... By the time I woke up, Sister Mei was fully dressed and sitting across from me in a daze. Seeing her desperate expression, I knew that a big mistake had been made, and everything was irreparable. At that moment, I couldn't regret it, I was sorry for Yue'er and Xiao Gang Leader, and I was even more shameless to face Sister Mei again, I really wanted to be killed by her with a knife, it was better than hurting her so numbly, and her heart was like ashes! ”

Yang Yizhao hugged his head, knelt down along the window. He hid his face and wept bitterly, his shoulders twitched, like a lost child, going deeper and deeper in the night, and finally being devoured by the devil.

Xiao Yezi looked at his remorseful appearance behind his back, and his heart was gloomy.

At this moment, she realized that the poem "The same is the end of the world" is so cold and poignant.

She and him, one is a poor and wandering village girl, and the other is a departed pavilion master who has no worries about food and clothing, and there should be no similarity.

However, at this moment, in her eyes, he was just a man who was once as depressed, as painful, and as involuntary as herself.

She was hurt by her unlove, and she was tortured for a time. He was wounded by deep love, and thousands of arrows pierced his heart all day long.

She just wanted to hold him, with his soul, hugging each other for warmth.

Xiao Yezi walked behind him, knelt down, opened his arms, and hugged his broad shoulders.

He was shocked, and he turned back in disbelief, but he met her gentle smile.

She reached out and gently stroked the top of his head, her palm soft like a mother, firmly and gently comforting the child in her arms.

"The past cannot be changed, but at least in the future, I will stand by your side. As long as we are together, we don't have to be afraid of anything. ”

Tears poured down his eyes instantly, and he turned sharply and hugged her in his arms.

He didn't want to let go of her again. He was to be with her until he died.

After a long time, Yang Yizhao calmed down a little. The two sat against the wall, leaning on each other, warm and affectionate.

Xiao Yezi picked up one of the two jade jue, played with it carefully, and said with a smile: "Is this called jade jue?" It's verdant, but it's crystal clear, like the green water is frozen, it's really beautiful. Is it carved with a dragon? ”

Yang Yizhao smiled: "Yes, this is an allusion to the carp jumping over the dragon gate and finally turning into a dragon." I don't know if this jade jue was bought by my father for my mother. He looked down at Xiao Yezi's earlobe, suddenly smiled, stretched out his slender fingers and pinched it, and stuck a jade jue in Xiao Yezi's ear hole.

"Put this on, you're mine." Yang Yizhao smiled evilly and kissed her lightly on the side face.

Xiao Yezi touched the jade jue on his ear and smiled: "Stingy ghost, just give one?" ”

Yang Yizhao smiled, put the other jade jue back on his ear, bowed his head and whispered in her ear: "I'll keep the rest of this one first, and when we wait for the day we will have candles in the cave room, and even give you all the treasures with people." ”

Xiao Yezi was so ashamed that he hid his face and ate and chuckled. Yang Yizhao looked at her smile, still a little uneasy, so he explained: "I have already told you all about Sister Mei and me. Except for this one, the rest of the rumors are fabricated. I owe her too much because I don't want to explicitly disobey some of her decisions, so that others misunderstand, thinking that the Creation Building and the Liren Pavilion are privately aligned. But I owe nothing to her now, nothing else. ”

Xiao Yezi grinned and tapped lightly on his head: "I know." Long-winded to death. If you dare to nag like this again when you get married in the future, be careful that I divorce you. ”

Maybe he had been sitting on the ground for too long, and a gust of cold wind came through the crack in the window, and Xiao Yezi shook his shoulders and sneezed. Yang Yizhao smiled, stretched out his long arms, picked her up horizontally and put her on the bed, and carefully covered her with a quilt. Xiao Yezi just wanted to say thanks, but as soon as Yang Yizhao lifted the corner of the quilt, he got into the quilt, hugged her small body into his arms, and said: "Don't drive me out, if I get cold, I will rely on you." ”

(End of chapter)