Chapter 65: The Past Is Unbearable
For Leng Yunyan, Yuxing is already a very complicated mood, and her feelings for this sister are especially complicated.
But no matter who her father is, she is a child conceived and born by Yu Xianyun in October, and she can't be ruthless or affectionate.
Hate and love, love and hate, she knows that it is not Leng Yunyan's fault, but how can she bear to blame Yu Xianyun, she can't do it.
Yuxing almost trembled and confirmed again: "You gave birth in August?" ”
Leng Yunyan didn't answer positively, just took a sip of tea and smiled, "Princess Yuxing, why bother to investigate some things, I will be my county lord, you will be your princess, we don't have to choose, do we?"
Leng Yunyan is right, they don't have a choice, their lives have always been out of their own hands.
But Yuxing is hate, her happiness and stability are ruined by that inexplicable love, how can she not hate.
"The queen mother and the imperial concubine mother teamed up to try to kill you, and you didn't care at all" Yuxing felt that she couldn't understand this woman anymore, and the person she had always thought was in her hands was suddenly out of control.
"As long as I am Yu Xianyun's only daughter, I will not die, you and I know this, the queen and the imperial concubine naturally also know that what is ruined now is only a reputation, not to mention that I have already lost my reputation, haven't I" Leng Yunyan's reputation is infamous, it is obvious to all, there is nothing to say.
"I heard about Phantom Clothes from an old friend of my mother, and I got Yun Chuwei again, but I just wanted an answer
But that day, the imperial concubine told me that when the courtyard in this imperial garden was full of Yun Chuwei, I knew that it was useless, and this medicine was useless to you
But I'm curious, since your appearance is not a human skin peeled off from a living person, how can you change your appearance without being affected by Yun Chuwei" Leng Yunyan said lightly, but Yuxing was not surprised to hear it, and there is nothing to hide now.
"You are smart and careful, but you are also bold and forbearing, I suddenly realized that I have underestimated you for so many years, not only me, but you are seriously underestimated by everyone
Back then, I brought you back from the barren mountains, you lived in the Jinse Palace, and even touched the back of my ears with my own hands, and there was no trace of disfigurement
For so many years, everyone thought that my face was fake, but everyone had no evidence, so they could only believe that my face was real, but you are different. You only believe in your own thoughts, so I admit to you that this is false, and after so many years, you dare to confirm whether I should praise you for being cautious or too cautious
It took you five years to prove what you have in mind, but at this moment, don't you feel sorry if you don't verify it yourself? Five years, Yuxing originally thought that Leng Yunyan had given up exploring her face, but she didn't.
"Regret? I'm only eighteen years old, but my life is already full of regrets, so what does it matter if there is one more or less? Yun Chuwei is no longer useful to you, even if you use it, what can you do? There are some answers that you could have given me personally" and her regrets are more than one.
"Eighteen years ago, when my father went out to fight and my mother went to a feast, my family was wiped out that day, and I saw a thousand people die by the sword in a courtyard
I was hidden in the dark pavilion by my mother's subordinates, but my brother was gone, and I couldn't find it even if I wanted to find it
When those people left, they set a fire in an attempt to destroy the corpse, and I was trapped in the dark pavilion, although I picked up a life, but the fire burned my face alive
When I woke up, I was no longer at home, I didn't know where I was, but the burning pain on my face was very real
Later, he told me that he was just passing by and saved me who was dying and still struggling
I didn't know who he was, I didn't know where he came from or where he was going, he asked me to call him Master, and he took me and started running around, and later I knew that he was there to heal my face.
I asked Master to help me inquire about the news of my family, but the result was too unacceptable for me to accept, my father died in battle with hundreds of thousands of soldiers, and my mother remarried someone else
I didn't believe it at first, my father was a brave fighter, he had only been defeated once in his life, and he would not allow himself to fail a second time.
My mother loved my father very much, and if he really died, my mother would not go with him, and she would never remarry, but Master took me to see it
I just looked at my mother from afar, with a big belly and a gentle look, I have seen my mother like this
That was the expression my mother had when she was pregnant with her third brother, and I knew that my mother loved this child very much, but I couldn't accept the man next to my mother
He looked at his mother's eyes cautiously, and when he looked at his mother's belly, he was a little evasive, but ......
I know that Master did not lie to me, and I also know that there is no one alive in the whole family, except for my mother and me, and my father and younger brothers have been buried according to the rules
My mother even set me up with a mound of clothes, and she accepted our death so easily, accepted to marry someone else, conceive and have children
When all was lost, Master said that he could help me restore my appearance, and even change my face, and I didn't want to live anymore, but he told me that he had found the murderer who killed my family
At that time, I lived with hatred, and when I changed my face, it was not only painful, I soaked in potions, for three whole years, and for two hours every day, I was like rolling over the blade, and I almost couldn't survive it, but when I thought of my poor brother, I felt nothing.
In order to get rid of Yun Chuwei's influence on the face change, I mixed in Yun Chuwei from the first day of taking the medicine, magnifying the pain a hundred times
What is the pain in the body, hatred is real, the day I came out of the medicine valley, I saw myself in the mirror
I saw the exact same face as my father, and Master sent me to a small town in the south of the Yangtze River, where there was a family surnamed Yun
Their daughter is the same age as me, but it just so happened that this time was gone, and I naturally became the daughter of this family
The surname Yun said that the master was their benefactor, and the master just told them that my name was Yun Chuwei
At that time, I became the daughter of the Yun family, they treated me very well, and in the years when I lost my parents, they filled in what I was missing
Until the arrival of our queen mother, she used tough and cold-blooded means to destroy my second home
I knew she would take me away when she saw my face, but I didn't expect her to be so cruel
She'll just say that the people in the town have malaria, and slaughter everyone."