The alarm of the monitoring instrument stopped abruptly, as if to tell Su Yunjin that something had completely ended.

Su Yunjin shook her head, instinctively refusing to accept the facts.

She didn't believe that Jiang Ye just left.

Their child has just been born, Jiang Ye's spirit is obviously getting better and better, he should get better, listen to the child call him dad, and watch the child grow up.

How could he just leave?

Su Yunjin's heart was like a blade cutting, the huge pain surrounded her in a small space, she opened her mouth wide and cried silently, as if she couldn't breathe, tears flowed down her face full of tears, and fell on the face of the newborn Shen Yuechuan.

Shen Yuechuan, who had just come to this world, seemed to feel something, moved his thin hands and feet, and suddenly cried loudly.

At this time, the attending doctor and several specialists rushed to the ward.

After looking at the monitoring equipment, the attending doctor already knew that there was little hope, and after some examination, he took off his glasses and looked at the nurse heavily: "The patient no longer has any vital signs." Time of death: 17:44 on October 12, XXXX. ”

Su Yunjin suddenly realized that the doctor was announcing Jiang Ye's death.

She got up and grabbed the doctor's hand like she was grasping a life-saving driftwood: "Doctor, please don't give up. You save Jiang Ye, can you save him? Maybe he can wake up like he used to! Our child has just been born, and he can't just leave us......"

Not a very long sentence, Su Yunjin choked up and spoke intermittently for a long time, tears flowed without image, and the pleading at the bottom of her eyes was distressing.

However, Jiang Ye no longer had any vital signs, and even if he invited the most authoritative experts in the medical field, he was no longer able to return to heaven.

The attending doctor patted Su Yunjin's hand: "Miss Su, I'm sorry, Jiang Ye has already left." Condolences. ”

Su Yunjin instinctively refused to listen to this kind of words, and stubbornly shook his head: "No, doctor, there must be a way, please rescue him like before!" As long as I get him back, I'm willing to give everything......"

The doctor has long been accustomed to seeing death in the hospital, but in the face of Su Yunjin, he still couldn't help but feel compassion and comforted: "But rescue is useless." Miss Su, there is an old saying in your country: people cannot be resurrected after death. Jiang Ye is gone, I feel very sorry. But you still have a newborn child to take care of, and you have to be strong. ”

Su Yunjin looked at the doctor pleadingly, and suddenly saw the powerlessness and sympathy in the doctor's eyes.

She realized in despair that Jiang Ye had really left this world.

The person lying on the hospital bed who was losing his body temperature was no longer Jiang Ye, but Jiang Ye's body.

Jiang Ye would never open his eyes again, looking at her with gentle eyes; Never again open your hands to embrace her.

He will never open his mouth again and say, Yunjin, I love you.

He has gone somewhere. It was a place she had never been able to reach in her lifetime.

In an instant, Su Yunjin fell to the ground and cried loudly as if he had been drained of all his strength.

The attending doctor silently put a handkerchief on Su Yunjin's palm, and at the same time explained to the nurse: "Go to my office, open the drawer containing the letters, and bring the two letters inside." ”

The nurse quickly brought the things over, and the attending doctor handed them to Su Yunjin: "These are the two letters that Jiang Ye handed me a few days ago, and he asked me to pass them on to you after he left." ”

Su Yunjin took it with trembling hands and opened the letter that Jiang Ye left for her.

At the beginning of the letter, Jiang Ye said, "Yunjin, I don't want you to see this letter. Because I must have left you by the time you read this letter, and that's the last thing I want to happen. ”

Su Yunjin closed her eyes hard, but tears still burst out of her eyes.

Jiang Ye seemed to expect Su Yunjin to cry, and then said:

"Yunjin, don't cry.

"In this life, my greatest luck is to meet you, but God makes people, and I have no way to grow old with you. I'm sorry for having one of the rarest diseases in the world.

……

"If Heaven could see the world, I would always look at you, so Yunjin, you must be strong to live - along with my share. Promise me that when my affairs pass, you will be happier and happier day by day, and happy and fulfilled day by day. Otherwise, I can't have peace of mind.

"Yunjin, I hope that in the days without me, you will be safe and smooth every day, and I hope that nothing can hurt you again.

"Yunjin, this is the last time I write your name one by one, I love you."

……

With a "snap", Su Yunjin's tears fell on the white letterhead, and a puddle of water was opened, he took the letter into his arms, clinging to the position of his heart, and finally couldn't hold it back anymore and cried loudly.

Seeing this, the other doctors and nurses left one after another, and the attending doctor put his hand on Su Yunjin's shoulder: "I feel very sorry, just like what was said in that movie: In this world, there are always some people who can't grow old together." ”

After a long time, Su Yunjin raised his head and raised the corners of his lips stained with tears: "Doctor, I will grow old with him, but the world is different." ”

The attending doctor was stunned, patted Su Yunjin on the shoulder, and then left the ward.

Since Su Yunjin said so, he had reason to believe that she would be strong in the face of Jiang Ye's death.

As it turned out, the attending doctor did not guess wrong.

Su Yunjin suppressed the pain, calmly informed his friends of Jiang Ye's death, and held a memorial service for Jiang Ye, and then let Jiang Ye sleep underground on a sunny day.

There is no friend who does not comfort Su Yunjin, and Su Yunjin always pretends to be strong and answers: "I can hold on." ”

"Do you need us to take care of your children?" My friend said, "Yunjin, you just gave birth to a child, your body is very weak, and you have suffered such a big blow, we are worried about ......"

"Don't worry." Su Yunjin interrupted her friend's words, "When Jiang Ye was admitted to the intensive care ward, I had already expected this day. It's hard to accept, but I'm always going to get through it. The child is now my greatest spiritual support, let him stay by my side, there will be no problem. ”

Su Yunjin thought that she could grit her teeth and get through, and her friends believed and supported her, but the truth was much more difficult than she imagined.

Because Su Hongyuan chose this opportunity, he constantly harassed and attacked Su Yunjin, and even used all his connections to ask the hospital and friends in the study abroad circle to urge Su Yunjin to repay the debt.

Su Yunjin not only has to accept the fact of Jiang Ye's death, but also has to take care of a newborn child, and at the same time face a huge debt.

She was able to carry all this, and what broke her was that she was evicted from the apartment by her landlord when the house expired, and the cash in her hand could not even pay the rent of the cheapest slum house.

She had to take her children to and from friends to various houses.

Shen Yuechuan, who was just born, is so sensible that it is uneasy, except when he is hungry, he rarely cries, sleeps all night, and sleeps most of the time during the day, and occasionally when he opens his eyes, he just looks at the ceiling with dark eyes.

The more he is like this, the more depressed Su Yunjin becomes, she would rather the child cry and make her upset, than the newborn child to accompany her to be silent.

Because the more silent she was, the more she felt despair about to explode.

When she noticed that she was abnormal, it was Su Yunjin who found that she began to hallucinate.

She always felt that Jiang Ye was still alive, and when she heard the sound of the door opening, she would subconsciously raise her head, look over with a smile, and exclaim, "Jiang Ye." ”

But what I see is often a friend who comes back from work.

In the middle of the night, she always felt that Jiang Ye was by her side. Or she was curled up in Jiang Ye's arms with peace of mind just like before.

But when he reached out and touched the surroundings, all he touched was the cold air.

She always felt that Jiang Ye called her, and happily responded.

But in response to her, there was only endless emptiness.

Su Yunjin felt desperate and depressed, and finally one day, she slapped Shen Yuechuan, who was quietly looking at the ceiling, Shen Yuechuan glanced at her and cried loudly.

She woke up like a dream, crying and picking up Shen Yuechuan, but she couldn't coax the child.

When my friend came back from work, he saw the mother and son crying together, and hurriedly asked, "Yunjin, what's wrong?" ”

Su Yunjin handed over the child to a friend, rushed into the bath and washed her face with cold water.

When she looked up, she saw herself in the mirror, her face was yellow, her hair was disheveled, and her pupils were disheveled......

Where is Su Yunjin, it is clearly a person she doesn't know.

How could the normal Su Yunjin in the past attack a child?

Su Yunjin confessed the situation to her friend, and chatted with a friend who studied psychology for two hours, and the friend told her heavily: "Yunjin, you suffer from depression." ”

To add insult to injury, Su Hongyuan found Su Yunjin again at this time, and proposed to ask Su Yunjin to return to China and meet Mr. Cui, who had always been obsessed with Su Yunjin.

Su Yunjin naturally wouldn't agree, but Su Hongyuan found out that she was suffering from depression and threatened: "If you don't go back, I will apply to the court and I will raise the child." ”

"Why are you!" Su Yunjin was emotional, "I am his biological mother, you have nothing to do with him!" ”

"Just because you have depression, you can end your own life at any time, and you are more likely to end that child's life!" Su Hongyuan looked very sure, "Also, you are penniless now!" I have an uncle-nephew relationship with that child by blood, and if I use a little more relationship, do you think the court will award me temporary custody of the child? ”

Su Yunjin believes that Su Hongyuan did this kind of thing, and in order to hide from Mr. Cui about the child she gave birth to, once the child falls into Su Hongyuan's hands, I don't know which one it will be sent to.

But Shen Yuechuan stayed by her side, and there was also danger at all times, she didn't know when she would put a heavier hand on her child, or a heavier hand on herself.

When Jiang Ye left, Su Yunjin was not so desperate.

At that time, her life, the world she saw, was gray, and she thought about death countless times.

In the end, she decided to give up Shen Yuechuan.

Since she can't take good care of Shen Yuechuan, she may endanger the child's life at any time, Su Hongyuan is also eyeing the child, it is better to gamble once, perhaps, the child will have a better life.

At that time, Su Yunjin had already decided to let go of Shen Yuechuan and end his life.

Therefore, she didn't leave too many clues on Shen Yuechuan's body, but just wrote that his biological mother was from City A, and asked kind-hearted passers-by to send the abandoned child to the orphanage.