Chapter 18: No Ifs
"Master, can the slave or maid come in?" Xiao Xue stood outside the door and knocked on the door, since Leng Yunyan asked her to go out, she didn't want to be disturbed.
"What's the matter" Leng Yunyan didn't let Xiao Xue in directly, but asked her if it wasn't necessary, Xiao Xue didn't need to come in at this time.
"Before going to Mingyuefang, the slave went to the pharmacy and asked the shopkeeper to send some medicinal materials to replenish qi and blood, and now it has been boiled, and the master will drink some" Xiao Xue stood outside the door, holding a tray in her hand, with a bowl of steaming medicine and a plate of hawthorn cake on it.
Leng Yunyan glanced at the location where Tsing Yi was, and Tsing Yi disappeared very consciously.
"Come in" What Xiao Xue saw when she came in was Leng Yunyan leaning on the pillow and sitting upright.
"Why did the master sit up, it should be better to lie down" Xiao Xue put down the tray and pulled the quilt for Leng Yunyan.
Xiao Xue cares about Leng Yunyan, this is an indisputable fact.
"You see I've been lying in bed all day long, I'm about to lie down wrong, I should always get up, I still want to go down to the ground for a walk" Listening to Leng Yunyan's laughing tone, Xiao Xue secretly breathed a sigh of relief, but Xiao Xue herself didn't know, whether she was glad that Leng Yunyan still had the strength to laugh, or she was glad that she was still teasing herself.
"Then it also needs the master's health to be better, the master first drank the medicine and rested, tomorrow is the birthday of Princess Yuxing, and the master can ensure sufficient physical strength" Xiao Xue picked up the medicine and touched it through the wall of the bowl, it didn't seem to be so hot, "Master, this medicine still needs to be drunk while it's hot"
Leng Yunyan looked at the medicine that Xiao Xue brought to her, with a look of resistance, from the time Xiao Xue brought the medicine in, she smelled the bitter taste. "Can you not drink it?"
"Master, tomorrow is a tough battle" Facing Leng Yunyan, who was a little petty and coquettish, Xiao Xue actually had nothing to do but remind her of the importance of tomorrow.
On the surface, it is said that Xiao Xue is Leng Yunyan's maidservant, but in fact, they get along more like sisters, Xiao Xue is the meticulous sister, and Leng Yunyan is the rude and willful, coquettish and cute sister.
After listening to Xiao Xue's words, and then looking at the spoon that Xiao Xue immediately handed to her lips, Leng Yunyan sighed, tomorrow is indeed a tough battle, she can't retreat because of a medicine, all these years of suffering, which one does not need this medicine to suffer.
"Give it to me" Hearing this, Xiao Xue probably understood what Leng Yunyan meant, so she put the spoon back in the bowl.
Leng Yunyan turned out to be a medicine bowl, even if he still resisted, he still drank the medicine with his eyes closed, anyway, it was a bitterness, and the bitterness of one blow was always easier to accept than the bitterness of swallowing one bite at a time.
Leng Yunyan was even thinking that if the bitterness of her life could be the same as this bowl of medicine, it would be enough to finish the bitterness in one go, but how could life be the same as drinking medicine? Her life has always been a little bitter and a little bitter, and there is bitterness everywhere.
"Master, hawthorn cake" Xiao Xue handed the hawthorn cake to Leng Yunyan, Leng Yunyan didn't even take the chopsticks, and directly picked up a piece with his hand and stuffed it into his mouth.
It's so bitter that the bitter taste spreads from the taste buds to the brain, and the hawthorn cake can only deceive itself to relieve a little bitterness.
Xiao Xue was stunned by Leng Yunyan's movements, this ...... Her master is really different from the average boudoir lady, so heroic... No, bold.
She could only comfort herself like this, her master had not been the same since he came back that year.
She still remembered that the master who was picked up that year was yellow and thin, and he was obviously thirteen years old, but the figure was a little girl who was still malnourished at about ten years old.
At the beginning, she was distressed, didn't Prince Gong say that he would send His Royal Highness the county lord to the countryside to recuperate? It is said that the countryside has beautiful mountains and rivers, pleasant scenery, and is suitable for recuperation, but the appearance of the county lord at that time was that he was about to be raised.
"Xiao Xue, Xiao Xue, Xiao Xue" Leng Yunyan shouted several times, Xiao Xue came back to her senses, and Leng Yunyan noticed that Xiao Xue's eyes were red. "Why are you still crying, it's me who drinks the medicine?"
Xiao Xue snorted and touched her tears, "The slave maid remembered that when the master first came back, it looked like a little bit, if it wasn't for Princess Yuxing who ran into the master on a trip and brought the master back, I don't know what the master will suffer?" The prince is the master's biological father, why don't you feel sorry for the master, the prince was very concerned about the princess at the beginning."
Leng Yunyan unconsciously bit his lower lip when he heard this.
If Princess Yuxing hadn't brought her back, she might have been able to marry Chu Yufeng as Yun Qianrou, and her marriage might not have been so difficult.
If it weren't for Princess Yuxing to bring her back, she might not have to be frightened step by step in Changdu, a place where people eat people and don't spit out bones, so that she is struggling today.
If it weren't for Princess Yuxing to bring her back, she might not even have a hard time surviving to marry Chu Yufeng, and she might not have been resentful anymore.
If, but in this world, there are not so many ifs.
Does Leng Yunyan hate Jade Star? There is no doubt that she hates, hates Princess Yuxing for ruining her stable life and pushing her to the forefront with her own hands.
Does Leng Yunyan hate Chu Yufeng? The self-evident answer is the same hatred, hating Chu Yufeng for not loving her but provoking her, ruining her life's happiness and well-being, and ruining her chance to become a mother.
People say that love and love are different, in fact, hate and hate are also different, some people's hatred is eager to peel off the skin, cramps and bones, and some people's hatred is to never see you again.
The hatred between her and Princess Yuxing is endless mutual temptation, mutual support and mutual murder, but it is different from Chu Yufeng's different hatred, she hates Chu Yufeng because of love, hates because of sorrow, hates because of hate, and hates because of hatred, and it is the hatred of the fish that breaks the net to death.
Leng Yunyan came back to her senses, Xiao Xue was still looking at her with red eyes, Leng Yunyan raised her hand to wipe her tears for Xiao Xue, "You can be a mother, why do you still cry like a child"
Xiao Xue was stunned for a while, being a mother? She hasn't married yet, what kind of mother is she? As if he had reacted suddenly, he put the hawthorn cake in his hand aside, and destroyed it in front of the bed in a flash. "Did Xiao Xue do something wrong? Master, you have to drive Xiao Xue away."
Xiao Xue didn't want to go, no matter what the purpose was, she wanted to stay by Leng Yunyan's side, whether she was a slave or a maid, or she would die for her, she was a pawn in this life, and death was only a matter of time, but if she could choose to die, she hoped that her death would be of the greatest value to Leng Yunyan.
Looking at Xiao Xue, Leng Yunyan was silent for a moment, Xiao Xue's feelings for her are true, but her calculations are also true, should she believe this personal maid left to her by her mother.
"You, what are you panicking about, you see that you have long passed the age of Xu Match, you are not in a hurry at all" When Leng Yunyan faced Xiao Xue, it seemed that he was always in a very relaxed state.
"The slave doesn't want to get married, the slave wants to accompany the master for the rest of his life" until Leng Yunyan or one of them died. She didn't say the latter sentence, if her father-in-law must kill Leng Yunyan, she is willing to accompany her to Huangquan.
She has lived for twenty-three years, Yuxian Yun's mother and daughter are the best people for her, Yuxian Yun has been dead for many years, and she didn't remember much when she was young, but Leng Yunyan has been sincere to her over the years, and she can't fake it, even her own sisters may not have such affection, the word affection is rare, not to mention that she is a subordinate, it is even more rare.