Chapter 62: A Lifetime
The queen understood it almost instantly, and the emperor also contained deep guilt, and always couldn't help but pull, with a hint of ridicule in the corners of her mouth and eyes, and now she knew that it was too late, and her heart had already been full of holes, maybe she had infinite expectations for him before, but now this expectation has long been polished. What is full of his heart is a deep hatred, hating everyone, hating the so-called princess and mother, hating the husband who is false and wronged in front of him, and even hating his own child who has been raised since he was a child, and the so-called princess of the neighboring country in front of him, his heart is full of strong hatred for all this.
"Your Majesty doesn't feel as much as you hated me now, after all, I have done so much for you, after all, I am your wife, after all, I have done so many things stupidly, at least I have been by your side for so many years and gave you so much comfort and encouragement, but Your Majesty may have forgotten those years, if you hadn't promised me so much, how could I, a dignified and high-ranking lady, do that kind of thing regardless of identity and reserve? Does Your Majesty think I'm crazy now? But who am I crazy for? Isn't it clear in my heart now? I'm crazy because of you, because of your indifference and indifference, because of your moodiness and vagibility, that's why I'm crazy. After saying this, he laughed madly, he is indeed crazy, he doesn't even know what he should do now, and where his future is, his father and mother have long been ignorant of themselves, and he only recently learned that he originally wanted to apologize to his mother, at least let his mother save himself, and when he reached the end of this road, he remembered his mother who had doted on him the most, although he knew that it was too late, but he still had some illusory desires in his heart.
But in the end, I knew that my father had already abandoned me, in fact, I knew that my father had not pampered him, and his father had given him infinite favor, but in the end he was wiped out by his own hands, and his father was now full of deep disappointment in his heart, so his father would definitely not take care of himself again.
As for his mother, who has his father to help conceal his mother, he will not know what he has experienced, all of this can only be concealed, even his brother and brother are now full of disappointment in themselves, and they believe that if nothing else, their brother will not continue to care about himself after inheriting the family property, after all, his relationship with Brother Guan at the beginning was not very good, nor was it a close relationship, so if everything really happened, my brother would not care about himself anymore, At that time, he really fell to the point of being isolated and helpless, at least now there are still some gods of Tang Seng who support him, because he is the rightful queen, so they are still willing to stand on their side to bring some encouragement and support to themselves, but when it comes to the end, they may really reach the point of no return.
After thinking of this, my heart couldn't help but tremble, no matter how cruel I said now, how much I hate the person in front of me, but this person is really the only thing I have, if I even lose this person, maybe I really have nothing, and then I really have nothing, my son is not even my own, how did my son come to know in my heart, if I lose my son, I really lost the opportunity to turn the tables, after thinking of this, I couldn't help but tremble, the pressure and fear almost crushed this person in an instant, in fact, he had never accepted such a big pressure, he was like a flower watering flowers in the greenhouse, where after all these wind and rain, since the marriage of the husband's lack of love and other things, has already made him a little insane.
After thinking of this, his eyes involuntarily brought a little fear that he hadn't even noticed, and then looked at his husband in front of him, and then gently depicted his familiar eyebrows, which he had seen for so many years, but he still didn't get tired of it, he was still the one who said those sweet love words to himself back then, but this heart has already begun to beat for others, and this eye is full of eyes that are already someone else, although this kind of thing sounds very excessive, But it really happened to me, my husband didn't love me for a long time, maybe I should have accepted this truth earlier, but I have been deceiving myself, thinking that the feelings between two people are deep enough, so I can overcome everything.
I was so stupid at the beginning, I didn't even think about my husband, maybe it was just to deceive myself, after all, according to my identity and status at the time, there were countless famous sons and brothers waiting to marry him, and even those princes even wanted to marry him, so if he really wanted to choose, why couldn't he pick a good enough husband? But he refused everyone at the beginning, and threw himself on the person in front of him, and even felt that as long as two people could be together, everything would be happy, but then the facts gave him a good development fact, proving to himself that what he wanted was just his own helpless reverie and fantasy, and the person in front of him didn't like himself at all, did he not have a trace of love for himself in his heart, and his so-called deep feelings were just a person's joys and sorrows.
Is there anything more sad in this world than one's own one-man show? Anyway, I grew up so big, I have always been smooth, I have never experienced this kind of twists and turns, I was indeed frightened by such a situation, I never thought that one day I would be in such an isolated position, I had no relatives, even my father, who usually doted on me, chose to abandon himself, or that he had already abandoned everything for his so-called illusory love a long time ago, so he had nothing, It was only after abandoning everything that I realized that I was really nothing.
"Queen, you are indeed crazy, what are you crazy about now, have you forgotten that you are in a foreign country? The premise is to lock you up so that you can reflect on it, it is indeed not wrong, otherwise, if you are allowed to appear in the harem in this form, this harem is afraid that you will be turned upside down, it seems that you still need to recuperate, I sent Taiyi to you a few days ago, and the Taiyi was driven away by you, and now I should let the Taiyi take a good look at you. This wife is afraid that she is really crazy, because she has been cold for so many years and what she is doing now is a little crazy, after thinking of this, in fact, she is still a little scared in her heart, after all, the shadow has been doing her best for so many years, even if she has been driven away by herself these days, but she is also doing her best to complete the task.
After so many years, how could I not see what kind of thoughts the shadow actually had for this queen? Naturally, Qin Sheng is not allowed to give his whole life to his queen, but he still remembers his responsibilities and knows what kind of person he is, so he is willing to stay by his side and control himself, but after so many years, his friendship has not decreased a little, and even increased himself more and more, and even sometimes feels a little panicked, if the shadow really betrayed himself one day, maybe it is not an unusual thing for him.
It's not that I haven't thought about the bad shadow, but a person from the royal family can only have one shadow in his life, if not, he would have chosen to replace the shadow around him and replace it with a new shadow, not to mention that the shadow is loyal to himself, there is no doubt that the two of them have supported each other for so many years to get to this day, if they really replace the shadow in front of them, and then replace another person, there may not be such a shadow so loyal.
Receiving this shadow, it's just to deliver a true heart to yourself, usually that person is not favored by himself, and his wife just happens to be able to solve some problems, so he tolerates the shadow, this love is infinitely fermented and grown, but he didn't expect this friendship and love, and it became his own block on this day, so I didn't know what to say for a while, and after a long time, I couldn't help but make a look at the person next to me, and let the queen go down.
Of course, the queen understood, what the man wanted to do, glared at him fiercely, and then lowered her voice, and said fiercely with a roar, "What's wrong with me, you know better than anyone else, if you hadn't abandoned it at the beginning, how would I have become what I am now, what I was like back then, don't you remember?" Back then, I was the proudest woman in the capital, but what did you say back then? You said that there will only be me alone in this life, you say love words that are not allowed, have you forgotten all these at the beginning? Or is it that you just take those love words as coaxing, or that I was too stupid to fall into your trap and become a person in your game, in the final analysis, it's just my stupid behavior, I've finally figured it out now. ”