After a pause, Teacher Chen pinched his eyebrows, took a deep breath, and was silent for a long time before continuing to say in front of him: "Xiaoman, do you know? My fruit is really a very good child.

I remember she was just over two years old, right? Seeing that the old beggar on the side of the road was pitiful, she gave him half of her steamed buns.

At that time, I scolded her, saying that our own family was so poor that we had to drink the northwest wind, how could she still share what she ate.

Guess what that little guy said?

She even said unconvinced, "Dad, the fruit is still very small, and you can drink the northwest wind to your heart's."

I was immediately amused by the way she didn't know anything......" As she spoke, Ms. Chen couldn't help but laugh as she remembered the picture in her mind.

It's just that that smile makes people can't help but feel sad when they look at it.

Unexpectedly, at this point, Mr. Chen's voice suddenly choked up, and he held his head with both hands in a decadent manner, and fell into a collapse for a while:

"What the hell happened to me? What's wrong with life being a little harder?

Resist a single antibody, grit your teeth, won't it pass?

Guoguo is obviously such a well-behaved and sensible good boy.

But I ...... At that time, because her mother didn't say goodbye, I threw the three-year-old Guoguo to a place she didn't know at all, and wanted to abandon her?!

I swear, I really regretted it right away!

On that day, as soon as I got home alone, I immediately went back to look for Guoguo.

But......

I actually lost the fruit like this!

I'm not worthy, I'm not worthy to be her father at all!

I'm not even a human being, I'm just a brute!! ”

The more Mr. Chen spoke, the more excited he became, he lowered his head and kept pounding his head with his fist again and again.

Seeing Teacher Chen like this for the first time, Yao Siman looked slightly stunned, and her thoughts formed a net messily, weaving tighter and tighter, and some entanglements also inexplicably made her fall into a deep thought.

Before, because she didn't know the truth, she had some undeserved misunderstandings about Teacher Chen in her heart.

Unexpectedly, this Teacher Chen, who has always been eccentric in her eyes, and this Teacher Chen, who is fierce in the eyes of other students, actually has such an unknown past......

Obviously, in the past ten years, this deep regret and remorse is like a haunting nightmare, constantly entangled with Mr. Chen's every day and night, and constantly tormented his body, mind and soul.

Probably, when Mr. Chen met the girl in front of him, who had the same kind nature and the same smiling eyes as Guoguo in his eyes, he unconsciously pinned some of his regrets and thoughts for Guoguo on her.

No wonder......

Yao Siman finally figured out some things.

After listening to Mr. Chen's long confession without saying a word, Yao Siman was at a loss, and he didn't know how to comfort him, at this time, Mr. Chen wiped his tears and raised his head to look at Yao Siman, "Xiaoman, you say, is the teacher not even as good as a pig or a dog!" ”

Listening to Mr. Chen's sudden question, and then looking at his current appearance of regret and self-blame, Yao Siman's heart was also inexplicably uncomfortable.

After all, the man in front of her, since she stepped into this school, has always been the best teacher for her and the one who cares about her the most.

She could feel that this was a good teacher who was not bad at heart and was very responsible for his students.

You can't deny a person because of a single big mistake, right?

Yao Siman's mouth opened, and after all, there was still no way to give a judgment of "yes" or "no".

Not because she was afraid of Mr. Chen's feelings, but because she really didn't know how to comment on and judge his behavior back then......

Did he do it wrong?

Wrong!

It is said that tiger poison does not eat children, how can a father abandon his own daughter so ruthlessly?

I'm afraid it's not an exaggeration to be pointed out by thousands of people!

But...... She didn't really experience the life that Mr. Chen experienced back then, so naturally she couldn't really understand what kind of extent he was facing the various struggles and sufferings of life at that time, and what qualifications did she have to stand and speak without backache and criticize him indiscriminately.

If you are the person concerned, will you be able to withstand the suffering of the same life? Will the result be a different choice?

Suffice it to say that no one should be able to give such a hypothetical answer with certainty.

After all, there has always been a gene in human beings that is related to selfishness, vulnerability, and avoidance......

Probably, it is precisely because of this that in this world, things like Mr. Chen will happen from time to time, and they are not uncommon.

I only pity those abandoned children, who were accidentally brought to this world without knowing it, and suddenly like duckweed that has lost its roots, innocently abandoned in this inexplicable red world.

Thinking of this, Yao Siman only felt that his mood was a little heavy.

"Teacher Chen, don't be so sad. Are you going to keep yourself living in guilt like this? ”

Hearing this, Mr. Chen endured his sadness, bit his lip tightly, and said sadly: "Living in guilt can't make up for my past mistakes."

If only I could find her. ”

Referring to his sore spots, Mr. Chen's eyes became even darker, and he pulled his hair vigorously: "But I can't find her, I can't find her......

I thought I'd saved a lot of money over the years, so I decided that when you all went to high school, I would temporarily quit my job as a teacher and go to my daughter wholeheartedly.

I don't know if she has been living alone for so many years, and whether she is doing well.

As the saying goes, doesn't it say that as long as the kung fu is deep, the iron pestle is sharpened into a needle?

I figured I could find her as long as I could. Teacher Chen said in a calm tone, as if there were no mood swings, but he was full of deep desolation, vicissitudes and a touch of firmness.

Yao Siman stood in place, staring blankly at Teacher Chen's extremely sad expression, trying to soothe the other party's sad emotions, but felt that all the comforting words were too light and too pale.

After being stunned for a while, Yao Siman walked hesitantly to his side, and sat on the ground with his back against the stone fence like him.

"Teacher Chen, I know you feel like a big man and embarrassed to cry, but if you don't dislike my shoulders for being too small, hurry up, just lean on my shoulder and cry. Isn't it said that it's not a sin for a man to cry and cry? ”

Yao Siman turned his head sideways and looked at Teacher Chen, straightened his back, patted his shoulder heavily, pouted a small mouth, his tone could not be shirked, and he said with a serious face.

Teacher Chen saw the girl sitting down beside him, looking at the other party's strange appearance as if the boss was comforting the younger brother, and he didn't know where he was poked to laugh.

This eccentric Yao Siman is not at all at ease and plays cards.

Where would a female student talk to a teacher like that!

Sure enough, except for Guoguo, only this little girl who occasionally has some two makes him laugh.

Thinking so, Teacher Chen couldn't help but smile and mutter, "It's really not big or small." ”

Yao Siman: "......" kindly wanted to borrow a shoulder, but he was counted.

It's not a few years younger than you, is it!

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Although the girl muttered in her heart, she was still a lot relieved to see that Teacher Chen beside her had finally lost the depressed mood of Fang Cai.

"Jingle bells, jingle bells......"

At this time, in the quiet campus, the bell for the end of class echoed.

Seeing that Teacher Chen's mood was stable, Yao Siman stood up and patted his buttocks, "Teacher Chen, I have important things to do after school." Can I go first? ”

Teacher Chen nodded, "Hmm." ”

"It's just that it's ...... about being the squad leader."

Without waiting for Teacher Chen to finish speaking, Yao Siman finally nodded willingly, and smiled innocently, "Yes, yes." ”

"Then you have to take the lead, and don't fight with people at every turn." Teacher Chen said bitterly.

The girl pursed her lips, "Okay...... Got it, got it. ”

As soon as the words fell, the girl just wanted to say goodbye, but suddenly stopped moving, "Teacher Chen, don't be sad anymore, I believe you will definitely find her in the future!"

By the way, then I have to go first, goodbye Mr. Chen. ”

As she spoke, the girl quickly turned around and ran lightly and quickly towards the exit of the balcony on the top floor.