Lin Hanmei was born in 1982. At that time, almost no people in the countryside had watches, not many people had clocks, and Lin Hanmei's family did not have either. Lin Hanmei didn't know how her father decided that she was born at 12 noon. Lin Hanmei thought that her father probably saw the sun at that time. And Lin Hanmei also believes that she was born at 12 o'clock.

Lin Hanmei had a memory two and a half years ago. But the adults said, "You were so young, how can you remember?" But Lin Hanmei remembered that once she woke up and saw that her parents had not slept yet, and her mother was holding her brother at that time, Lin Hanmei said, "Mom, I want to pee." Mom said, "Pee and let your dad take it." Dad took Lin Hanmei's urine with a little reluctance on his face and a little relieved expression. Lin Hanmei still remembers that her mother would sometimes make red sorghum rice. Sometimes my mother will take Lin Hanmei to my grandmother's house, and my grandmother's house and Lin Hanmei's family are in the same village, but they are not in the same team, and if they have to walk a distance, Lin Hanmei always asks her mother to hug her. Mother hugged Lin Hanmei and always said to her when she was about to go to her grandmother's house: "Old girl, Mom can't hold it, come down and walk by yourself for a while." So Lin Hanmei came down and followed her mother to her grandmother's house. When I entered my grandmother's house, my mother was sitting at the east end of the kang with Lin Hanmei in her arms, and my grandfather was lying at the west end, and my grandmother was taking medicine for my grandfather, and my grandfather was sick.

Another time, my mother wanted to take Lin Hanmei to the supply and marketing cooperatives to buy mirrors, and the supply and marketing cooperatives were 3 or 4 miles away from Lin Hanmei's house, and after walking about 1 mile, my mother couldn't hold Lin Hanmei, and said: "Old girl, you are waiting for your mother here, and your mother will come back in a while." So he put Lin Hanmei on the side of the road and left in a hurry. Lin Hanmei waited on the side of the road for a long time, and sure enough, she saw her mother coming back with a mirror. When my mother saw Lin Hanmei, she happily said, "Old girl, look! Mom bought a mirror. Later, Lin Hanmei heard a person in the village say that her mother loved to look in the mirror.

Lin Hanmei still remembers that her mother combed her student's hair at that time and liked to wear dark green clothes.

In the winter of the year when Lin Hanmei was two and a half years old, when the Chinese New Year was approaching, Houtun's grandmother asked someone to send a letter to her father to go, and the fifth aunt was sick. The fifth aunt is not in good spirits, and her grandmother asks her father to go when she is sick. Dad went for three days, and on the twenty-ninth day of the lunar month, Dad hadn't come back yet. Lin Hanmei remembered that after eating in the morning, her mother took out sugar and warm pears from the big box and said to Lin Hanmei and her brother who were playing on the kang, "Eat." "Lin Hanmei's family conditions were very good when she was a child, and her father was one of the richest people in the village. Then while playing with my brother on the kang, I saw my mother's drumming inside and outside the house, and I didn't know what I was tinkering with. When Lin Hanmei and her brother went to find their mother, their mother sat on the pyre in the outhouse, holding a big bowl of pesticides in her hand, and said to Lin Hanmei and her brother: "You and your father should live well, and your mother will die." "Lin Hanmei has been praised by adults for being obedient since she was a child. Lin Hanmei thought at the time that I wanted to be obedient, I couldn't rob it. Lin Hanmei didn't know why her brother didn't rob it. The elder brother is two years older than Lin Hanmei. Then my mother drank a large bowl of pesticides and poured them on the pyre.

It was found that Lin Hanmei's mother died because she was a little related to Lin Hanmei's family, and Lin Hanmei called her aunt. She owed Lin Hanmei's family a pot of noodles, came to return the noodles, and saw Lin Hanmei's mother lying on the pyre, so she shouted: "Little lotus seed, what's wrong with you?" "Little Lotus is Lin Hanmei's mother's nickname. Then she saw the medicine bowl that fell on the ground, and guessed that Lin Hanmei's mother probably drank the medicine, so she hurriedly ran outside to call someone. At this time, Lin Hanmei and her brother were still playing on the kang.

Soon a large house of people came to Lin Hanmei's house, and Lin Hanmei's grandmother also came. At that time, my grandfather had passed away. Lin Hanmei still remembered that her grandmother was wearing a dress, why she couldn't put her sleeves in, she cried so badly, crying: "Old girl, why are you dead?!" It was the person next to her who helped Grandma pull her sleeves, and Grandma put on her clothes. Lin Hanmei's father was also recovered, and her father said with a sad face: "I don't understand anything, I will spend money, you can help with the cooking." ”

People on the side of her grandmother's family thought that Lin Hanmei's father was not good to her mother, which led to her mother's death. But Lin Hanmei has the impression that her parents have a good relationship, and they have never quarreled in her memory.

Since then, my father has taken Lin Hanmei and Lin Hanmei's brother to live together. Lin Hanmei remembered that when her mother just died, her father would often cry in the morning before she got up, Lin Hanmei and her brother were on both sides of her father, and when she saw her father crying, Lin Hanmei and her brother also cried. When the father saw them crying, he barely stopped his tears, and while wiping the tears of her and her brother, he said, "Good boy, don't cry." Lin Hanmei and her brother said, "Well, we don't cry." Dad, you don't cry either. Dad reluctantly said, "Well, Dad doesn't cry, Dad doesn't cry." ”

Lin Hanmei remembers that once she was playing with a glass bottle filled with canned food on the kang, and her father was lying next to her. Lin Hanmei compared the bottle to her father's forehead, but her father stretched his forehead over and said, "You smash it!" Lin Hanmei really smashed her father's forehead with a bottle, and her father's forehead broke a round piece of skin. Dad said, "You kid, why are you really smashing?" "Lin Hanmei thought you asked me to smash it, I didn't want to smash it. Dad took a look in the mirror, and there was a big piece of skin on his forehead, and it was all bloody. So he said, "You smashed Dad, and Dad's death was also dead." When Lin Hanmei heard that her father was also dead, she immediately cried in fright, thinking that she had really stoned her father to death. Dad was probably really angry, and he didn't coax Lin Hanmei. Later, my brother pulled a small climbing plow and came back from playing outside, and as soon as she walked to the outhouse, Lin Hanmei ran down to find her brother, crying and couldn't wait to say to her brother: "Brother, Dad is also dead." Brother asked suspiciously, "Dad is also dead?" When he entered the house, he said, "Dad, isn't this dead?" Lin Hanmei was happy when she heard that her father was not dead, and she burst into tears and said with a smile: "It turns out that my father is not dead, I thought my father was dead." Hey. ”

Lin Hanmei remembers that in the winter morning, her brother often got up to burn the stove first, and she and her father didn't get up until the stove was hot. Sometimes my brother didn't want to get up, and my father shouted: "Little furnace officer, get up and burn the stove." So my brother got up and went to make the stove. Lin Hanmei remembered that her brother burned very well.

But most of the time, my brother doesn't stay at home, he stays at my grandmother's house.

Lin Hanmei has never seen her grandfather. I heard that my grandfather was condemned as a rich peasant when he was *****, and one day he went to a struggle meeting, and he got angry at the meeting, and came back and ate some sticky bean buns, and then he had a stick on his stomach, which was very hard, and he died after being sick for a while.

After Grandpa's death, Grandma remarried.