Chapter 138: Two Alienated Persons
Heart?! Worst!
Ouyang Lu saw Gu Xinyuan standing against the wall on the right side of the classroom door, he was shocked, and when he saw her pale face, he immediately understood that the other party heard his words, and couldn't help but feel very guilty, and was stunned for a while.
Gu Xinyuan knew that Ouyang Lu said those words to avoid suspicion, but knowing that this was the case, her heart still involuntarily ached, feeling the gaze from him, squeezing out an understanding smile, and raising her hand slightly to greet him.
"Hi, Daji, what are you doing?" The voice of a male classmate came, like thunder on a sunny day, which instantly sobered Ouyang Lu, he frowned slightly, lowered his eyes, went straight around Gu Xinyuan, walked in front of the male classmate who greeted him, and said with a smile: "Maomao, have you eaten well?" β
"I've eaten it. What about you? Have you eaten it? β
"I'm going now! I'm just going to do my homework, I'm starving! β
"Then you can go quickly!"
"Good! Then I'll go down first! Ouyang Lu said, and walked straight away.
Gu Xinyuan looked at Ouyang Lu, who was greeting others enthusiastically, silently put down his hands, pinched his fingers with both hands helplessly, sighed lightly, and couldn't help but become depressed. Suddenly, her heart lit up, and she suddenly became happy: it can't be wrong, he must be waiting for me at the stairs! Thinking of this, a slow smile appeared on her face, and she walked briskly towards the stairs, but as soon as she arrived at the staircase, she found that her conjecture was wrong, and she smiled bitterly, and suddenly her face was like ashes, and she began to think crankily: Does he really hate me? Does he think I'm a coward? Yes! I was a coward, my grandmother told me to go, and I did! At that time, I was actually scared to face all this with him! It's all my fault! He took it all on his own, but he didn't say anything bad to me at all, what more could I ask for?
"Classmate," the two girls holding hands saw Gu Xinyuan standing at the entrance of the corridor blocking the way, so they said, "Can you let me go?" β
Gu Xinyuan looked at the two girls blankly, but moved a little to the side and didn't walk away.
The two girls couldn't help but be annoyed when they saw that the little space left by Gu Xinyuan was not enough for the two of them to pass, but they saw her look dumbfounded, thinking that she had encountered something unhappy, and they didn't care about her, they glanced at each other, reluctantly let go of each other's hands, and walked over one after another.
"The food in the cafeteria is really unpalatable today!"
"When did you eat it well?"
"Hehe, you're right!"
Gu Xinyuan listened to the words that seemed to be floating in the distant sky, and just reacted, apologized and said, "Ah, I'm sorry, I'll get out of the way-" Speaking of this, she reacted again, the two of them had already walked away, and smiled self-deprecatingly, she walked to her class in despair, and when she was about to arrive at the classroom, she felt that she didn't want to enter the class, so she decided to go back to the dormitory.
"Heh, the roommates are back in class, right? Ay! Gu Xinyuan lay on the bed and said to himself, "If my roommates knew about my despicable behavior, they would definitely look down on me, right?" I'm so unrighteous...... Hey, why don't you go to evening self-study tonight? Anyway, I shouldn't have been here today...... But is this a truancy? Ay! Let's go to the evening self-study, after all, I've already taken two classes...... Speaking of which, who is to blame for this incident? If Cui Ruonan hadn't told the truth, maybe he wouldn't have become what he is now, right? Why did she go to snitch without asking anything? Does she hate me? Speaking of which, she always seems to be cold to me, she must hate me! Putting her arms on her eyes and letting the cool tears slip into her ears, she laughed at herself, "Honestly, where am I worthy of being liked?" I don't deserve to be liked at all, do I? Hehe, my parents don't like me, can I expect others to like me? It's all my fault, it's me who did it wrong, it's normal for others to dislike me, I'm a flawed person at all, not just my personality but even my personalityβ" With a long sigh, she cried and asked, "But what should I do?" What can I do? Who's going to tell me? Who's going to save me? Is there any point in living for people like me? After crying like that for a while, she held her wrist, felt the beating of her pulse, and asked softly, "But do I dare to die?" I'm afraid you don't dare, right? Hehe, I'm so cowardly, I don't even dare to die......" Squinting her eyes, she lay like a corpse until it was quiet outside the dormitory.
Knock Knock Knock β
There was a quick knock at the door, Gu Xinyuan hurriedly wiped his tears, climbed off the bed, opened the door, found that it was the dormitory aunt, and hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?" β
"What's wrong!" The dormitory manager looked at Gu Xinyuan angrily, and said in a tough tone, "The dormitory door is about to be closed, hurry back to the class, don't ink here!" β
"Well, okay!" Gu Xinyuan sighed, immediately went to get a basin of water, washed his face, and went back to class. When I arrived at the class, the head teacher was already in the class, and I heard her voice shouting that she was late, but he still sat motionless on the podium, although he couldn't see his expression, but that action had already shown that he was very dissatisfied with the fact that she was late.
Gu Xinyuan lowered his head, stood at the door of the classroom, and shouted again at the classroom: "Late!" β
"Whew-" Zhu Lei let out a helpless sigh from his nose, hooked his hand at the door of the classroom, and said reluctantly: "Come in!" β
Gu Xinyuan saw that the head teacher chose to compromise, so she immediately returned to her seat, of course she knew that the reason why the head teacher compromised was because she couldn't say her mistakes in front of the classmates, and she also knew that he was very disappointed in herself now. She thought: Anyway, because of that incident, he was already very disappointed in me, and it didn't make a difference if he was disappointed a little.
"You, come out!" Just when Gu Xinyuan was about to break the jar, Zhu Lei came to her seat, knocked lightly on her desktop, and walked out directly after speaking.
Gu Xinyuan was stunned for a moment, sighed lightly, and walked out of the classroom behind the teacher under the attention of the classmates, and at the moment when she closed the classroom door at the signal of the class teacher, she heard the whispered discussion in the class like a frying pot, and it was obvious that everyone was surprised that a student like her, who is usually more well-behaved, was called out by the teacher today.
"Hey!" After Zhu Lei sighed helplessly, he fell silent, as if he didn't know how to speak, no wonder, he has never been good at dealing with this kind of girl who has always been quiet, and he is always afraid that he will hurt the student's heart by saying the wrong thing.
Gu Xinyuan saw that the head teacher didn't speak, so she naturally wouldn't take the initiative to provoke the conversation, but she was silently bathed in the teacher's gaze like this, which really made her very uncomfortable.
Zhu Lei carefully considered his language, and was silent for two or three minutes, and finally made up his mind, and said slowly: "Xinyuan, the teacher knows that you are a good girl, that, I think you should spend more energy on studying, and things like feelings should wait until you go to collegeββ"
Gu Xinyuan looked at the cautious appearance of the head teacher, his heart was hot, he bowed to him, and said sincerely and softly: "Teacher, I was wrong!" β
"Huh?" Zhu Lei didn't expect Gu Xinyuan to admit his mistake so quickly, he couldn't react for a while, he was stunned for a while, and suddenly thought that his words that only said these words didn't seem to be enough, so he cleared his throat in embarrassment, "Ah, that, it's a good thing to change it if you know your mistakes......" After saying this, he saw that her brows were frowning and her eyes were red, and there seemed to be something sad in her heart, so he asked softly: "That teacher didn't mean to blame you, if you have any grievances, you can actually explain it, you know me, I'm not the kind of person who just wrongs people, so if you think the teacher misunderstood youβ"
Gu Xinyuan sighed lightly, raised his head suddenly, and said solemnly: "Teacher, I understand." However, a mistake is a mistake, there is nothing to explain, and there is no need to explain, I am wrong and corrected! Teacher, don't worry, I regret it from the bottom of my heart, and I promise you that I will never go to other classes in the future, and I will keep my distance from the boys! β
That's too refreshing, isn't it? How can I preach when you say that?
Zhu Lei smiled awkwardly and muttered in disbelief: "Yes, is that so?" β
"Of course it's true! Teacher, please trust me! Gu Xinyuan's eyes widened, his expression was very serious, and he looked determined.
"W-Oh well!" Zhu Lei didn't know what to say again, so he had to say, "I don't have anything to do, you go back!" Looking at Gu Xinyuan's straight back and the positive steps, I thought a little funny: Has this girl always been such a middle school second? It's so much fun!
Gu Xinyuan returned to her seat and continued to do her own test papers, at this time she seemed to have a fire in her heart, she told herself: I am a student, I should focus on studying, how can I delay my studies because of my children's personal feelings? This is not right! Puppy love is wrong, and if it's wrong, it has to be corrected!
After the evening self-study in the second period, Gu Xinyuan rested on the table, she really didn't want to go out for a run today, because there was no point in going out for a run, and she couldn't see Ouyang Lu when she went for a run-
No way! Don't think about him anymore! No way!
Gu Xinyuan shook his head vigorously, took two deep breaths, calmed down his mood, and continued to lie on the table to empty himself.
"Hey, Xinyuan!" Xia Bing came to Gu Xinyuan's seat, handed over a packet of potato chips, and asked in a calm tone, "Do you want to eat it?" β
"Huh?" Gu Xinyuan tilted his head and frowned slightly at Xia Bing, and asked suspiciously, "Are you for me?" Are you sure? β
"Hmm." Xia Bing looked at Gu Xinyuan's stunned expression, pursed the smile on the corner of his mouth, and pretended to be cold, "Not for you or for whom?" β
Gu Xinyuan's heart warmed, a happy smile appeared on her face, and she stretched out her hand, her expression was very forceful, just looking at the momentum seemed to grab all the potato chips in the bag, but when her hand holding the potato chips stretched out, she only pinched a piece of potato chips.
"You're just going to eat a slice?" Xia Bing looked at the potato chips in Gu Xinyuan's hand in disbelief, and sighed, "You said you, I thought you were going to eat all my potato chips just now!" β
Gu Xinyuan said: "How can that be! Since you take it out and eat it, it must be because you want to eat it, so I don't want to take people's love! β