Lin Hanmei remembered that she came back after going home last time, and wrote a note that everyone had a good attitude towards her, so she wanted to go home again.

Just do it, one Saturday morning, Lin Hanmei went to the head teacher to ask for leave, and said, "Teacher, I want to ask for leave to go home in the afternoon." The head teacher smiled and asked, "What are you going to do when you go home?" Lin Hanmei lied to him and said, "There is no money." The head teacher said, "Then you can go back." ”

Before class in the afternoon, Lin Hanmei packed a few books, carried her schoolbag and went to the station after three rounds at the school gate. Dad was a little surprised that Lin Hanmei came back after such a short time, and asked her if she had no money, Lin Hanmei said, "There is money." "The last time I came back, my father gave Lin Hanmei the money, and not long after, the eldest cousin of the second uncle's family went to the school and told the owner of the second canteen, and Lin Hanmei began to keep accounts in the second canteen, and Lin Hanmei rarely buys things, so she still has hundreds of yuan in her hand. Dad asked her again if there was something wrong with her coming back, and Lin Hanmei said, "It's nothing." Dad was puzzled and asked, "Then what are you doing when you come back?" Lin Hanmei lied and said, "I'm homesick." Dad said, "It's only been two days since you're homesick?" Lin Hanmei said, "Yes." ”

That night, Lin Hanmei stayed in the cafeteria, and the little cousin of the fourth aunt's family also came to the cafeteria to play. Dad just talked to his little cousin vigorously. Lin Hanmei walked up to her father a little jealously and said, "Dad, I'm back, you don't talk to me, just talk to him?" Dad was a little angry and said, "Who told you, why did you come back when you had nothing to do?" Lin Hanmei immediately hesitated, walked to the table and sat down, and couldn't help but feel that it was not interesting to come back.

In the afternoon of the next day, Lin Hanmei went back to school because she had evening self-study in the evening. When she was studying at night, Lin Hanmei didn't look at Wu Yang and them, thinking that he was at the same table with him for evening self-study. As a result, during the last evening self-study, the day students were all gone, and only the dormitory students were left to study there, and Li Wenwen, who was sitting behind Lin Hanmei, said to her tablemate Jiang Xiaoying: "I still want to go to Wu Yang and sit with them." Jiang Xiaoying asked, "Haven't they come yet?" Li Wenwen said: "I didn't come." Lin Hanmei couldn't help but "chuckle" in her heart. I turned around and asked Li Wenwen why Wu Yang didn't come to school. Li Wenwen said: "On Saturday, Wu Yang and the others were playing ball outside, and the teacher asked them to enter the house during class, but they didn't enter. Later, when they came in, the teacher said that they were two words, and they quarreled with the teacher, and then they took their schoolbags and left. ”

Then they never came to school. In the first few days, the head teacher also asked other classmates if Wu Yang came, and that classmate helped Wu Yang hand in the leave slip. Later, he said that Wu Yang went to the countryside to drink happy wine, and Wu Yang's father wrote a note to the head teacher. The head teacher read the note and said, "Generally, parents don't let their children go to school. I really don't know what his parents think. Then Wu Yang and he still didn't come to school, and later heard that they had transferred to another city.

Since the classmates knew that Wu Yang had transferred to the same table as him, everyone's attitude towards Lin Hanmei had become even worse, especially the boys. They seem to blame Lin Hanmei for writing a note to Wu Yang, which caused Wu Yang to transfer schools. In self-study classes, there are often boys who cough loudly and coldly, which startles Lin Hanmei.

One day, Lin Hanmei met a boy in a class in the first year of high school on the playground, and the boy pouted and said, "I still have 'eyes'!" ”

Wu Yang transferred to another school, and Lin Hanmei was also very sad. Lin Hanmei realized Cheng Ran's mood at this time. At that time, Lin Hanmei still wanted her classmates to transfer away, so she was so sad. I know now that I will really be sad.

Cheng Ran doesn't seem to be so sad now. Once, Lin Hanmei met him in the corridor on the first floor, and he seemed to be telling Lin Hanmei not to be so sad with his eyes.

But Lin Hanmei still couldn't stop being sad, because everyone hated her. When Wu Yang and the others didn't leave, the head teacher asked everyone to prepare a diary, write a diary, and give the diary a name, and then write a paragraph to explain the name. Lin Hanmei named her diary "Soul Song", and the following passage is: Sing a sincere song and feel life with sincerity.

Lin Hanmei hadn't written a diary seriously for several years, and this time she picked it up again. During that time, I wrote about my very bad mood, sometimes Lin Hanmei would cry secretly, sometimes I felt that I couldn't stay in this circle anymore, and wanted to escape, but I couldn't, because I still had to take the university entrance examination. Lin Hanmei felt that she didn't recruit anyone and didn't provoke anyone, why did everyone treat herself like this? Sometimes Lin Hanmei also reflects on whether it is right for her to write a note to Wu Yang, and she thinks luckily that if she didn't write that note, these things would not have happened. There are even times when Lin Hanmei feels that she is really unbearable, feels that she is living too uncomfortable, and suspects that she will die of depression.

Sometimes Lin Hanmei feels that the situation has improved a little, but she is still uncomfortable, she feels that she can ignore everything.

After two days, Lin Hanmei will find that the situation is not good, but just her own feelings. She admonished herself to spend all the time she had available on her studies and not to care what others thought.

Winter is coming. One Sunday, Lin Hanmei went to her eldest cousin's house. The eldest cousin asked Lin Hanmei if it was cold in the bedroom, and Lin Hanmei said that it was not cold. The eldest cousin said that the fourth cousin-in-law, and the children of his sister's family said that the bedroom was cold. Lin Hanmei said puzzledly: "It's not cold! "To be honest, it's really not cold in the dormitory, the school is heating, and there are more than ten people living in one room, how can it be cold just by exhaling the hot air.

The fourth cousin-in-law's sister's child is a boy, and the reason why he said that the bedroom is cold is nothing more than that he wants to go to live at his eldest cousin's house. Lin Hanmei felt that he was really thick-skinned as a boy, and he didn't look to see if there was a place at his eldest cousin's house. The eldest cousin's family now lives in the house of the third cousin's family, and the fourth cousin's family lived in it before, and later the eldest cousin's family also moved in with them. The house had only two bedrooms, not even a living room. Now the eldest cousin's family of three, the fourth cousin's family of three, and the children of the third cousin's family all live in it, all of them are crowded and cramped, how can there be a place for outsiders to live. Besides, if the bedroom is really cold, it's okay, it's obviously not cold, you are a young man, in order to live in someone's house, you open your mouth and talk nonsense, Lin Hanmei feels that his character is not good.

When Lin Hanmei went back to school that day, her eldest cousin asked her if the dormitory was cold, and said that if it was cold, she could come to live at her house. Lin Hanmei said: "Auntie, it's really not cold. ”